Little Navy Book
Journal#4: Betrayal (10 minutes)
Betrayal. The word holds so much meaning to me. There's been betrayal in every aspect of my life from the earth shattering discovery of Santa Clause not being real to my Father leaving his family to rot without his guidance or support. What am I supposed to say about it? Everybody's going to betray somebody at one point or another. It's human nature. I'll probably do it to- probably already have.
That's probably why I've never gotten close to anybody. But Dutchy. So it's probably why I've never said anything to Dutchy about how I feel about him, what I feel about him. He'd just wind up betraying me, leaving our friendship to wither as a rose does and fall apart, each sharp petal ripping my heart apart until the tears I know I'll cry are blood, running out of my desolate eyes. Damn.... so I really can never have what I want, can I? That's a wonderful revelation to make in the middle of class. Sitting right next to the one you're writing and always thinking about.
This journal entry sucked, teacher dear. So this was a betrayal to my feelings. Goddamn and screw you, I'm done with three minutes left to go.
Author's Note: Awwww Specsy...smile kiddo!...heh