disclaimer: Gravitation, and the Gravitation characters, are not mine. They belong to Maki Murakami. Except Naomi and Damien and Shawn, they are mine. The influence of this story is late weekend nights and the movie A Walk to Remember. Good movie. But, as you all can read, it's not based off the movie. The plot is mine.
I noticed as I was looking through the previous chapter that there was someone in there by the name of Tikazawa. I was thinking 'where did I come up with that?' The name's supposed to be spelled Kitazawa, as in Yuki Kitazawa.
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My Wish
chapter two: Announcement
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Shuichi was sitting on the bench located in the nearby park, swinging his feet back and forth as he sat on the railing on the top of the tiny cliff. He was humming a tune which had appeared in his head not three days ago, and it haunted him even in his dreams.
His sigh was as heavy as the clouds looming overhead. He looked up at them, attempting to idly pick out words that floated around. Even with cancer he still attempted to write songs.
"Shuichi?" Shuichi turned his head, still facing upwards so that he had to look out the bottom left of his eyes to see the face of the person standing beside him.
He sat up slowly until he was looking straight at Ayaka, Eiri's ex-fiance and Hiro's long-distance girlfriend. They studied the other until she relaxed against the bar beside him.
"Where's Eiri-san?" she asked as she studied the trees below, absently picking out a father who was ushering his two children, a boy and a girl, towards the walkway before the rain hit.
Shuichi's eyes drooped close and he felt the wind lift him up slightly as it passed it's calming scent only to set him back down again.
"Not here." Coming from Shuichi's tone, that small statement was more than just his general whereabouts at the moment.
"Then why don't you go find him?"
Shuichi didn't answer.
*-*-*-*
"Hiro!" Hiro's eyes shot over to the voice, his whole head whipping around. His eyes lit up.
"Ayaka!" He began to bound over when he noticed the figure hiding behind the girl. "Shuichi?" he gasped. And then he was flying toward them.
"Where the hell have you been, Shuichi?" Hiro exclaimed as he reached them. He reached over and pulled Shuichi into a hug, fussing over him briefly, before he turned to greet his long-time-no-see love.
Suguru came out of the department store (that being their last desperate sorry attempts at finding him). "Shuichi!"
Shuichi smiled over at him. "Hey, Suguru." He dropped back to walk beside the keyboardist as they all began to make their way somehow to Hiro's apartment.
Suguru eyed Shuichi from where he was beside the elder boy, studying his depressed eyes and weighted figure. It seemed he carried the world on his this shoulders which became thinner each time he saw him. All of Shuichi seemed to become smaller and feeble. This was reality right here. Where once Shuichi had seemed invincible, he was now nothing more than this.
Shuichi was watching Hiro's carefully at the moment. He was so happy with Ayaka. So happy. But he didn't miss the little looks his best friend would send him, as if checking to see that he was still up and moving.
Voilet eyes widened as the thought passed through his head. He couldn't, could he? Where would he go?
{"Can I come over again sometime?" A smile. Her beautiful, comforting smile.
"Of course."}
He looked back up at Hiro to catch the man's eyes yet again on him. He would have to leave. Like he left his lover, he would now leave his best friend. Without a word.
"Shuichi?" He looked over at Suguru's soft whisper and grinned when the keyboardist didn't say anything more.
"We're here!" he exclaimed and ran up the steps of the apartment complex behind Hiro and Ayaka, who were talking animatedly.
"What are you planning, Shuichi?" Suguru asked softly, watching the boy disappear. There was still something he was hiding. He sighed and walked up the steps as well and into the lobby, just as the clouds let loose their rain.
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Naomi leaned against the door to her balcony, watching with distant eyes the rain that swept down in heavy torrents. It was the rainy days that would bring back old memories, and old ghosts.
She stared out, taking in nothing and taking in everything all at once. Laughter rang throughout her head and images of a person holding out his arms for her.
Her eyes were unblinking as the images played into a scene, only to play scene after scene. And then her eyes closed.
{"Oh, that's real smart, Damien! Real sweet. You don't want me now? Fine. But don't you dare even to think that you can raise your fist at me, you bastard."}
"Damien," she whispered. He had been her older brother, Shuichi's older brother. And then the family split, and it had been her fault. Shuichi could never stand it when they were younger when they had all fought. He couldn't stand to be left alone either.
{Tearful eyes looked up at her. "Are you going to leave me too?"
She turned her head away, refusing to look at the boy, her twin, sitting among his CD's on the floor. "What do I have to stay for?" she mumbled out, arms crossing in front of her chest.
"Me." She didn't answer. And when Shuichi came home from school that night, she wasn't there.}
The telephone rang, breaking her out of her memories. Walking to her kitchen counter she picked it up and put it to her ear.
"Hello?"
"What the hell are you doing in Japan?" Her eyes lit up.
"Shawn!" she laughed. "How did you get this number?" She leaned her elbows onto the counter in front of her.
"I had one hell of a time for it." She gave a lopsided grin that he couldn't see, but he knew it was there.
"I see." The amusement was clear in her voice.
They continued to talk throughout the night.
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"Hello, we are here at the anouncement of Bad Luck. On the left is Suguru Fujisaki, on the right is Hiroshi Nakano, and standing between them is Shuichi Shindou, lead singer. Rumors have been flying all around about today, and now we are here to give you the truth."
Eiri watched the TV as he sat back on the couch, a cigarette in his hand. The camera zoomed in to only show the three boys on screen and the anouncement began.
"I know, some of you have heard things that you might have questions about, but we are only here because we have something to say. Please save your questions for another day," Suguru spoke out first, laying down the rules for the reporters, not as if they ever listened to anything like that.
"As some of you have probably heard that Bad Luck will be breaking up, that is true. Due to some recent discoveries, we can no longer be your band. We appreciate all of your support during our short career and hope that you will continue to enjoy what we have already produced." Eiri's golden eyes narrowed at the boy whose voice was solemn and his words straight to the point. Something was wrong.
Shuichi looked gaunt on screen, aged somewhat. He wasn't laughing or playing around or any of his usual things. The reporters surged forward, camera's focusing on the pink haired singer. They all began asking questions at once, all words becoming one giant jumbled mass.
A loud slam had everyone quiet and looking at Suguru, who's hands were placed on the table before him.
"I told you earlier that this was just an anouncement, not a time to ask questions. Bad Luck is over. This is now over. Have a nice day."
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Tohma was right inside the door, listening in to everything. His eyes were closed thoughtfully but immediately snapped open once his little cousin announced the end. Shuichi really wasn't going to say anything. Eiri...
He didn't want his brother-in-law to know. But...but if Eiri never found out, what would happen then? What would happen if Shuichi just disappeared forever? But, it wasn't fair to Eiri that he should not know about Shuichi. It wasn't even fair that he had to find out like this, because if Shuichi wasn't going to say anything Tohma knew what he had to do.
From his slumped position against the wall, Tohma rose up slowly and faced the door.
*-*-*-*
"The reason for the break up of Bad Luck-" Heads turned, people hushed and parted.
"Is because Shuichi Shindou has cancer."
All movement stopped and all eyes were trained on the president of NG and then said Shuichi Shindou in waiting anticipation and shock.
Shuichi had stood up, Hiro at his side.
"You- you..."
Miles away, in a dark lonely apartment, a sob rang out as even the air around the man seemed to freeze.
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Um...okay. So it was Tohma who released the news. Don't ask me why, this story has taken off on it's own and things aren't going out as I planned. Tohma is doing things I had never thought of before. And yes, Naomi is Shuichi's twin sister.
*Hikaru Itsuko* Such good friends Shuichi has. I just love Hiro and adore Suguru. *Dearest* I get paranoid about being sick sometimes...no wait. I am sick. *Kitty in the Box* Punish Yuki? That's fun. It's usually Shuichi who I put through all the angst. *Phoenix51* Shuichi will live on in our hearts forever... *hikari* I have a who I call Hikari, me being the Yami and all. I wish I knew another language...
I noticed as I was looking through the previous chapter that there was someone in there by the name of Tikazawa. I was thinking 'where did I come up with that?' The name's supposed to be spelled Kitazawa, as in Yuki Kitazawa.
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My Wish
chapter two: Announcement
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Shuichi was sitting on the bench located in the nearby park, swinging his feet back and forth as he sat on the railing on the top of the tiny cliff. He was humming a tune which had appeared in his head not three days ago, and it haunted him even in his dreams.
His sigh was as heavy as the clouds looming overhead. He looked up at them, attempting to idly pick out words that floated around. Even with cancer he still attempted to write songs.
"Shuichi?" Shuichi turned his head, still facing upwards so that he had to look out the bottom left of his eyes to see the face of the person standing beside him.
He sat up slowly until he was looking straight at Ayaka, Eiri's ex-fiance and Hiro's long-distance girlfriend. They studied the other until she relaxed against the bar beside him.
"Where's Eiri-san?" she asked as she studied the trees below, absently picking out a father who was ushering his two children, a boy and a girl, towards the walkway before the rain hit.
Shuichi's eyes drooped close and he felt the wind lift him up slightly as it passed it's calming scent only to set him back down again.
"Not here." Coming from Shuichi's tone, that small statement was more than just his general whereabouts at the moment.
"Then why don't you go find him?"
Shuichi didn't answer.
*-*-*-*
"Hiro!" Hiro's eyes shot over to the voice, his whole head whipping around. His eyes lit up.
"Ayaka!" He began to bound over when he noticed the figure hiding behind the girl. "Shuichi?" he gasped. And then he was flying toward them.
"Where the hell have you been, Shuichi?" Hiro exclaimed as he reached them. He reached over and pulled Shuichi into a hug, fussing over him briefly, before he turned to greet his long-time-no-see love.
Suguru came out of the department store (that being their last desperate sorry attempts at finding him). "Shuichi!"
Shuichi smiled over at him. "Hey, Suguru." He dropped back to walk beside the keyboardist as they all began to make their way somehow to Hiro's apartment.
Suguru eyed Shuichi from where he was beside the elder boy, studying his depressed eyes and weighted figure. It seemed he carried the world on his this shoulders which became thinner each time he saw him. All of Shuichi seemed to become smaller and feeble. This was reality right here. Where once Shuichi had seemed invincible, he was now nothing more than this.
Shuichi was watching Hiro's carefully at the moment. He was so happy with Ayaka. So happy. But he didn't miss the little looks his best friend would send him, as if checking to see that he was still up and moving.
Voilet eyes widened as the thought passed through his head. He couldn't, could he? Where would he go?
{"Can I come over again sometime?" A smile. Her beautiful, comforting smile.
"Of course."}
He looked back up at Hiro to catch the man's eyes yet again on him. He would have to leave. Like he left his lover, he would now leave his best friend. Without a word.
"Shuichi?" He looked over at Suguru's soft whisper and grinned when the keyboardist didn't say anything more.
"We're here!" he exclaimed and ran up the steps of the apartment complex behind Hiro and Ayaka, who were talking animatedly.
"What are you planning, Shuichi?" Suguru asked softly, watching the boy disappear. There was still something he was hiding. He sighed and walked up the steps as well and into the lobby, just as the clouds let loose their rain.
*-*-*-*
Naomi leaned against the door to her balcony, watching with distant eyes the rain that swept down in heavy torrents. It was the rainy days that would bring back old memories, and old ghosts.
She stared out, taking in nothing and taking in everything all at once. Laughter rang throughout her head and images of a person holding out his arms for her.
Her eyes were unblinking as the images played into a scene, only to play scene after scene. And then her eyes closed.
{"Oh, that's real smart, Damien! Real sweet. You don't want me now? Fine. But don't you dare even to think that you can raise your fist at me, you bastard."}
"Damien," she whispered. He had been her older brother, Shuichi's older brother. And then the family split, and it had been her fault. Shuichi could never stand it when they were younger when they had all fought. He couldn't stand to be left alone either.
{Tearful eyes looked up at her. "Are you going to leave me too?"
She turned her head away, refusing to look at the boy, her twin, sitting among his CD's on the floor. "What do I have to stay for?" she mumbled out, arms crossing in front of her chest.
"Me." She didn't answer. And when Shuichi came home from school that night, she wasn't there.}
The telephone rang, breaking her out of her memories. Walking to her kitchen counter she picked it up and put it to her ear.
"Hello?"
"What the hell are you doing in Japan?" Her eyes lit up.
"Shawn!" she laughed. "How did you get this number?" She leaned her elbows onto the counter in front of her.
"I had one hell of a time for it." She gave a lopsided grin that he couldn't see, but he knew it was there.
"I see." The amusement was clear in her voice.
They continued to talk throughout the night.
*-*-*-*
"Hello, we are here at the anouncement of Bad Luck. On the left is Suguru Fujisaki, on the right is Hiroshi Nakano, and standing between them is Shuichi Shindou, lead singer. Rumors have been flying all around about today, and now we are here to give you the truth."
Eiri watched the TV as he sat back on the couch, a cigarette in his hand. The camera zoomed in to only show the three boys on screen and the anouncement began.
"I know, some of you have heard things that you might have questions about, but we are only here because we have something to say. Please save your questions for another day," Suguru spoke out first, laying down the rules for the reporters, not as if they ever listened to anything like that.
"As some of you have probably heard that Bad Luck will be breaking up, that is true. Due to some recent discoveries, we can no longer be your band. We appreciate all of your support during our short career and hope that you will continue to enjoy what we have already produced." Eiri's golden eyes narrowed at the boy whose voice was solemn and his words straight to the point. Something was wrong.
Shuichi looked gaunt on screen, aged somewhat. He wasn't laughing or playing around or any of his usual things. The reporters surged forward, camera's focusing on the pink haired singer. They all began asking questions at once, all words becoming one giant jumbled mass.
A loud slam had everyone quiet and looking at Suguru, who's hands were placed on the table before him.
"I told you earlier that this was just an anouncement, not a time to ask questions. Bad Luck is over. This is now over. Have a nice day."
*-*-*-*
Tohma was right inside the door, listening in to everything. His eyes were closed thoughtfully but immediately snapped open once his little cousin announced the end. Shuichi really wasn't going to say anything. Eiri...
He didn't want his brother-in-law to know. But...but if Eiri never found out, what would happen then? What would happen if Shuichi just disappeared forever? But, it wasn't fair to Eiri that he should not know about Shuichi. It wasn't even fair that he had to find out like this, because if Shuichi wasn't going to say anything Tohma knew what he had to do.
From his slumped position against the wall, Tohma rose up slowly and faced the door.
*-*-*-*
"The reason for the break up of Bad Luck-" Heads turned, people hushed and parted.
"Is because Shuichi Shindou has cancer."
All movement stopped and all eyes were trained on the president of NG and then said Shuichi Shindou in waiting anticipation and shock.
Shuichi had stood up, Hiro at his side.
"You- you..."
Miles away, in a dark lonely apartment, a sob rang out as even the air around the man seemed to freeze.
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Um...okay. So it was Tohma who released the news. Don't ask me why, this story has taken off on it's own and things aren't going out as I planned. Tohma is doing things I had never thought of before. And yes, Naomi is Shuichi's twin sister.
*Hikaru Itsuko* Such good friends Shuichi has. I just love Hiro and adore Suguru. *Dearest* I get paranoid about being sick sometimes...no wait. I am sick. *Kitty in the Box* Punish Yuki? That's fun. It's usually Shuichi who I put through all the angst. *Phoenix51* Shuichi will live on in our hearts forever... *hikari* I have a who I call Hikari, me being the Yami and all. I wish I knew another language...