TITLE . Mishmash
Chapter Three - Someone to Love
"Umm, Sirius?" Stephanie started, "Can we go up to your dorm? Nobody is there."
Sirius looked at her with raised eyebrows, and then, with a mischievous grin playing across his face, said, "Why certainly oh gorgeous goddess of mine. I would love to spend alone time in my dorm with a blue-eyed dame." He bent down as if to pick her up, but she said, "No Sirius, not this time - we need to talk."
"Oh."
They silently trod up to the dorm. It was after the feast and Steph had business to get down to. she hated to do it.
Steph sat down on Remus's bed, and Sirius sat down opposite, his own. Steph looked at Sirius. I mean, she really looked at him, into his deep blue eyes, and she almost let slip another tear. She caught herself, and the voice in her head told her she could cry later. Steph's other head-voice, the one she controlled, decided, 'Wow. You are such a frequent visitor here at the Steph's head that we might as well let you take up permanent residence here. Your name is Squishy. I'm Jo. This is Kiki and Sart.' Stephanie's other voices all murmured hello, and Sart being the reasonable voice, told Steph that she had better get back to Sirius. The others agreed.
Sirius sat there staring at Steph - it looked like she was having a mental argument or something. She cocked her head side to side and her eyebrows up and down. He wondered silently if he was in love with a nutter. He decided he didn't care - nutters were cool. Just then she nodded her head in agreement and said, "Hey Sirius!"
"Uhhh. hey. Are you mixing potions?"
"No," she giggled, and couldn't help herself, "Just having a conversation with Squishy, Sart, Kiki, and Jo." She couldn't help it - she flashed him a charming smile.
"So Bob was right - I am in love with a nutter!"
"Oh!" she gasped. She didn't know how to tell him about James.
He gave her a puzzled look, but asked, "You wanted to talk? Or are we here in an empty bedroom to make me crazy?"
"No, I need to talk with you. Do you really love me?"
"With all my heart." Sirius replied. "I have never felt this way about anybody before. You make me laugh."
"Then I think I am going to cry."
"Why?" he asked, looking concerned.
"I love you Sirius." She started, a tear running down her familiar cheek, "But.but.." she couldn't help it, just burst into tears.
"C'mere." Sirius said, and Steph obliged, laying her head on Sirius' shoulder.
"Every time I look at James my heart flutters and I can't be with you if I am not truly, completely with you. it wouldn't be fair to you."
"Oh." He said, looking hurt and disappointed.
"I'm so sorry." She whispered. "I don't want you to hate me. Will you still be my friend? I never wanted to lose that."
"Of coarse," he said, crossing his legs and pulling her around to face him. "I will always be your friend because it is an honor just to be that." And he sat there staring into her deep, blue-grey eyes, holding her hands as tightly as possible, not ready to let go. He noticed how her long, chestnut hair fell into her pretty face and he at last let one of her hands go. Sirius gently swept her hair behind her shoulder and she looked up at him.
Steph noticed his eyes moving up and down her body, almost hungrily, finally meeting her gaze. He raised his eyebrows, and said in a deeper voice, "Do you want to say goodbye?" Stephanie giggled, but said that she shouldn't. However, she didn't listen to her own advice, but instead leaned towards Sirius.
He knocked them to the floor and they continued in this snoggish manor for only about two minutes. Then Stephanie pulled away, caught her breath, and said, 'No!' . Sirius, of coarse, asked her why.
"We broke up, Sirius."
"So?"
"So it isn't right. You know I still want to kiss you, but it will be you disappointed in the end."
"I don't mind."
"I do."
"But why? You are the one that wanted to come up to an empty bedroom to say goodbye!"
"I know. But if we were going to be friends the memory of you and me, well, you knowing, would haunt me because I would never be able to let you go. I would think about being with you constantly - I already do."
"Then don't leave me."
"I told you - it isn't fair."
"Fine!" Sirius snapped, but then added more softly, "But I still love you."
"I know." Steph said, and pulled her shirt straight again. She couldn't resist watching Sirius put his shirt back on - he was so built. They stood up and walked to the door.
"I'm going to go to bed now." Sirius said. "Goodnight, Stephanie."
"Yeah." She mumbled, still breathless, and once again giving into Kiki's advice, she kissed him firmly on the lips. "I'll miss this." She said, but pulled away when he tried to kiss her back. "I really have to go, Sirius!" she exclaimed hurriedly, but he whined in protest, "Are you really leaving me Steph?" "Yeah. For now. Goodnight, Sirius." And she pecked him on the forehead, careful to leave quickly in case she should look into his handsome face again.
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MEANWHILE after the feast the other six decided to take a walk around the like, on Michelle's advice. She told them Steph and Sirius needed to be alone and they were all only too happy to obey. James walked next to Dallas and Remus walked next to Lily. By default Michelle and Peter were beside each other, but Michelle made sure her other side was occupied by Remus.
"So guys. think of any good pranks for this year?" James asked.
"James!" Dallas exclaimed, hitting him playfully on the arm, "you're supposed to be head boy! How can you go pulling pranks?"
"Yeah James." Lily scorned. "We have to be responsible. You can't goof around this year. I know I won't."
"So? Watch me!" threatened James, and he took a running leap into the lake. "Good thing it's warm hunh?" Michelle whispered into Lily's ear. "Too bad Steph isn't here to see this." She replied, and laughing along with them, Dallas jumped into the lake as well.
"Come to join me, oh sweet one?" James asked her, and with a mischievous look she said, "Oh of coarse!" They splashed around for a bit while the others conversed.
"I thought she liked Sirius?" Lily asked Michelle.
"That's what she said!" Michelle angrily announced. "If she doesn't, Stephanie is going to be upset. She told me she was going to cut it off with him tonight, instead of later on, so that Dallas could have a fair chance!"
"I dunno.." Said Lily, "She looks to be having fun."
The two looked back to the lake and saw James pick a screeching Dallas up and throw her into the depths of the water.
"James! You are so dead!" she screamed, and jumped on top of him, submerging him.
"Uggggh!" Lily quietly said to herself. They were FLIRTING! How DISGUSTING! 'James is so stuck up' her head said, and yet she caught herself staring at them.
Remus walked over to the lake and took his shoes off. He rolled up his pant legs and casually dropped his feet into the cool water. Lily, tearing her gaze away from the flirters, walked over and sat down beside him. Taking her sandals off she too dipped her bare legs into the lake. (A/N she is wearing a skirt, not NAKED!) Remus looked over at her; shocked that pretty Lily would come sit beside Remus. Lily figured, Sirius is at the castle, James is in the water, and Peter doesn't like me. I might as well sit with Remus while he's single, you never know. And she didn't know. Remus liked her. (A/N referral to chap. 1)
"Hey Remus." Lily said in a mock-casual voice. "What's new?"
"Oh gee.. I don't know! I only talked to you, what, two minutes ago?"
"Oh you are so dense!" Lily giggled. "That is not what I meant! I meant, we haven't really talked since last year, and on the train you were, uh, busy."
"Yeah, well, me and Michelle kind of split."
"I know, Ree-ree. I'm sorry." Lily said, looking at Remus sadly. She actually looked like she would cry.
"Michelle was so upset."
"I know."
"Why did you do it anyways, Remus? You looked so in love."
"I love her in a way, but I really want to get to know someone else who I really like." Remus mumbled, clearly embarrassed.
"Who?" Lily asked eagerly, "I won't tell a soul!" She looked deep into his eyes, hers a-twinkle, and she saw him frown slightly, and say, "Do you promise, Lily Evans, not to tell a soul?"
"Of coarse! That's what friends are for!"
"Well then, you." He quietly, softly, almost inaudibly said.
Lily quietly gasped, to shocked to reply. Mej, her head-voice, said, 'Umm Lily? Maybe you should kiss him now. I mean, he was obviously nervous about telling you he liked you and shouldn't you let him know you like him?' "Yeah." Lily mumbled.
"Pardon?" Remus asked, a little taken back. But in reply, Lily followed Mej's advice and leaned in closer for a kiss. When Remus saw this he leaned towards her a bit as well and they softly kissed for .hmmm.. Ten seconds, maybe? And then pulled away.
"So do you like me?" Remus asked, barely able to breath.
"I think so." Lily replied, but unlike Remus she was completely composed. She took his hand as she slipped into the water. (A/N in case you are wondering, the part where they are is sort of like a drop-off, no shore, that is why they can hang their feet. It is probably about four, four and a half feet deep.)
Lily dragged him in after her and he put his hands around her waist. She looked in to his eyes and she felt a spark as his face approached hers. Her stomach did a flip-flop and they stood there snogging.
Michelle watched the whole thing and inside she felt empty. She had lost her boyfriend to her best friend. She suddenly felt like she would like to rip Lily apart, and then immediately felt guilty.
"Lily is my friend." She said to herself. "My best friend. Remus and I are over and I have to accept the fact that he will be with other girls."
"You are right," Peter said, still beside her. Michelle blushed as she realized she voiced her thoughts out loud. "and you should be with other boys." He finished. She looked at him and realized what he meant.
"Oh Peter!" Michelle gasped. It was too much for her to handle. She didn't like him like that. "Do you want to go sit down?" she asked, motioning to the oak tree.
"A-alright!" he stuttered, clearly taking her gasp the wrong way. As they sat down Michelle had to catch herself from laughing-she couldn't imagine her and Peter in a million years.
"Okay.Peter? Do you like me?" He looked at Michelle, trying to decide weather or not to tell her. Finally he nodded.
"Peter? I like you as a friend. You are a great friend. But Peter? That is all you are." He looked at her, apparently hurt and upset, and then he snapped.
"Fine! Fine. Fine. FINE! I should've taken Lily when I had the chance. instead I chose you and what do you do? Turn me DOWN!" With that, Peter ran away, tears streaming from his face.
Dallas and James stopped there relentless water fight to stare at the commotion, as did Lily and Remus their snogging.
"What's up?" Dallas asked.
"Yeah, what was that all about?" Remus added.
"Ummm.. Peter just said that he liked me and I tried to tell him that we were just friends and he got mad and stormed off!" Michelle screeched. "I don't know what is wrong with him!"
"Oh." James said. "We'll deal with him later. But why are Lily and Remus standing together in the lake?"
"Why are you and Dallas standing together in the lake?" Lily shot back.
"I really don't know!" James exclaimed, and climbed out of the water shaking his head like a dog.
"Eeeeeeee!" Dallas flirtatiously screeched. "You're getting me wet!"
"Honey, you're already wet! Look where you are!" He laughed, and then scooped her up and out of the lake, plopping her on the ground. Lily looked at Remus and Remus looked at Lily. They both rolled their eyes and laughed.
"What?" They both asked.
"Nothing!" Lily said exasperated. Remus caught her off guard and scooped her up as well, setting her on the edge of the grass. She looked down at him and him up at her, and she said, "Is it okay if we let them know your secret now?" Remus nodded and they yet again found each of themselves in a lip-lock.
Dallas gasped and looked at Michelle. She nodded and Dallas smiled. "I guess she found someone to love, then?
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A/N Hey there! If you are reading my story, I know it is fuffy, but bear with me! This is my first fanfic. Just please remember to review or I might stop writing. (lol. Not like anyone is reading this anywhoo!)
Raw~Bean
Chapter Three - Someone to Love
"Umm, Sirius?" Stephanie started, "Can we go up to your dorm? Nobody is there."
Sirius looked at her with raised eyebrows, and then, with a mischievous grin playing across his face, said, "Why certainly oh gorgeous goddess of mine. I would love to spend alone time in my dorm with a blue-eyed dame." He bent down as if to pick her up, but she said, "No Sirius, not this time - we need to talk."
"Oh."
They silently trod up to the dorm. It was after the feast and Steph had business to get down to. she hated to do it.
Steph sat down on Remus's bed, and Sirius sat down opposite, his own. Steph looked at Sirius. I mean, she really looked at him, into his deep blue eyes, and she almost let slip another tear. She caught herself, and the voice in her head told her she could cry later. Steph's other head-voice, the one she controlled, decided, 'Wow. You are such a frequent visitor here at the Steph's head that we might as well let you take up permanent residence here. Your name is Squishy. I'm Jo. This is Kiki and Sart.' Stephanie's other voices all murmured hello, and Sart being the reasonable voice, told Steph that she had better get back to Sirius. The others agreed.
Sirius sat there staring at Steph - it looked like she was having a mental argument or something. She cocked her head side to side and her eyebrows up and down. He wondered silently if he was in love with a nutter. He decided he didn't care - nutters were cool. Just then she nodded her head in agreement and said, "Hey Sirius!"
"Uhhh. hey. Are you mixing potions?"
"No," she giggled, and couldn't help herself, "Just having a conversation with Squishy, Sart, Kiki, and Jo." She couldn't help it - she flashed him a charming smile.
"So Bob was right - I am in love with a nutter!"
"Oh!" she gasped. She didn't know how to tell him about James.
He gave her a puzzled look, but asked, "You wanted to talk? Or are we here in an empty bedroom to make me crazy?"
"No, I need to talk with you. Do you really love me?"
"With all my heart." Sirius replied. "I have never felt this way about anybody before. You make me laugh."
"Then I think I am going to cry."
"Why?" he asked, looking concerned.
"I love you Sirius." She started, a tear running down her familiar cheek, "But.but.." she couldn't help it, just burst into tears.
"C'mere." Sirius said, and Steph obliged, laying her head on Sirius' shoulder.
"Every time I look at James my heart flutters and I can't be with you if I am not truly, completely with you. it wouldn't be fair to you."
"Oh." He said, looking hurt and disappointed.
"I'm so sorry." She whispered. "I don't want you to hate me. Will you still be my friend? I never wanted to lose that."
"Of coarse," he said, crossing his legs and pulling her around to face him. "I will always be your friend because it is an honor just to be that." And he sat there staring into her deep, blue-grey eyes, holding her hands as tightly as possible, not ready to let go. He noticed how her long, chestnut hair fell into her pretty face and he at last let one of her hands go. Sirius gently swept her hair behind her shoulder and she looked up at him.
Steph noticed his eyes moving up and down her body, almost hungrily, finally meeting her gaze. He raised his eyebrows, and said in a deeper voice, "Do you want to say goodbye?" Stephanie giggled, but said that she shouldn't. However, she didn't listen to her own advice, but instead leaned towards Sirius.
He knocked them to the floor and they continued in this snoggish manor for only about two minutes. Then Stephanie pulled away, caught her breath, and said, 'No!' . Sirius, of coarse, asked her why.
"We broke up, Sirius."
"So?"
"So it isn't right. You know I still want to kiss you, but it will be you disappointed in the end."
"I don't mind."
"I do."
"But why? You are the one that wanted to come up to an empty bedroom to say goodbye!"
"I know. But if we were going to be friends the memory of you and me, well, you knowing, would haunt me because I would never be able to let you go. I would think about being with you constantly - I already do."
"Then don't leave me."
"I told you - it isn't fair."
"Fine!" Sirius snapped, but then added more softly, "But I still love you."
"I know." Steph said, and pulled her shirt straight again. She couldn't resist watching Sirius put his shirt back on - he was so built. They stood up and walked to the door.
"I'm going to go to bed now." Sirius said. "Goodnight, Stephanie."
"Yeah." She mumbled, still breathless, and once again giving into Kiki's advice, she kissed him firmly on the lips. "I'll miss this." She said, but pulled away when he tried to kiss her back. "I really have to go, Sirius!" she exclaimed hurriedly, but he whined in protest, "Are you really leaving me Steph?" "Yeah. For now. Goodnight, Sirius." And she pecked him on the forehead, careful to leave quickly in case she should look into his handsome face again.
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MEANWHILE after the feast the other six decided to take a walk around the like, on Michelle's advice. She told them Steph and Sirius needed to be alone and they were all only too happy to obey. James walked next to Dallas and Remus walked next to Lily. By default Michelle and Peter were beside each other, but Michelle made sure her other side was occupied by Remus.
"So guys. think of any good pranks for this year?" James asked.
"James!" Dallas exclaimed, hitting him playfully on the arm, "you're supposed to be head boy! How can you go pulling pranks?"
"Yeah James." Lily scorned. "We have to be responsible. You can't goof around this year. I know I won't."
"So? Watch me!" threatened James, and he took a running leap into the lake. "Good thing it's warm hunh?" Michelle whispered into Lily's ear. "Too bad Steph isn't here to see this." She replied, and laughing along with them, Dallas jumped into the lake as well.
"Come to join me, oh sweet one?" James asked her, and with a mischievous look she said, "Oh of coarse!" They splashed around for a bit while the others conversed.
"I thought she liked Sirius?" Lily asked Michelle.
"That's what she said!" Michelle angrily announced. "If she doesn't, Stephanie is going to be upset. She told me she was going to cut it off with him tonight, instead of later on, so that Dallas could have a fair chance!"
"I dunno.." Said Lily, "She looks to be having fun."
The two looked back to the lake and saw James pick a screeching Dallas up and throw her into the depths of the water.
"James! You are so dead!" she screamed, and jumped on top of him, submerging him.
"Uggggh!" Lily quietly said to herself. They were FLIRTING! How DISGUSTING! 'James is so stuck up' her head said, and yet she caught herself staring at them.
Remus walked over to the lake and took his shoes off. He rolled up his pant legs and casually dropped his feet into the cool water. Lily, tearing her gaze away from the flirters, walked over and sat down beside him. Taking her sandals off she too dipped her bare legs into the lake. (A/N she is wearing a skirt, not NAKED!) Remus looked over at her; shocked that pretty Lily would come sit beside Remus. Lily figured, Sirius is at the castle, James is in the water, and Peter doesn't like me. I might as well sit with Remus while he's single, you never know. And she didn't know. Remus liked her. (A/N referral to chap. 1)
"Hey Remus." Lily said in a mock-casual voice. "What's new?"
"Oh gee.. I don't know! I only talked to you, what, two minutes ago?"
"Oh you are so dense!" Lily giggled. "That is not what I meant! I meant, we haven't really talked since last year, and on the train you were, uh, busy."
"Yeah, well, me and Michelle kind of split."
"I know, Ree-ree. I'm sorry." Lily said, looking at Remus sadly. She actually looked like she would cry.
"Michelle was so upset."
"I know."
"Why did you do it anyways, Remus? You looked so in love."
"I love her in a way, but I really want to get to know someone else who I really like." Remus mumbled, clearly embarrassed.
"Who?" Lily asked eagerly, "I won't tell a soul!" She looked deep into his eyes, hers a-twinkle, and she saw him frown slightly, and say, "Do you promise, Lily Evans, not to tell a soul?"
"Of coarse! That's what friends are for!"
"Well then, you." He quietly, softly, almost inaudibly said.
Lily quietly gasped, to shocked to reply. Mej, her head-voice, said, 'Umm Lily? Maybe you should kiss him now. I mean, he was obviously nervous about telling you he liked you and shouldn't you let him know you like him?' "Yeah." Lily mumbled.
"Pardon?" Remus asked, a little taken back. But in reply, Lily followed Mej's advice and leaned in closer for a kiss. When Remus saw this he leaned towards her a bit as well and they softly kissed for .hmmm.. Ten seconds, maybe? And then pulled away.
"So do you like me?" Remus asked, barely able to breath.
"I think so." Lily replied, but unlike Remus she was completely composed. She took his hand as she slipped into the water. (A/N in case you are wondering, the part where they are is sort of like a drop-off, no shore, that is why they can hang their feet. It is probably about four, four and a half feet deep.)
Lily dragged him in after her and he put his hands around her waist. She looked in to his eyes and she felt a spark as his face approached hers. Her stomach did a flip-flop and they stood there snogging.
Michelle watched the whole thing and inside she felt empty. She had lost her boyfriend to her best friend. She suddenly felt like she would like to rip Lily apart, and then immediately felt guilty.
"Lily is my friend." She said to herself. "My best friend. Remus and I are over and I have to accept the fact that he will be with other girls."
"You are right," Peter said, still beside her. Michelle blushed as she realized she voiced her thoughts out loud. "and you should be with other boys." He finished. She looked at him and realized what he meant.
"Oh Peter!" Michelle gasped. It was too much for her to handle. She didn't like him like that. "Do you want to go sit down?" she asked, motioning to the oak tree.
"A-alright!" he stuttered, clearly taking her gasp the wrong way. As they sat down Michelle had to catch herself from laughing-she couldn't imagine her and Peter in a million years.
"Okay.Peter? Do you like me?" He looked at Michelle, trying to decide weather or not to tell her. Finally he nodded.
"Peter? I like you as a friend. You are a great friend. But Peter? That is all you are." He looked at her, apparently hurt and upset, and then he snapped.
"Fine! Fine. Fine. FINE! I should've taken Lily when I had the chance. instead I chose you and what do you do? Turn me DOWN!" With that, Peter ran away, tears streaming from his face.
Dallas and James stopped there relentless water fight to stare at the commotion, as did Lily and Remus their snogging.
"What's up?" Dallas asked.
"Yeah, what was that all about?" Remus added.
"Ummm.. Peter just said that he liked me and I tried to tell him that we were just friends and he got mad and stormed off!" Michelle screeched. "I don't know what is wrong with him!"
"Oh." James said. "We'll deal with him later. But why are Lily and Remus standing together in the lake?"
"Why are you and Dallas standing together in the lake?" Lily shot back.
"I really don't know!" James exclaimed, and climbed out of the water shaking his head like a dog.
"Eeeeeeee!" Dallas flirtatiously screeched. "You're getting me wet!"
"Honey, you're already wet! Look where you are!" He laughed, and then scooped her up and out of the lake, plopping her on the ground. Lily looked at Remus and Remus looked at Lily. They both rolled their eyes and laughed.
"What?" They both asked.
"Nothing!" Lily said exasperated. Remus caught her off guard and scooped her up as well, setting her on the edge of the grass. She looked down at him and him up at her, and she said, "Is it okay if we let them know your secret now?" Remus nodded and they yet again found each of themselves in a lip-lock.
Dallas gasped and looked at Michelle. She nodded and Dallas smiled. "I guess she found someone to love, then?
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A/N Hey there! If you are reading my story, I know it is fuffy, but bear with me! This is my first fanfic. Just please remember to review or I might stop writing. (lol. Not like anyone is reading this anywhoo!)
Raw~Bean