Chapter 5
'Maybe I should wing it. Thoughts are so complex, but she's right. I do know how to sense emotion and see aura' Rin walks slowly through the castle. She walks through passages she hasn't been to for such along time. You could easily get lost here but Rin knows every corner. She continues walking carelessly until she finds herself in a small playroom. Well it used to be her playroom. Now it's filled with books and a candle set in the middle of the room.
"Well..... this is convenient?" Rin sighs and takes a seat in the corner. 'Should I be happy I'm here? My dream had to happen in the room I grew up in. Maybe that's supposed to show Sesshomaru has been watching me since I was little.' She sits in the chair trying to relax.
"Shall I go to studies or not? It's such a hard decision." She says sarcastically. 'I think I want to stay here. It feels nice.'
'He used to surround me with the finest gifts. I was born a peasant but he treated me like I was worth something. His face never moved from a stern glare until I came to him. At least that's what Blu says. I'm the only one who can make him smile. It's nice to know I'm special to him like a daughter or niece but that's not enough. I loved him the day we met. It still puzzles me. He's never saved a human before but he chose me. It's so strange.'She hears footsteps down the hall coming closer. Rin slips into a corner. She holds her hand on her sword tightly. The patter of feet stops and the door is opened. Rin tenses at the sound of the door sliding but then relaxes at who it is. She lets go of her sword and slowly kneels so she can watch his movement across the room.
"Lord Sesshomaru" she whispers confidently. His ears jump at the sound but he ignores it. He heard but it seemed like more fun for him to let her think she's being stealthy. Lord Sesshomaru steps before the candle and extends a finger to the wick. It bursts into flame while Sesshomaru sighs. He takes a book from the large shelf and sits down. He glances to the corner where Rin is then turns back quickly.
'Maybe I should try to read his mind like Blu suggested. I imagine he trusts me enough to just see a bit of his mind.'
Rin breathes lightly and tries to focus. She closes her eyes and tries to clear everything. Her eyes flutter open and focus on Sesshomaru. Her heart about bursts with the feelings she has for him. Once everything else is gone there's more room in your heart to feel. A small voice starts speaking to her. The room seems to have disappeared and all she can't see anything. Everything's hazy.
"Why do you think it's dark here? It's confused like your emotions. You've known how others feel for so long but you don't know yourself. That's why it's clouded."
Rin tries to breathe but she stops short. It feels like there's something down her throat. It's getting heavier and heavier on her heart.
"I want you to be bright again. I loved that about you." The voice stops. Rin is breathing heavily and looking downward. She holds her throat as she coughs. She looks up after her breathing slows. Rin stands up and hobbles through the empty room. She walks feebly but keeps going. She finally reaches the back entrance and pushes the door open. It's gotten dark so quickly. The last think Rin remembers is the voice speaking to her. It must've been hours that have passed.
Rin finally stumbles under the cherry blossom tree. She rests her head on the rough bark and closes her eyes. 'This can't be a simple as it seems. I...I was suffocated by something back there but now I can breathe. What did I do wrong?' Rin opens her eyes to see a firefly in front of her. She puts her hand out to it. 'I wonder'
It lands on her hand and flashes in light. Rin smiles and laughs a little. She closes her eyes and focuses. Just underneath her eyelids she can see a faint light getting bigger. Her eyes fly open as she puts the firefly in front of her face. Her hand is glowing golden. The firefly flies off as Rin laughs joyfully. 'I'm okay. I want to stop worrying everyone around me. I'm myself again!'