Close my eyes

I'm afraid to close my eyes

Because when I do I see the secrets

I see the lies

The pain I've cause comes back threefold

And the number of lives I've ruined

Can never be told

When I close my eyes

My head swims

With your 'little' lies

And when I watch

As children cry

All I want

Is to curl up

And die

This is what my life is like

When I close my eyes.