Ahoy there, y'all! Here I am again. As if that weren't obvious enough.
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha. (But I wish I did). I don't own Matchbox 20. (But I wish I did). And I don't own their song, "Downfall". But I do own their cd, "More Than You Think You Are". I also own a beastly history book, the homework for which I should be doing at the moment.
The last chapter ended with something like this…
…he couldn't go away…
So here's installment number three, entitled "Downfall". (If nobody noticed, I'm naming the chapters after the respective song because that fits)
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I wonder how you sleep
I wonder what you think of me
If I could go back
Would you have ever been with me?
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Inuyasha perched in his tree, feeling miserable about what he had done to Kagome. He had run through as many different ways that he could have said goodbye. Each one that he thought up was better than the last. But the moment was gone and he had left the group. He contemplated returning, saying that it all was a joke, and that he couldn't believe that she had believed that he would leave her. He thought about what might have happened. But there was always that one part of his mind telling him that she would never be with him. And he had listened to that part of his mind. He knew that she needed him. He had seen it in her eyes that night, smelled it in her scent. "Feh," he said half-heartedly. Kagome was not the only miserable one.
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I want you to be uneased
I want you to remember
I want you to believe in me
I want you on my side
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Yes, Inuyasha was completely miserable. Though he still loved her, all of his thinking had led him to believe that he would never be good enough for anybody, especially not Kagome. She deserved better than him. 'You're worthless,' that part of his mind had told him. 'You're not anything, just stuck in the middle.' At first he had argued, reminding himself that she could very well have gone back to her own time or taken it upon herself to collect the shards alone. If she truly hated him, then she would have left already, wouldn't she have? But that voice had grated on him and led him to believe that since he was only a halfling, then he would only be half as much as she expected him to be. So, broken down, he had left her with confusion in her eyes and sadness in her scent.
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Come on and lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my savior
And I'll be your downfall
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As the days turned to weeks and he still followed the little group, he noticed that Kagome had seemed to lose her love for life. She was no longer cheerful; she hardly spoke. That smile which used to light up her eyes had left. Inuyasha kept telling himself that he had left to save her from a wrong decision, one that would surely end up the worse for her. After all, she was still collecting shards. Once the jewel was complete, then she would go back to her own time and forget the half-demon whose heart she had stolen. She could be happy; something that wouldn't happen if she stayed with him.
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Here we go again
Ashamed of being broken in
We're getting off track
I wanna get you back again
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He loved her. That much was clear to him. He needed her. That was also clear to him. What was clearest, though, was the fact that loving her would surely injure her. So he had left in order to save her from himself. That was the best option that he could have taken. He was proud of his resolve. For if he had kissed her on the lips, there was no telling if he would have been able to leave. However, this train of thought was taking him places that he knew he shouldn't be going to. If he kept thinking like this, then he might start thinking about going back to her. And that was the one thing he could never do.
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I want you to trouble me
I wanted you to linger
I want you to agree with me
I want so much so bad
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What if he did go back? That was the thought on his mind at the moment as he followed the group from the treetops. Would she have him back? Probably not. After all he had put her through, the worrying, confusion, and pain, who would want a person like him back in their life? He had thought she would have figured it out by now, that she deserved better than him. If she had, she was hiding it well. She looked as though she were going to drop soon. He needed a way to let her know why he had left. If he went back to the group, then he would never be able to leave again. He needed her to understand. He needed her beside him, that's what he needed. But he couldn't admit to that. He was made of stronger stuff than backing down. However, he was slowly running out of willpower.
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Come on and lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my savior
And I'll be your downfall
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In the middle of his contemplation of the mess that he had gotten himself in, his strong nose caught a whiff of smoke. Looking out over the treetops, he saw a small village on fire. Only one type of demon could have created such a blaze; one in possession of a Shikon shard. He glanced back at the group, wondering why Kagome had not noticed yet. Then he figured it out; she had worn herself out with worry. 'Oh', he thought, 'What have I done?" Night was coming fast. The group would be setting up camp soon enough. He bounded off through the trees toward the village. Surely she would be all right without him for a few minutes.
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Be my savior
Only love can save us now
Come lay me down
Only love can save us now
I'll be your downfall
Our love can save us now
Love save me now
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When he got to the village, he saw that he had completely underestimated the opposition. A great spider demon had already demolished half the buildings, the rest were in flames, and there were only a few villagers remaining. The monster turned as Inuyasha drew his sword. With a flying leap, Inuyasha attacked. With all his concentration on the demon, he failed to see how some of the buildings shimmered at the edges and shifted slightly. He also never saw the bolt of energy that came from behind, knocking him out immediately. His attacker laughed, and the illusion of the village and spider demon faded to nothing, leaving an empty clearing in the woods. The attacker stood over Inuyasha's prone body and laughed again.
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Wow, huh? Alrighty even I wasn't expecting that to happen. But it did and that's what happens sometimes. And to any other Matchbox 20 obsessors, yes I know I cut the song a little short. But when you look at the lyrics, it gets really repetitive towards the end of the song and that was just to long for me to write about. So, quite sorry about that, but I think I did well with what I used. So review and tell me what you think! Also, if anybody has a favorite song they want me to use, just tell me the title and singer and I'll be glad to try and work it in! Many thanks to all who reviewed; I will give recognition in the next chapter, but I'm getting kicked off my computer so I don't have any time, but I do love all of you!