Well...not much to say except here's Chapter 6, and yes, this is the chapter where some confessions are made. Now it's whether they'll work out now isn't it?
Chapter 6 – I'm Sorry
Talk about a perfect day, well almost. Other than Beast Boy just barely missing his chance to confess his love to Raven, it was perfect. Heck perfect wasn't even powerful enough to describe how great Beast Boy felt as he sat in the main room of Titan's Tower looking out at the horizon.
Beast Boy, Starfire and Raven had just got back from Jump City's mall, and what was so interesting about this day at the mall was that Beast Boy and Raven had spent most of the time there together, and they both enjoyed each other's company. After seeing how happy Raven was for once, the more it convinced Beast Boy that Starfire was right, and that he'd tell Raven exactly how he felt about her.
There still was that sick grinding in his stomach but he knew he had to tell her someday and today was probably the best moment. Robin and Cyborg entered the room while Beast Boy was thinking things through.
"Hey there Beast Boy, so how did it go at the mall today?" Robin questioned.
"It was cool, just hanging out buying some stuff, you know. What about you guys?"
"Well, I just did some good training."
"And I was working on the T-Car and messed around the Tower for awhile." Cyborg replied.
Robin took notice that Beast Boy seemed to have a pretty stern expression on his face when he entered the room.
"So Beast Boy, what's up?"
"What?"
"Well, you just look like something's on your mind...is there?"
"No...nothing in particular."
"You sure? You just don't seem like your regular self today. Come on you can tell us We're all brothers here right Cy?"
"Of course, come on BB. Did something go down?"
"Nothing, you know. Just thinking."
Cyborg gave Beast Boy a peculiar look.
"Well that's something I wouldn't expect from you. Is it that girl thing again man?"
"No."
"Well alright then, you don't have to say anything, but at least know Rob and I are here to help you out, you one of our boys."
"Thanks you guys, I appreciate you both looking out for me. Really I do...I just need a little...time maybe...I dunno I'm weird like that, but I gotta go right now. I'll talk to you guys later."
"Alright later Beast Boy."
"Yeah, peace."
Beast Boy stepped out the room and down the main hall leaving Robin and Cyborg to fend for themselves.
"Hey Rob, whatdaya think he was so deep in thought about?"
"No idea."
"Yeah same here, that's something Raven would be saying don't you think?"
"I'll say, I've never seen this kinda side of Beast Boy."
"Maybe he's sick or something." Robin gave a weird look at Cyborg and cocked his eyebrows.
"What I say?"
Beast Boy wasn't necessarily sick at all, but he sure felt he was. He figured he'd visit Starfire to help ease his mind. He got up to her room and gave a weak knock on the door.
A slightly muffled voice came from the room. "You may enter."
The door slid open and Beast Boy stepped in to greet Starfire sitting on her round bed taking tags off of her new clothes she got at the mall earlier.
"Ah Beast Boy hello, how are you?"
"I'm good. Just uh...felt like seeing what was up you know."
"Wonderful that you came, I was beginning to get lonely sitting here alone, please sit." Starfire patted a spot next to her at the bed. She continued to shuffle through her clothes and cut tags on them.
"I am glad you and Raven both enjoyed your time at the mall. I knew things would be as they are."
"I'm glad you pulled a crazy stunt like that, thanks Star."
"You are welcome."
"By the way, how did the rest of your day go while you were alone Star?"
"I enjoyed it, I looked at various shops of Earth clothes, and some Earth toys, look I even purchased what they called a Teddy Bear." Starfire picked up a small bear with a little hat on. "Isn't it cute?"
"Yeah."
"Oh yes while I was sitting for a moment before I went to meet with you and Raven a boy I did not know sat down next to me."
"Oh?"
"Yes my apologies, but it was the reason I was not on time."
"What did this guy say to you?"
"He spoke with me about where I was from. He seemed confused when I told him about Tamaran."
"Yeah, he probably didn't know you were from another planet."
"Oh yes he was asking if I had a...cell number, but I don't believe our communicators have numbers on them. He also said I was hot. Yet I was not feeling hot at all, it was actually quite cold in the mall."
"Uh...he was trying to go out with you, and was complimenting you...sorta."
"Oh I see, well then you are hot as well Beast Boy."
"Thanks...Hey Star, I think I'm going to tell Raven how I feel about her tonight."
"Really? I should prepare a Tamaranian meal of happiness for such an occasion. Why not now though?"
"I was thinking maybe now...but...I dunno."
"Yes now is a perfect time to do so Beast Boy, the sun is going down soon. It would be perhaps, romantic?"
"But what if things don't go right?"
"The day spent with her has already been right has it not?"
"That's true, but what if...she doesn't like me at all?"
"The worst she can say is no, I can't force you to tell her. Regardless of what is decided, I'm sure you will remain friends."
"Yeah...I'll tell her, whatever happens, happens right?"
"Wonderful!" Starfire suddenly leaped out at Beast Boy and gave him a bear hug. Beast Boy could feel the air being squeezed out of his upper body. "Beast Boy you must hurry over to Raven's room and tell her immediately!"
"Eeeee..."
"Oh I'm sorry, I did not mean to squeeze you so tightly, I'm just so happy."
"Cough...hey...cough no problem. Well, wish me luck."
"Good luck Beast Boy."
Beast Boy stepped out of Starfire's room and made his way over to Raven's room. All he could think about was what to say to her and what would happen. He didn't want to think about it, he just turned his brain off and just let it go. He got to Raven's room and psyched himself up before the moment of truth.
"Okay BB, this is it. Take it easy, just say what's on your mind and everything will be cool."
Knock, knock.
Beast Boy stood there for a moment stiff as a board, he could feel his back heating up and his heart pounding. It seemed like he was about to fight some horrible monster out of some movie just waiting to burst out of the door and kill him. Only instead it was a girl that he was about to confess his love for. There was no response, Beast Boy knocked again.
Knock, knock.
"Raven, can I talk to you for just a sec. I don't mean to bother you but if you want me to go away I will..."
There still wasn't a response from inside of Raven's room.
"Maybe she's not in right now."
Beast Boy thought of inching her door open just a little just to be sure. Then he thought of the last time he was in her room. It was her meditating mirror that was his doom the first time around, this time he just won't go in to begin with.
"H-hello?"
Beast Boy peeked his head into Raven's room and looked around. The room like always was dark. He scanned the room past the masks, and past the books. No sign of her.
"Hum, where could she be at right now...oh yeah, meditating. But where? If she's not in the main room, not in her room, then where else can she medi-roof! Duh! I forgot she goes up there sometimes when Cy and I get too into our video games."
Beast Boy hurried over to the stairs and got up to the door. Just out the door was the roof, which probably was where Raven was. He opened the door slightly just to be sure.
Sure enough Raven was there. Not meditating but just sitting with her legs folded and looking out towards the sun that was working it's way into melting into the sea. She didn't notice him so he shut the door and leaned against it. He knew there was no point in backing down now. He had to do this, he was only just a few feet away from her anyways.
Beast Boy just kept thinking if it wasn't the right time yet. Or if he should just quit altogether. Though that wouldn't make Star too happy. He took a deep breath and slowly opened the door and walked to where she was sitting.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"Mind if I joined you, or sat down with you or anything?"
"Whatever is fine."
Beast Boy sat down near her and spread his legs all the way out and looked at the scene that stood before him. The setting sun felt warm and the sky seemed a lot like orange-aid. It reflected onto the sea as waves hit the shore of the island. Star was right, maybe it was somewhat, romantic even if he didn't want to admit it. Beast Boy decided he would tell her eventually, but he wouldn't leave the roof without telling her. What was the rush anyway?
"Were you, meditating?"
"No, I just felt like getting a good view of the horizon. Looks...pretty. I couldn't resist."
"Yeah, great view."
The two kept quiet for a while and just enjoyed the sight before them. It seemed too perfect to interrupt. Beast Boy looked over at Raven out of the corner of his eye hoping she wouldn't notice. She had her hood down so he could admire her beauty entirely. The shades of orange painted over her pale complexion as she stared plainly out at the water. He admired her eyes as they glistened in orange and violet. Beast Boy knew it was rude to stare, even if it was from the corner of your eye and the person couldn't notice at all, he also laughed in his mind when the wind sometimes blew her hair over her face and she had to brush her locks away behind her ears.
Raven eventually looked over at Beast Boy, but when she did he quickly shifted his eyes forward again hoping she didn't notice anything, she did though.
"What?"
Beast Boy tried his best to play it off like he didn't know what she was talking about.
"Huh? I didn't say anything..."
"No you we're looking at me weren't you?"
"N-no, I was looking at the sun."
"...You're not a very good liar are you, I can hear it in your voice."
"Alright, alright...so maybe I was, but no big deal...right?"
"Why?"
"Hey isn't this view great?"
"Yes it is, and we already talked about this BB, topic changer."
"Hey!"
"What?"
"You called me BB Rae!"
"No I didn't."
"Yes you did!"
"..."
"Alright, how bout this? I'll drop that like it never happened, and you forget I looked at you and all of this will go away."
"Fine...you know you're...odd, I really don't understand your ways of thinking."
"Well that's what makes me special."
Their conversation continued in this manner for a while, up until the sun was about halfway into the sea, Beast Boy knew what he had to do, it was now the time. Whether it turned out good, or blew up in his face he had to tell her. It hurt too much not being able to.
"Hey Raven."
"Yeah?"
"Remember when we were talking about how...well we were saying some things shouldn't be known at all?"
"Yes."
"Well...I never got to finish what I really wanted to say...so...I figure I can tell you now."
Raven just looked at Beast Boy carefully, she could feel pressure building up in her chest. She already knew what Beast Boy probably wanted to say back at the mall.
"For the past few weeks, you might have noticed I haven't been my usual joking irritating self. A lot has been on my mind and I've just been thinking of the best way to tell you. I haven't thought of anything really except just tell you straight what's been on my mind for a pretty long time. And I just hope you can feel the same way."
Beast Boy gently took Raven by the hand and looked her in the eyes before finishing.
"Raven...I love you. I wasn't sure at first but I can't deny it. I really do love you."
Beast Boy still held Raven by the hand and kept looking her in the eyes, he began to feel a little better, a huge weight had been taken off of him. It now actually felt right for him to hold her hand and look at her in the eyes. He wanted to kiss her, but he wanted to hear what she wanted to say.
Raven was overwhelmed, she was almost happy to hear what Beast Boy had said, but also sad he did. Her face said it all. Shock. She pulled her hand away from his.
"Beast Boy...I-I can not."
"Can't what?"
"I can't love you..."
"W-why? You don't feel the same way?"
"No I...it's that I can't."
"I don't understand why you can't Raven...is there something wrong with me?"
Beast Boy had a miserable expression on his face, all he wanted now was a reason why, where he went wrong. Raven could feel tears rolling down her cheeks as she stared at him not knowing what she should do.
"God! Beast Boy don't look at me like that! I'm sorry! I just can't, I can't handle it, I can't go through with it. It's not you, you haven't done anything wrong it's just I can't. I'm not meant to be that way."
"Raven..."
"I have to go..."
Raven with rivers of tears running down her face ran for the door and slammed it shut leaving Beast Boy alone with the sinking sun, along with his heart to go down with it. She ran down and went down to her room and locked the door wishing everything would go away and she could just vanish from the world. She collapsed onto her bed.
She sobbed in agony at what she had done and said to Beast Boy, she knew he hadn't done anything to deserve what she did to him.
"Beast Boy I'm so sorry, I cannot love you, I'm not meant to, I'm me. I'm sorry."
Raven knew that she too had feelings for Beast Boy, but whatever reasons she had to refuse him stayed with her. She drank her tears for the rest of the night until slumber took her away from her nightmare of a reality.
Aw what the heck, that's such a sad chapter, who writes this crap?! O.o Oh yeah I do...well this isn't the end. We wouldn't want to leave it like this do we? I know I don't! Well I'll keep working on this, until next time!