Chapter Two
All
day I contemplated the three words that Professor Snape had uttered
as an excuse.
'I like you."
What did it
mean, exactly? Was it true? Was he kidding? Surely he must have been
kidding...
The clock chimed 9 times as I turned the Potions
corridor. I arrived at the classroom door and put my hand unto the
handle, but the knots in my stomach made me pause before pushing the
door open. I shouldn't be feeling so uneasy, but I felt it
nonetheless.
It was alright, after this term, I only had one
more miserable year with Professor Severus Snape and that was the
thought that kept me sane.
I drew in a deep breath and pried
open the door, poking my head in.
I exhaled quietly upon
seeing him slumped over his desk, snoring ever so slightly. The bloke
was sleeping. I walked in, holding the door as I did so. Then I
paused and swiftly, slammed the door shut.
He jumped and sat
up straight in surprise, looking around. Then he saw me. "Miss
Granger..I apologize, I must of dozed off.." He spoke through a
yawn.
"I'm sorry for making such a racket, Professor."
I said with a fake sheepish-ness.
He nodded. "Right..Right
then." He stood and stretched out as he examined the classroom,
trying to find a chore for me to complete. "Hm.." He
murmered thoughtfully. "Its odd, I've actually kept the room
quite tidy in my opinion, and there's no sense in messing something
up just so you can clean it.."
Would I get out of this
one?
"I suppose I could have you..no..thats been done.."
He sighed and took a seat on his desktop. "Maybe...no..Potter
and Weasley are on that.." He let out a chuckle. "Well,
Miss Granger...I guess there's nothing for you to do this evening..."
Ah relief.
"But, there are a few concoctions
Madam Pomphrey has asked for...I could use a bit of help with
mixing...And though I wouldn't admit this anywhere else, you do have
a superb handle on potion making..." He ran a hand back through
his hair. "If you don't mind, that is."
Potion
mixing with Professor Snape was like recess for me. The detention I
expected was an evening of cleaning out greasy, gunky jars that once
held eye balls or fingers, or some other extremities. "I don't."
I even managed a smile.
I don't think I'd ever felt such a
sense of shock than the moment I saw him smile to me as well.
It
took an hour to make the very complex solution for an awakening serum
that consisted of nearly 40 different ingredients, mixed and measured
a certain way.Professor Snape held my hand steady as I dropped in the
last mixture. There was a satisfying pop fizz and the potion in the
cauldron turned into a bubbly transparent liquid.
I smiled up
to him, but saw he was frowning. "What?"
He slumped
into a chair that resided beside him, running his hands down his face
in frustration. "Dip your finger in Miss Granger."
I
hesitated at first, but reluctantly, I dipped my finger in and took a
taste. I snorted. "Vodka."
"Yeah.." He
said with an exhasperated laugh. "Bottom's up."
We
sat at two of the chairs at the desks for the students as we drank
and It didn't take long to get very comfortable with talking to him
one on one after a little vodka. I made sure not to drink too much
because I knew for a fact, my tolerance for alcohol was very very
low.
It was odd, sipping vodka and having an intelligent
conversation with a man you told yourself you hated over and again.
He was rather intellectual to be honest. He won many of the debates
we held that night and maybe I was mistaken, hopefully I was
mistaken, for I thought I was warming to him.
"You
know.." He said staring down into his empty cup. He brought his
attention up to me. "You're alright, Gra-..Hermione."
"Hermione?" I asked dumfounded. Oh right, that was
my name...Wait. He called me my proper name? Professor Snape called
me Hermione? "Why'd you call me that?"
"Well,
as strange as it sounds, it is your name.." He let out a
chuckle. "And..I suppose it couldn't hurt to be a bit nicer to
you..." He shrugged. "I don't know. I don't know.."
Then he looked back in his cup.
I set my cup on the desktop
and crossed my arms across my chest. "Why'd you say what you
said earlier?"
He looked at me over his shoulder and I
caught him chewing the inside of his lip. "Well..." He
turned to me and laced his hands together. "You see, its
complicated...I...Well, I see two paths, the right and the
wrong...The wrong would make me happier...but..Well, its
complicated.." He sighed. "You're dismissed Hermione, I
expect you back at the same time tommorow night.." He stood,
closing his hand around the cup. He paused and looked at me. "Good
night.." Then he turned and walked off, disappearing into his
office.
I just sat there for a moment, staring at the closed
door. Then I picked up my cup and tossed it angrily at the door.
Why
did he have to be so difficult? Why did I even care?
I
stood and left down the corridor, consumed in thought. The wrong
choice..? Then it hit me. He was going to go back to the dark side. I
put my hand over my mouth and started up the stairs to the Gryffindor
common.
I figured I'd talk to him tommorow about it. Maybe I
could talk some sense into him.
"Truffledrum." I
murmered before the portrait and stood back as it slowly swung open
to the side. I, tiredly, walked in and flopped onto the sofa before a
dying fire.
Almost instantly, I realized just how tired I was
and snuggled into the velvety soft couch pillows. There was no point
in dragging myself up any more staircases, I just wasn't up to it
now.
I soon fell victim to sleep. A dreamless sleep, but I
didn't mind in the morning. I was afraid of what kind of dream would
have turned up if I had had one anyway.
I deduced that I'd
either woken up very early or very late, for I saw no one around when
I woke up.
Early. I realized. The sun was barely
risen.
I sat up and tried to smooth out some of the frizzes in
my hair, and being awake so early gave me abundant time to wash up,
change, and get myself together.
For the rest of the day, I
was going over what I'd say to Professor Snape. I didn't dread
detention like I should of, I was actually anticipating talking to
him about it.
I showed up that night a few minutes early and
knocked before entering the classroom.
"Enter..." I
heard him say, muffled by the closed door.
I walked in and set
my bag down beside the door, tucking my hair behind my ears and
sighing. The words were all in my head, but I wasn't sure how to go
about saying them aloud. "Professor, I think we need
to...talk."
From where he sat writing behind his desk, he
nodded and offered me a seat in front of his desk. I took it and
looked at him. "I understand you're in a complicated
position..."
He leaned back in his chair and put his
hands behind his head. "Go on."
"I mean I can
see where you're coming from, Old habits die hard and all...But you
see, if you chose that path, the wrong path, I can see you winding up
in Azkaban.."
"Thats all too true.." He nodded
slowly. "I'm so sorry for even making you think-"
"You
wouldn't be any thing more than a traitor if you went along with
you-know-who...I mean, I know you were involved in that stuff
before..but...the good path would have more rewards in the end when
the dark side is finally defeated and.."
I heard him
begin to laugh. Laughing.
I furrowed my eyebrows. "What's
so funny?"
He shook his head. "I would have though
even you could catch the flirtation.."
"Flirtation..?"
What are you getting at?" I was completley confused. So I'd just
lectured him on the wrong subject?
"Hermione," He
stated. "I'm in love with you."
