Author's Note:

Hi everybody, this is the second chapter already, it's still short but I'm trying to write longer ones. But I liked this ending so I decided to keep it this way. I will not yet reveal what happend that night so I'm trying to keep the story interesting. (hopefully I'm doing a good job at that) So enjoy and please review!

Justsomebodycalledme.

"I love you"

My heart stops beating for a while because I know he means it, he means it.
I can see he's shocked of his own outburst and I think he's somehow ashamed of it. Before I can give any kind of reaction he's turning to take a step in the opposite direction of her.

"Don't you dare to walk away from"

I knows that what I'm doing is wrong. I stepped back into her life without any permission... I tell her I love her without any permission. It wasn't suppose to be like this, I wasn't suppose to tell her but now I did and for the first time in my life I'm willing to take responsibility.

"Then what should I do? What do you want me to do? I just made a complete fool of myself and all I wanna do right now is vanish. So tell me what should I do?"

I have to make up my mind, I have to tell him right now I want to make things work. But I'm just afraid to rely on him again.

"I don't know...I'm scared Jess, I'm so afraid you will leave me again. So I guess what I need is for you to convince me otherwise"

That was the night that's still clear in her mind. He convinced her, he told her all the simple words she needed to hear and they agreed to take things slow. But that was a long time ago, a lot has changed, a lot can change over a year. After that night, when things got completly out of hand, she was doing her best to move on. And now she has. She found this amazing new guy and even though there are parts of her that are still lingering in forgotten memories, she is starting to love him. She has only met him a couple of times, she doesn't know anything about him. Maybe she's falling in love with the familiar feeling, he reminds her of Dean and the safe and secure feeling he gave her. Today it's been half a year since he left, since he left me here dealing with all these unsatisfied feelings and emotions. I still wonder how I could've been so stupid, to let something wonderful like that go. To give it up for something I never wanted in the first place. I am the only one to blame, I invited him to talk about it, to talk about all of it. The expression on his face I can still see clearly, more clearly than the vision of the book lying in front of me. He's the reason why I'm sitting here, in the Yale library. I would have gone to Harvard but I wanted to be close to him, never leave him. I wanted to work on the crazy thing we had going on, the crazy but amazingly beautiful thing. Not long after that she went looking for another book and while she was trying to read the titles she stumbled against another man, a man that would become a Chris, a Chris that would become a boyfriend. She tried to push him away at first because she was hoping Jess would still come back for her just like he did 2 times before. But she started liking Chris more and more and she slowly came to the realization Jess was never comming back, at least not for her.

Chris is a very decent man from a little town near Denver, he comes from a good wealthy family and off course had some kind of connection with her grandparents, she found out later. His parents are still together and he has one sibling called Francis. She had met her a couple of times before and their conversation were usually made by chatting for hours on the phone. She had told her about her brothers best friend, about how hot he is and how she got attached to him more and more every day. Rory thought it was kind of sad because she knew how much Francis really liked him even though she never said it out loud.

Tonight is her 10th date with Chris and she knows he has something important to ask her. She knows it must be something special because Francis came all the way from Denver. All evening Francis has been helping her to get dressed, help her doing her make up and stuff like that.

"You look beautiful"

He can't even begin to imagine how long I've waited to hear those words from him.

"Thank you"

A slight smile appears on his face and for the first time I see this shy little boy who's waiting for me to take the first step. This is our first date after he left and although we agreed to take things slow I know that it will be difficult.

"I didn't do it all by myself though, I have a lot to thank Lane for"

Again, that sweet shy smile.

"Ready to go?"

"More than ready"