Rating: PG-PG13
Pairing: none in this chapter, but soon I promise.
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My mind was so jumbled with these series of questions, that I didn't hear the phone ringing until my brother Sam came running into the room with the phone in hand.
He said it was our uncle Jim, and that he sounded upset. That in and of itself scared me, but when I heard his voice for myself I knew that something terrible had happened. The tears started flowing down my cheeks as he told me about how my cousin, Kyle had been killed in a snowmobil accident.
Kyle was only a year older than me, but we had always been close. It hurt me to no end to know that I would never see him again.
As I thought about this I wondered how he could have died in a snowmobil accident when he lived in Miami. Jim explained that Kyle had been staying in Syracuse, New York with some old family friends, the Speedle's. Kyle and Tim Speedle had gone on a ski trip in celebration of graduating highschool, when the snowmobile that they were playing around on lost control, and smashed into a tree. Kyle had been in the hospital for three hours with paralysis, when he died of other complications.
The news hit me like a ton of bricks. Both Jim and I were in hysterics after he retold me the story.I didn't want to believe that this wonderful person who I had shared so much was gone for good.
By that time my parents and four brothers had all gathered around me, trying to find out what had happened.
I made sure that Jim would call me back later when he had had made arrangements for the funeral. Then I relayed the information to my family, sparing some details, considering the fact that there were little ears in the room.
My parents were shocked, and saddened, and my two yongest brothers, being three and five, didn't understand what was going on, but the two older boys, being 8 and 10 understood that Kyle was dead, but didn't understand why, or what had happened.
I wanted to help them through this and help them understand what was going on, but the fact was that I didn't wasn't stable enough at the time to be that for them.
To mine, and everyone else's surprise I crawled over to my mother , wrapped my arms around her neck, and laid my head on her shoulder, crying all the while.
To my surprise she wrapped her arms around me, holding me tightly against her. She rocked me, and stroked my hair, murmuring encouragments in my ear.
This was the first time in what felt like forever that my mother was this addentive to me. It was the first time I had been allowed not to be the strong one, and to be quite honest the first time that I felt loved, since I was a little girl.
Well, I weeped in my mothers arms, my father took over caring for my confused brothers. He tried to explain to them that sometimes people we love go away, for a really long time, and that Kyle was one of those people. He knew that Sam and David, the two older boys understood that Kyle was dead, but my youngest brothers Bryan and Seth couldn't comprehend the concept of death. Though they did know that something was terribly wrong. I could hear them ask our father why I was crying, and why they wouldn't be able to see Kyle again.
Hearing the tremor, fear, and wonder in their little voices made me cry even harder. I knew that they were lossing a little bit of their innocence from this experience. And I was lossing the last bit that I had left.
TBC...
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