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A/N: This is the second chapter to Letter, I hope that as all of you read this, you will feel a certain connection to Touya and Tomoyo as they each tell their thoughts of what has happened over the years and you will also find out who Yukito left Touya for. (Thoughts(
Chapter 2: Missing you.
~Touya~
(You know I thought for a while that everything was going great, I mean I had everything anyone would want, the greatest love life, the sweetest job, and the nicest ride. I had just gotten a job believe it or not at the University teaching piano classes as a professor.following in the old man's footsteps as well as using the talent my mother gave me. I guess you could say I spent too much time overseas considering now I think almost constantly in English. I had saved up enough money to go and study the music course at UCLA as well as take two years of English as a second language, so I guess it grew on me.(
(You know America was cool, but I kind of thought this whole war that was going on over in the Middle East was kind of harsh even though that ass of a dictator deserved it. I mean I keep thinking of all those small children that got hurt in the process but hey there wasn't much I could do about it.
Anyway back to the subject. Sorry if I got off track. Yukito had stayed back in Japan While I studied, and even though we kept regular contact, it seemed that something was different about him but I never pushed it.(
(When I came back, it was as if nothing had changed, and I went back to my old lifestyle living as I always did. The only thing that was different was that Sakura had grown up a lot and that brat was still in love with her. Yukito and I had gone about our lives as happy as ever, that was until just a few months ago.. see Yuki and Yueh started to bleed into each other's consciousness and act almost as one. That was due to Sakura's need for them both to be there. I didn't understand it.not at all, but then Yuki told me he was in love with Nakuru Akizuki. How could he have possibly fallen in love with her or him or whatever the creature was? I mean I knew Yukito wasn't human but I never knew that his other half had felt that way. Yukito and Nakuru are complete opposites, Yuki is quiet and reserved but Nakuru she's loud and obnoxious and she hangs all over anyone she can latch on to. Now that I think about it, he never told me what it was about the annoying "girl" that attracted him. I know that Yueh is neither male nor female but I've always thought of him as a guy.(
(It drove me insane when he left, I tried to drown it all in Gin or Vodka or whatever alcohol I could find.but it always made things worse. I would go numb with being drunk for a few hours, but eventually I would snap out of it and have a hangover. Of course there was also the University I had to think about, I had started in the fall term as the second branch music professor and now the summer term was almost here. Although I told the Dean I might take off, I still had a job to do and I couldn't go in drunk.so I did a clean up act. Sure the empty space is still there but I would try to find something or someone to fill it. The problem is who would fall in love with a broken fool?(
(I just got an invitation today to go to my sister's wedding, I know Yukito's going to be there, I can't face it; it's too hard to see him. I love the monster but she knows how I feel. I should just quite here and now with trying to sort all of this out in my head but there's still so much I need to understand.(
(A few weeks ago I started seeing my mother again.. it scared the hell out of me when I was sitting down in my lonely little apartment drinking coffee, and suddenly there she was sitting beside me. I guess that Yueh no longer needed my gift, but after not having it for years it feels strange seeing little spirit children playing on the king penguin slide at the park. Not only that but it's funny seeing my old cat.my mother loved this cat to death; Sakura was too little to remember him but I'll go over my father's and the cat will be sitting there on his lap in the study just like it used to in life. Of course my father knows now that he has magic, thanks to that strange half reincarnation of Clow.I think his name was Eriol according to what Kero told me. (
(I remember we had a conversation the other day.my mother and I, she was acting strange. She asked me how I was doing.and then suddenly said don't worry you'll find someone else.we hadn't even brought up the subject of Yuki. She told me that it was someone I wouldn't expect and to be careful. I had barely gotten two words in as she waved and disappeared. But then again my mother was always a bit strange when it came to seeing those things.(
(Well it's been two months since the invitation came in the mail and today's the wedding but as I thought I couldn't get up the courage to go. I think I'll go over to the University later when it's quiet.(
(I was sitting down at the piano, playing a tune that I hadn't played since Yuki left. It was also the first thing I had played for him, and it was a little heart wrenching. I loved him with everything I was and suddenly it was over in an instantaneous moment.(
(I finished playing, when I heard someone crying in the other room. I stood up and walked through the double doors where I saw a young woman sitting at a desk and crying over a piece of paper. I walked over to her and put my hand on her shoulder just as she was about to get up and throw the article away, as she stopped, it was then that I recognized her as Tomoyo Diadouji. She looked down at the paper that was in her hands and wiped her eyes, and then she tried to walk away but I pulled her to me and she began to cry again. When she calmed down she apologized and I asked her for what and she said that she had ruined my shirt. I told her don't worry about it in some disappointing English and said that I spoke it badly. She laughed and said it was all right but when I asked her if she was ok she said no.(
(She lied to me and said that she was hoping to practice her English with someone but no one was there so she began writing a letter to Sakura and it got her upset. I asked her why she really wrote it and she said she needed to get it all out. I asked her why she was going to throw it away and she said, "I don't want anyone to find out.. I feel ashamed!"(
(When she turned away, I wrote down a note telling her to call me, she already knew the number.(
~Tomoyo~
(I never thought I would feel this bad, I knew it couldn't work out between us even if she did love me, but still I sit here in my room with my arms wrapped around my legs which are pulled up to my chest. I want to burn all of these pictures, destroy all those videos.anything.anything. to take away this pain. I've been with people.trying to forget all about her, dated boys and girls alike but I've always thought about her. I can't get her out of my head, she makes me wake up each night crying and feeling torn apart.(
(You know I got a letter from her the other day, she asked me to design her wedding dress for her, I had it done this morning.. after all I do have that mannequin that's her size. She's been my life ever since I was ten. the first day I met her I felt the click. But as the years waned on and she grew closer to Syaoran, our friendship fell apart.(
(It's been two months since I got that letter inviting me to the wedding of: Kinomoto, Sakura and Li, Syaoran and today's the day.you'd think that I would be there, no I can't face that. so instead I'm here sobbing over a letter I can't send you. And now your brother is holding me. I can't even think straight, no instead I'm talking nonsense on how I ruined his shirt. Now it's about the letter and he tries to get the truth out about why I want to throw it away and when I tell him why I want to I turn away and when I look back he's gone and there's a note from him on the paper.(
(I'm home now and I keep staring at his handwriting. the maids have tried to help me get out of my disheveled clothes and into pajamas and they even sent up hot cocoa just the way I like it with whip cream and chocolate chips in it. I drink the warm liquid and feel my hands shaking as I set the mug down. I feel like she's died almost and I want to destroy the feelings I have. I stand up and look in the mirror, then I pull my fist back and smash the damn thing. She's looked in it too many times with all those outfits I made her.(
(I was too fucking stupid to realize that she hated those outfits, all I did was get in her way as I taped her. I created a dangerous situation for her, she had to worry about me all of the time. maybe she could have captured all the cards sooner if I hadn't been in her way.(
(I'm looking at my bloody hand now and I hear the maids and my mother coming up the stairs in frenzy, mother is the first to come through the door. "Tomoyo honey what's wrong?" she asks me in fluid Japanese "Nothing mother.I just didn't like that mirror, so I smashed it.now if you'll excuse me I am going to go bandage my hand and go out." I respond in kind. I go into the bathroom as the maids clear away the shattered mess and run the bath water. When it's full, I go back out and grab the lowest outfit I had ever designed. It's a black leather jacket with a v cut peasant style tie halter that's red and black low-rise jeans that had intricate slashes cut through the material. The thing that made the outfit so low was the fact that the halter and jeans barely hid anything from view. I pull out a pentacle necklace from my jewelry box and grab underwear, then I went into the bathroom, peel off my clothing and get into the tub.(
(The water stings my hand but I barely even noticed it as I wash my body, I notice the way I have a lot of scars, most of them because of Sakura but a few aren't. I get out of the tub soon and dry off. Then I brush through my hair and re- apply my makeup. After that I put on my pentacle necklace and a black bra and thong. I normally never wear these things, but a guy I had been seeing once was into the whole modern gothic look, I was more of a dark ages gothic. I put on the halter and tie the silk peasant strings in the front in a crossing style then I pull on the jeans put on deodorant and then throw on the jacket. My hand has stopped bleeding by now and I wanted to get out.(
(I go down the stairs and my mother looks at me, "Where are you going this late at night?" she asks. "To see an old friend. see you if I get back." I say. And with that I walk out the door and get into my Black 1984 Jaguar Roadster and tear down the streets, going along a very familiar path.(
A/N: In this installment I put down in Tomoyo's reaction what I did in a way.though mine was a different reason. I'm sure all of you have taken off somewhere when you couldn't handle things. but what happens if you get in too deep. Also I'm sure a lot of you know what movie this car is from. Read the next chapter to find out.
Celtic Sorceress
A/N: This is the second chapter to Letter, I hope that as all of you read this, you will feel a certain connection to Touya and Tomoyo as they each tell their thoughts of what has happened over the years and you will also find out who Yukito left Touya for. (Thoughts(
Chapter 2: Missing you.
~Touya~
(You know I thought for a while that everything was going great, I mean I had everything anyone would want, the greatest love life, the sweetest job, and the nicest ride. I had just gotten a job believe it or not at the University teaching piano classes as a professor.following in the old man's footsteps as well as using the talent my mother gave me. I guess you could say I spent too much time overseas considering now I think almost constantly in English. I had saved up enough money to go and study the music course at UCLA as well as take two years of English as a second language, so I guess it grew on me.(
(You know America was cool, but I kind of thought this whole war that was going on over in the Middle East was kind of harsh even though that ass of a dictator deserved it. I mean I keep thinking of all those small children that got hurt in the process but hey there wasn't much I could do about it.
Anyway back to the subject. Sorry if I got off track. Yukito had stayed back in Japan While I studied, and even though we kept regular contact, it seemed that something was different about him but I never pushed it.(
(When I came back, it was as if nothing had changed, and I went back to my old lifestyle living as I always did. The only thing that was different was that Sakura had grown up a lot and that brat was still in love with her. Yukito and I had gone about our lives as happy as ever, that was until just a few months ago.. see Yuki and Yueh started to bleed into each other's consciousness and act almost as one. That was due to Sakura's need for them both to be there. I didn't understand it.not at all, but then Yuki told me he was in love with Nakuru Akizuki. How could he have possibly fallen in love with her or him or whatever the creature was? I mean I knew Yukito wasn't human but I never knew that his other half had felt that way. Yukito and Nakuru are complete opposites, Yuki is quiet and reserved but Nakuru she's loud and obnoxious and she hangs all over anyone she can latch on to. Now that I think about it, he never told me what it was about the annoying "girl" that attracted him. I know that Yueh is neither male nor female but I've always thought of him as a guy.(
(It drove me insane when he left, I tried to drown it all in Gin or Vodka or whatever alcohol I could find.but it always made things worse. I would go numb with being drunk for a few hours, but eventually I would snap out of it and have a hangover. Of course there was also the University I had to think about, I had started in the fall term as the second branch music professor and now the summer term was almost here. Although I told the Dean I might take off, I still had a job to do and I couldn't go in drunk.so I did a clean up act. Sure the empty space is still there but I would try to find something or someone to fill it. The problem is who would fall in love with a broken fool?(
(I just got an invitation today to go to my sister's wedding, I know Yukito's going to be there, I can't face it; it's too hard to see him. I love the monster but she knows how I feel. I should just quite here and now with trying to sort all of this out in my head but there's still so much I need to understand.(
(A few weeks ago I started seeing my mother again.. it scared the hell out of me when I was sitting down in my lonely little apartment drinking coffee, and suddenly there she was sitting beside me. I guess that Yueh no longer needed my gift, but after not having it for years it feels strange seeing little spirit children playing on the king penguin slide at the park. Not only that but it's funny seeing my old cat.my mother loved this cat to death; Sakura was too little to remember him but I'll go over my father's and the cat will be sitting there on his lap in the study just like it used to in life. Of course my father knows now that he has magic, thanks to that strange half reincarnation of Clow.I think his name was Eriol according to what Kero told me. (
(I remember we had a conversation the other day.my mother and I, she was acting strange. She asked me how I was doing.and then suddenly said don't worry you'll find someone else.we hadn't even brought up the subject of Yuki. She told me that it was someone I wouldn't expect and to be careful. I had barely gotten two words in as she waved and disappeared. But then again my mother was always a bit strange when it came to seeing those things.(
(Well it's been two months since the invitation came in the mail and today's the wedding but as I thought I couldn't get up the courage to go. I think I'll go over to the University later when it's quiet.(
(I was sitting down at the piano, playing a tune that I hadn't played since Yuki left. It was also the first thing I had played for him, and it was a little heart wrenching. I loved him with everything I was and suddenly it was over in an instantaneous moment.(
(I finished playing, when I heard someone crying in the other room. I stood up and walked through the double doors where I saw a young woman sitting at a desk and crying over a piece of paper. I walked over to her and put my hand on her shoulder just as she was about to get up and throw the article away, as she stopped, it was then that I recognized her as Tomoyo Diadouji. She looked down at the paper that was in her hands and wiped her eyes, and then she tried to walk away but I pulled her to me and she began to cry again. When she calmed down she apologized and I asked her for what and she said that she had ruined my shirt. I told her don't worry about it in some disappointing English and said that I spoke it badly. She laughed and said it was all right but when I asked her if she was ok she said no.(
(She lied to me and said that she was hoping to practice her English with someone but no one was there so she began writing a letter to Sakura and it got her upset. I asked her why she really wrote it and she said she needed to get it all out. I asked her why she was going to throw it away and she said, "I don't want anyone to find out.. I feel ashamed!"(
(When she turned away, I wrote down a note telling her to call me, she already knew the number.(
~Tomoyo~
(I never thought I would feel this bad, I knew it couldn't work out between us even if she did love me, but still I sit here in my room with my arms wrapped around my legs which are pulled up to my chest. I want to burn all of these pictures, destroy all those videos.anything.anything. to take away this pain. I've been with people.trying to forget all about her, dated boys and girls alike but I've always thought about her. I can't get her out of my head, she makes me wake up each night crying and feeling torn apart.(
(You know I got a letter from her the other day, she asked me to design her wedding dress for her, I had it done this morning.. after all I do have that mannequin that's her size. She's been my life ever since I was ten. the first day I met her I felt the click. But as the years waned on and she grew closer to Syaoran, our friendship fell apart.(
(It's been two months since I got that letter inviting me to the wedding of: Kinomoto, Sakura and Li, Syaoran and today's the day.you'd think that I would be there, no I can't face that. so instead I'm here sobbing over a letter I can't send you. And now your brother is holding me. I can't even think straight, no instead I'm talking nonsense on how I ruined his shirt. Now it's about the letter and he tries to get the truth out about why I want to throw it away and when I tell him why I want to I turn away and when I look back he's gone and there's a note from him on the paper.(
(I'm home now and I keep staring at his handwriting. the maids have tried to help me get out of my disheveled clothes and into pajamas and they even sent up hot cocoa just the way I like it with whip cream and chocolate chips in it. I drink the warm liquid and feel my hands shaking as I set the mug down. I feel like she's died almost and I want to destroy the feelings I have. I stand up and look in the mirror, then I pull my fist back and smash the damn thing. She's looked in it too many times with all those outfits I made her.(
(I was too fucking stupid to realize that she hated those outfits, all I did was get in her way as I taped her. I created a dangerous situation for her, she had to worry about me all of the time. maybe she could have captured all the cards sooner if I hadn't been in her way.(
(I'm looking at my bloody hand now and I hear the maids and my mother coming up the stairs in frenzy, mother is the first to come through the door. "Tomoyo honey what's wrong?" she asks me in fluid Japanese "Nothing mother.I just didn't like that mirror, so I smashed it.now if you'll excuse me I am going to go bandage my hand and go out." I respond in kind. I go into the bathroom as the maids clear away the shattered mess and run the bath water. When it's full, I go back out and grab the lowest outfit I had ever designed. It's a black leather jacket with a v cut peasant style tie halter that's red and black low-rise jeans that had intricate slashes cut through the material. The thing that made the outfit so low was the fact that the halter and jeans barely hid anything from view. I pull out a pentacle necklace from my jewelry box and grab underwear, then I went into the bathroom, peel off my clothing and get into the tub.(
(The water stings my hand but I barely even noticed it as I wash my body, I notice the way I have a lot of scars, most of them because of Sakura but a few aren't. I get out of the tub soon and dry off. Then I brush through my hair and re- apply my makeup. After that I put on my pentacle necklace and a black bra and thong. I normally never wear these things, but a guy I had been seeing once was into the whole modern gothic look, I was more of a dark ages gothic. I put on the halter and tie the silk peasant strings in the front in a crossing style then I pull on the jeans put on deodorant and then throw on the jacket. My hand has stopped bleeding by now and I wanted to get out.(
(I go down the stairs and my mother looks at me, "Where are you going this late at night?" she asks. "To see an old friend. see you if I get back." I say. And with that I walk out the door and get into my Black 1984 Jaguar Roadster and tear down the streets, going along a very familiar path.(
A/N: In this installment I put down in Tomoyo's reaction what I did in a way.though mine was a different reason. I'm sure all of you have taken off somewhere when you couldn't handle things. but what happens if you get in too deep. Also I'm sure a lot of you know what movie this car is from. Read the next chapter to find out.
Celtic Sorceress