Classical Sorrow: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh

"I told my psychiatrist that everyone hates me. He said I was being ridiculous - everyone hasn't met me yet."

-Rodney Dangerfield

I really hate myself. I hate myself because I never show anyone who I am. Not even my best friends. I preach about undying love and support and friendship when I don't even have those.

To put it simply -- my life is crap.

As long as I can remember I've always wanted to be a dancer. Ever since I saw my first Ballet on T.V. it was what I wanted. No one seemed to care though.

My mom isn't supportive of me. She constantly says I'm too fat to be a dancer. I'm not graceful enough. The best I can do in life is to be a waitress. I'm not smart enough to do anything else.

She says I'm dumb. I never go to school, I'm always hanging around with my loser friends that play cards all day. That I'm not going to be able to do anything in life.

My Dad is a work all day. When he comes home he eats dinner and watches T.V. Everyday. I say all of three words to him.

'Hi,'

'Bye'

and

'Good-night'

Sometimes I wonder if he even knows my name.

My friends don't understand real life. All they really do care about is cards. That's their whole life. That's what they have to do. I support them. I support them so that they'll support me. So that I can feel something.

It doesn't help though. They don't know who I really am. They don't know about my verbally abusive mother and zombie of a father.

I hate myself for pretending to be another person. To be happy all the time. To be worried about my friends all the time, or at least I pretend to.

I wonder if anyone will ever know the true me...

Classical Sorrow: Tea is hated by a lot of people on for all her 'friendship speeches' but I don't think people really look at Tea's real character. If you watch the show she's a pretty good character who stands up for what she believes in.

Do you really think it would be bad to have Tea Gardener as a friend? Someone who can support you and care about you like that?

Don't hate someone because everyone else does.