Hello again! It's been over a week since the last update because of my 20 reviews thingy. I've finished writing the whole story so to be honest, I won't do anything but keep my original version. Heh heh I'm a lazy editor. I've always liked this pair because they have nothing to do with the Shikon No Tama. The death of Naraku won't affect them much. It's like they're above the whole story. Oh right um it's a bit of a spoiler. I used some instances that really happen in the Inuyasha episodes and other I made up.
Chapter 7
I've come to thing of Sesshomaru as my protector. Someone so strong and vigilant. He's so much of what I want to be for him. I wish I was as elegant and strong as the woman he disserves. Maybe all of that just comes from age. He must be hundreds of years older than I am.
I'm human after all. I want to be older from him. He can't be happy feeling as if I could never understand. It's a horrible thing to imagine. I want him to be happy. That's all I've ever wanted for him. The day I saw him injured in the forest, nearly dead. He never smiled. Sesshomaru threatened and threatened to kill me if I came any closer but I did any way.
I didn't know what I was doing back then. I think my sub conscious knows more than my conscious mind does. Maybe when I looked in his eyes I saw the same loneness I had back then. I was orphaned and beaten than eaten alive by wolves. Then Sesshomaru saved me without really knowing why either. A small defenseless girl is strange company for a mighty demon like him to keep.
I grew up by his side wondering the whole time why he kept me. Not only that but treated me wonderfully. He'd train me himself and he even made sure I was well educated. When we'd travel he'd always protect me and sacrifice his own safety. I remember when I was nearly killed by the bandits raised from the dead. Sesshomaru ran to me as quickly as he could and saved me.
All the while his face grew softer. When I was in danger he would worry and I was always his first priority. When I would smile at him he would smile back. I was shocked the first day he smiled at me. I had twisted my ankle on a rock and I was trying not to cry so hard. He said my face was red and I was looking away the whole time while he fixed it. Sesshomaru asked me to turn around to see if I had hurt anything else. He brushed the hair out of my eyes and smiled sheepishly.
After that day he helped his younger brother when he had turned into a full demon. Jaken had always tried to tell lies about Sesshomaru's brother but that was the first time I had seen him. He wasn't evil at all. I remember a kind black haired girl running up to him and crying out his name. He had love in his life. I don't think you can ever be evil with that.
I've known I loved him all the while. I wasn't scared of him at one instant of my life. I've seen him transform into the huge dog demon that he is but I'm not afraid of that. He is my Lord. I think I accepted knowing full well it was he. He would warn me because he wanted me to be sure. Only he would worry about a worthless human like myself. He's never loved me out of pity.