"Hello Duo."

"Heero." Tears began to stream down Duo's face again. "Heero, why are you hear after all this time? After you left me?"

Heero came closer, looking at Duo. He hated to see Duo cry and he felt even worse because he was the one who caused those tears, but what could he say? How could he begin to explain? Then it hit him, he knew exactly what to say.

"Duo," Heero began walking closer to the hospital bed and when he was close enough to wipe away Duo's tears, he spoke. "I love you Duo and I was so selfish to leave you when you need me the most. I woke up everyday, so scared that I would lose you because first you weren't eating and then you started to cut a lot once again."

Heero paused, tears now welling up in his eyes, threatening to spill over. He looked Duo in the eye and saw a swirl of emotion, but he was saddened to see so much hatred in them.

"I was a coward and couldn't stand watching you waste away, so I left, hoping that I might be able to get on with life."

"So you felt I was holding you back?" Duo questioned. "You only felt love for me when I was happy and in bed with you? You couldn't take the good with the bad?"

"No it's not that!"

"If it's not that, then what is it Heero?" Duo said voice hardening. "Why is it you really left me, other than the fact that you're a coward, why did you desert me when I need you the most? When were you the one that was keeping me from cutting an inch too deep? Why Heero?! If you cannot answer that, then why are you here?

Duo was partially screaming by this point and all Heero could do was stare.

"Maybe I was wrong to come back." Heero said, feeling down and guilty. Duo was right. Why was he here when he had left Duo all alone?

Heero began to turn around, but stopped at Duo's words.

"That's right Heero, run away again. Get the fuck out of here, be a coward." Duo said, voice hard eyes dry, yet he continued to wipe his tear streaked face.

Heero turned around to face Duo, again tears now flowed freely down his face. "Duo I'm not gonna run away this time." Heero said not only to Duo, but to himself as well. "Duo I love you and yes it is true I cannot explain myself to you. I'm not even sure what was running through my mind at the time, but I do know this. I love you and I don't want to see you get hurt again."

Even after all this was said, Duo still stared at Heero, eyes hard. "Look Heero, I don't believe you for one second. You come in here, say all this shit and think that I'll be like 'oh Heero, I love you too,' well buddy-"

Duo's sentence was cut short as Heero leaned in and kissed him. The kiss didn't last long because about as soon as there mouths touched, Duo broke away with a scowl on his face.

"Look," Duo started, "If you want me back, you cannot do that every time I tell you how I feel. Yes it's true I am not to sure about you, but I still do love you no matter how much I don't want to."

Heero began to say something, but Duo cut him off.

"I'm not done. If you really want to make it up to me, come see me after I leave here. Got it? Do not come back to my hospital room after this moment, alright!" Duo ended his sentence with more of a command, rather than a question.

"OK." Was all Heero said, as he turned and walked out the door.

After Heero left, Duo relaxed into his pile of pillows, with all this conflict going on, the urge cut was so strong. He needed to find some kind of some release. Duo tried to get up to look around the room to find something sharp, but found he was to exhausted to move. So he just lied there, looking up at the plain white ceiling until he fell into a dreamless sleep.

The next day, Duo was sitting up in bed watching a rerun of the Simpsons when Quatre and Trowa walked through the door.

"Duo!!!" Quatre exclaimed, as the little blonde ran over to him and gave him a big hug.

"You had me so worried, when you didn't show up to our lunch date. I went to check on you and when I found you-" tears began to flow out of Quatre's big blue eyes as he trailed off.

Duo couldn't help but cry now. "Q. I'm sorry but I just couldn't stand being me anymore. I feel so alone."

"Well you don't have to. I'm always here for you to talk to and if you ever do anything like this again, I will hurt you myself, ok?"

Duo just looked down at the light green shirt Quatre was wearing. He wasn't sure if he wasn't going to try again and he really didn't want to lie to him.

Quatre just let it go for now and just talked about everyday things that were going on, as Duo looked like he was paying attention and Trowa just sat in a chair and listened to the conversation.

After a month of being in the hospital, Duo was finally able to go home. Something he was both dreading and grateful for.

After dressing in loose t-shirt, red hoody and loose black shorts, he was ready to go home.

Quatre was waiting for him outside his room for him to get done. They walked out to the car and drove home in silence.

okay yay for me i updated back to back and its a longer chapter does a dance but really tell me what you guys think and again im sorry bout the last chapter with it uploading wrong and all.