I am what I want you to want
What I want you to feel
James Potter sighed. Five years, and she still hasn't fallen. You don't have a chance, he reasoned with himself.
But it's like no matter what I do I can't convince you
To just believe this is real so
You should just give up. Find someone else.
I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Lily sat and stared at James' door, then down at her Transfiguration essay--or, more specifically, at the wet spot on her Transfiguration essay.
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got
James sighed again, angrily wiping away a tear. I am not an insensitive, bigheaded bastard. I do not think I'm everything just because I'm pureblooded.
Face it, James, she's unattainable...
I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
Maybe you really aren't all you think you are, though...I'll have to have Sirius or--no. I'll have Remus tell me.
Cause you don't understand I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
"Remus? Can I ask you something?"
Remus looked up from the chess game as Peter made his move. "Yeah, James. What's up?"
"Am I... Am I really as bigheaded and conceited as Lily thinks I am?"
Remus was quiet for a moment, then shook his head. "I think you're not truly as conceited as she thinks you are, but you act that way around her, so that's all she sees of you."
James pondered this, then grinned. "Thanks, Moony."
"Anytime." Remus looked back down at the chessboard and smirked. "Bad move, Pete, old boy. Checkmate," he said, moving his rook four squares forward.
I am what you never want to say
But I've never had a doubt
"Potter, damn it, stay out of my hair!"
"I'm not trying to bother you, I just want to help!" James threw his hands up and left the Head Room, slamming the door to his bedroom angrily.
I love her...
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out so
"Can you not just listen to me for once in your life, Evans? Damn it, I love you, and if you'd just let me say it and get to really know me, maybe you'd have realized that by now!"
For the second time in two days, Lily watched James' door slam, but this time with an unexplainable tightness in her chest.
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
James glared at Lily as he left the Head Room, not speaking to her, barely acknowledging her presence. She looked away, staring down at her papers that still litter the desk.
I won't be ignored
"Just listen to me for once, Evans."
"If you love me, call me Lily." Lily turned and swept away, leaving James speechless.
Duh!
No
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
"Lily."
"Potter."
"My name's James."
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
"Did your friends just lock us in a broom closet?"
"Got it in one."
"Why?"
"Because I need to talk to you."
"Then talk."
"I've given up."
"What?"
"I've given up talking to you. I just wanted to let you know. No more conceited, bigheaded, asshole Potter. No more requests for Hogsmeade dates. No more--" James snorted, "no more declarations of love. I'm done."
"James..."
James shrugged. "Falling in love with you was the stupidest and easiest thing I've ever done. Falling out was harder."
"James, look at me a moment."
James turned to her, his eyes icy. Swallowing her hesitation, she moved forward and pressed her lips to his. Pulling away after a few seconds of no response, she looked away and blushed. "Would... would you like to go to Hogsmeade with me next weekend?"
James stood in stunned silence. If only I'd known it would be this easy before--just tell her I don't love her... God, what'll happen if I accept? he thought with a touch of irony. "Only," he said softly, "only if you come to that ball with me."
Fluffy and angsty in the same story... Jeez, I'm weird.
Disclaimer: I owneth not Lily, James, Sirius, Remus, Peter, anyone else in this fic, and Linkin Park. cries If nothing else, just give me Siri and Remmie...
JKR: Okay. Gives me Siri and Remmie
Yay! SNOG NOW!!!
Sirius and Remus sweatdrop, then snog passionately
Aww... Cuteness!!! Siri and Remmie, sititin' in a tree, Kei Ai Ess--
Sirius: Shut up.
Hey, you weren't even in this fic. You can't tell me what to do. Nyahh.
(Author's note: JKR didn't REALLY give me Siri and Remmie. That was just wishful thinking. )