Reflection
Clutching the mirror I try to remember when I last thieved
I remember pain that tears and scathes
I promised myself I wouldn't do this again
I wouldn't plot alongside deceitful men
I look in the mirror to see myself, the one
I turn away, disgusted at what I have become
Memories come flooding back
Of looking in a mirror in my ancient past
I remember looking in the golden mirror
The one Kuronue and I had set out for
But only I returned
And that really hurt
I sat there, at my reflection staring
Hating myself for not being so daring
As to go back and rescue him
He was dead now, thanks to my incompetence
I hated my reflection - I still hate my reflection
Is it because my reflection shows my true intention?
My reflection shows the true me
My thoughts, my flaws, my difficulties
It's not my reflection that truly bothers me
It's my incompetence, my emotions, my treachery
All I truly hate… is me
I hate myself for all I am
I hate myself for not being able to do what others can
I hate my reflection in this mirror most of all
Because it proves I'm not able to break away from it all
I can't break away from all that I was and still am
A useless, selfish, cold-hearted fool of a man
I can't deny that under this skin
I am still Yoko Kurama - I am still him
I can never forget nor forgive those days
When I went the most fiendish of ways
When I cared for no one and no one cared for me
No, the second part isn't true, I said that in self-pity
Kuronue cared for me but did I care for him?
No, I turned my back and ran when that bamboo pierced his skin
I was such a coward, running away like that
What right do I have to say I care when I committed such a villainous act?
How could I just turn my back?
I just slunk away like a treacherous rat
I can't forgive what I've done
I can't forget I'm the revolting one
I quake with disgust when I see my reflection
So why can't I stop looking at myself, this abomination?
I hate my reflection to see
Because what's staring back… is despicable me.