Sorry about taking so long to get the chapter up but I've been super busy with stuff and well, I've had no time to work on any updates of any kind, sorry =(.
Chapter 4- Insecurities
"Beast Boy...I...don't know...is this really right for us to be this way. I mean, wouldn't it be difficult to work?"
"I honestly think we could make it work Rae...the love there is real isn't it?"
"Yes it is...but"
Raven had tears welling up in her deep violet eyes and we're now pouring down her face along her cheeks. Beast boy stepped across what seemed to be a round white table over to where Raven was and gently took her by the hand.
"I know, this is different for the both of us, but I know now. I thought it was all just an illusion, but I truly want to be with you."
"I...I want to be with you too Beast Boy. What if something should go wrong though?"
"If something does go wrong...then I'll face it with you until I die, I don't care what happens just as long as I am with you, it'll be okay...I love you Raven."
"Beast Boy...I..."
"Yes Raven?"
"I..."
Raven's soft words were quickly cut off and vanished as they we're engulfed in the irritating sound of buzzing. The buzzing of Beast Boy's alarm clock that he had set for 7am, sharp.
"Mmmph...Rae...Raven!"
Beast Boy quickly jolted upright in his bed, eyes only half open. Beast Boy felt a sad, and depressing feeling in his whole body, like a part of him was leaving. He missed his dream, and he missed what Raven would have said. He wished he could just put his head back onto his pillow and see what would happen, but soon realized that he could make that dream a reality, today.
"Alright BB, this is it, the day you get out there and tell her...the day I find out where I go from here."
Through all of Beast Boy's confidence there still was a part of his that said otherwise, something that just screamed at him that it wasn't right...not yet. Beast Boy did have to know Raven much more if they wanted anything to work out properly.
On his plan, he wanted to go take Raven to Jump City mall, there's plenty of things for any sort of girl at the mall, even the cold and mysterious ones.
First things first...have to dress nicely, nothing fancy, but just enough to catch a lady's eye. Beast Boy walked over to his dresser, he had already taken care of his laundry the day before so he had plenty to work with.
"Yeah this'll work...eh maybe not this one..."
Beast Boy pressed various pants, shorts, and shirts against his body to see if anything matched and looked sharp.
"What's a good color...black? Yeah black!" Beast Boy sorted through his dresser for a pair of baggy black pants and put them on.
"Alright...shirt...yea this'll get the job right."
Beast Boy found a deep green T-shirt, matching closely to his green complexion. Soon as he got his outfit down he head over to the bathroom to clean up a bit and brush his teeth. When he finished that he made a few various faces in the mirror and practiced asking Raven to go to the mall.
"Heya Raven...how about we go to the mall? Nah sounds too much like a date..."
"Yo Raven I'm goin' to the mall, wanna come with? Hmm, better."
"Right, gotta make breakfast now...can't just make only Raven's food otherwise it could mess things up, so looks like I'm making full course meal for five."
"Mornin'! Hey BB didn't know you were making breakfast today, isn't it my turn anyway?"
Cyborg had just slouched his way into the main room sleepily.
"Oh yeah, dude please don't make me any tofu, I'm beggin' you, I really don't mean to insult that you're a vegetarian and all but come on!"
"Don't worry Cy, I'll fix you up, how's eggs and bacon sound?"
"Ooh I like it already, but I thought you never cooked meat dude. What's up?"
"Eh I'm just in a good mood I suppose"
Beast Boy slid a plate of eggs bacon, and a glass of OJ down the table towards where Cyborg was sitting.
Cyborg began eating and tried to get out a few words to Beast Boy.
"Mmph... so, really why such a good mood today? Talking to your lady friend today or something?"
"Eh I dunno."
"Yeah man...mmph...go for it."
"Oh good morning! Ah Beast Boy, why do you cook the meal breakfast today?"
Starfire had just floated into the room, with a sleepy Robin slowly following her. Cyborg finished up his food and quickly gave a response to the alien.
"Well it seems he may be talking to that lady of his...who knows huh?"
"Oh wonderful, what do you intend to do today with this girl you talk of?"
Beast Boy could feel his back heating up, the kitchen was getting hot, fast. He knew he had to pull himself out of this corner he got backed into. Maybe now was a good time to try and throw the topic elsewhere.
"Say Rob, Star, what would you guys like to eat?"
"Eh...don't worry about me Beast Boy...I'll just get some cereal."
"Okay, have it your way then, how about you Star?"
Starfire gave herself a moment to think as she rummaged through her mind of the various earth foods she enjoyed.
"Oh...perhaps one of your...oh what did you call it before? A special of some kind? E.T.T. was it?"
"Eggs, tofu, and toast? Coming up!"
Beast Boy soon finished up making Starfire's breakfast and before sitting grabbed a packet of herbal tea for when Raven got up. She was bound to enjoy warm tea ready to serve. Everyone was sitting at the table when that wicked topic found a way to revive itself into a conversation. This time at the hands of The Boy Wonder.
"Well, what's on your agenda for...today?" Robin, as well as Cyborg were eager to get the full scoop on what Beast Boy was doing and were being actually quite relentless.
"Jeeze man, I mean it was just an idea since I don't really have plans today so I was thinking maybe. Chances are I won't see her today, you know how women are. Places to go, people to..."
"Achoo!"
"Oh bless you Raven, and good morning!" Starfire said happily.
Raven, dressed in her blue pajamas went over to the cabinet where she kept her tea. While opening it she noticed that there was a pot of tea already resting on the stove screaming at her through a cloud of hot steam.
"Um...who made my tea?"
"Oh that was BB. He decided to make breakfast this morning for us. Seems he's all happy about seeing a woman today."
"Cy!"
Raven's eyes widened a bit and she gave a long stare at Beast Boy.
"Oh really, and just when did you start having an interest in any woman in particular...may I ask?"
"Ha...well I've already said I'm not saying to anyone, and that applies to you as well Rae."
"Sure...thanks...for the tea."
Beast Boy felt himself blushing again, and got that same warm fuzzy feeling he would get after making Raven happy.
"Oh um sure thing...is there anything I can get you to eat?"
"No tea is fine, I'm not too hungry."
If there was one thing Beast Boy could have a hard time doing, it was hiding things. Like the blood in his cheeks and loss of speech when Raven made an entrance in the room. Starfire was the first to slowly catch on to the situation. Yet was quiet about it, knowing it wasn't best to reveal something like this to everyone.
Beast Boy had to now continue with his plan, and make sure the pieces were in the right places. "So uh what's everyone up to today? Anything important or stuff like that?" "Rob?"
"I'm gonna be training."
"Star?"
"No nothing."
"Cy?"
"Car..."
"..."
"Raven, what about you?"
"...Nothing."
"Ah...well...same here heh. Um...since there's nothing for us three to do, who wants to go to the mall?" "Perfect this'll work this makes it seem like I'm not intending anything."
"Oh I'd be glad to! Glorious idea Beast Boy! Raven won't you join us?"
"I don't know, I didn't really have anything up today...maybe meditate...but."
"Oh please come with Raven, we would have more fun if you were to join us!"
"This is great, Starfire is actually helping the situation."
Raven scrunched her face trying to figure out what was the best thing to be doing, yet a mall never really killed anyone now did it? She heaved a long sigh through her nose.
"Fine...whatever."
"What time shall we leave though? I say 10."
"10 is fine."
It was settled, now things could move onto the next phase, this was turning out better for Beast Boy than he ever imagined, he had a convinced Raven going to the mall, Starfire too to throw off any ideas of a Raven and Beast Boy date at the mall. His only problem was the others were getting edgy to know who the girl was. Least he thought that was the only situation.
Knock, knock
There Beast Boy was, in his room waiting for 10 to roll around, but found a visitor to his room, and orpened the door to a cheerful alein girl.
"May I enter to speak with you a moment Beast Boy?"
"Uh sure Star, come on in. What's up?"
Starfire had a nervous look on her face, almost a look that said she had regrets of entering Beast Boy's room, but spoke up anyways.
"Well Beast Boy, I just simply wanted to know how long you had liked Raven..."
Beast Boy felt his skin crawl down his arms and back, even his heart jumped at what he had just heard. "No way...h-how can she possibly know?!"
"W-what?"
"Oh...how long did you...like Raven?"
"What makes you think I like her?"
Where the conversation was heading Beast Boy tried not to make himself obvious and shut his door to make sure no one could get information unless they pressed themselves up to the door.
"Well...it's just, your behavior patters are a lot like people on my world, they act funny, sweat and stutter often. Sometimes their complexion turns faintly red as well. It's quite common it would seem."
"Come on Star, I don't like her, that's...that's crazy."
"Denial is common too."
"H-how long have you thought this Star?"
"Just since this morning. I have not told any of the others, especially...you know."
"That's good...okay well yeah, maybe I do."
"Would you say...love her?"
"What? I dunno, hard to say. Wait, so you knew what you were doing back there when you were asking Raven to go to the mall weren't you?"
"Yes I was. So, do you plan to tell Raven of how you feel inside for her? Today would be a perfect day to say so."
"Or never."
"What?"
"It's hard to explain Star, but sometimes I think it's just best to keep to keep my feeling's to myself, they've gotten me in trouble before, and this case isn't any different. Maybe that's why I like to act the way I do around everyone. That way no one can ever imagine."
"But I understand it very well Beast Boy...there are many who feel this way...isn't it best to have love than not at all?"
"Maybe...I just don't know what to really do, you guys gave me all very great advice, but you know how Raven and I are? That's why it hurts so much. There's just no possible way we could..."
"But try anyways, please Beast Boy. It would make me happy to see you two together. Besides, I know exactly how you feel, and you are a very pleasant person to be around. Even if you were to never be with Raven, then with another girl perhaps? So just try, you'll never know unless you do."
"Alright...but does it have to be...today?"
"When you feel it is time, then do it. Perhaps I can even help you?"
"Sure, I'm thinking I could use all the help I can get."
"Alright, so then, shall we go and see if Raven is prepared to go to the mall?" Starfire quickly jumped out after Beast Boy's arm and dragged out of the room and down the hall towards Raven's room. 'You know, it's really such a beautiful day for oh I don't know, maybe...'
"Star!"
That's all I could get in, sorry you guys, feel kinda guilty about not updating in so long and all. Impending doom, coming down on me...pressure rising....ahhhhhh!