Suicide

Darkness and death surround me

Light and love have deserted me

My life is merely an existence

I died the day I was born

I have never lived

I only exist

A futile existence

Filled with despair

Filled with misery

Filled with pain

My pain is neither in my body

Nor in my psyche

It is in my soul

I tried to stop the pain

Tried to cut the demon out

I replaced it

Physical pain hurts less

Physical pain can be controlled

My anguished screams, I muffle

My physical injuries, I celebrate

T revel in the pain and the blood

It nourishes me

It keeps me going

From day to day

Till the day my existence is over

Till this pain in my heart stops

Till the day I secede in

Suicide.