"Love. It is a lying word.
That you love me another lie.
That my love is seen in dreams, is yet a greater lie.
How may I, who can never sleep, hope to see you in my dreams?"
--Korean Adage?--found in "The Blue Dragon" by Diana Brown
I stare at the ceiling, wordless thoughts twisting and churning inside of my head. Shadows flicker across the milky surface, not even daring to go towards the soft light illuminating near my bed.
I'm scared of the darkness.
It's my nightly ritual. Come in to the room, turn on the bed light, turn off the ceiling light, lay in bed, and think.
I can hardly sleep. The remnants of him still plague my dreams, even after all the time that his stronger half was banished. Before he became a part of me, I used to love dreaming, to escape my destiny and wonder what the world was truly like. Not the dingy place I lived in. That wasn't part of the real world.
But now the only place I can see you is in my dreams. Here I am, back to my "home", with no contact with you or your other self. I miss you both.
Who would know? I hardly knew either of you. To me, you were both pawns in my greater scheme. But yet, there was something always stirred inside of me that you guys weren't that. That you shouldn't just be pawns. That I should actually open up and let you two see me.
But love always lies. It blinds us to the point where we can't see the simplest reality in front of us. It leads you to believe that they actually love you back. Whoever came up with "love is blind" truly knew what he was talking about.
But even so, your love only exists in my dreams. It could never work out in real life. You, who are one of the most purest, most innocent souls. And also the other you, the one where the devil's soul reside in. I want to love you both.
Is it selfish to say I want you both? One who is the complete yin, the other the complete yang. Where does that leave me? Does that leave me the little bit of light in the darkness, and the bit of darkness in the light?
Love lies. Dreams lie. Though dreams are the one place I can find solace, he plagues too often. So I lie here and stay awake. I don't let myself dream about you two. I don't let myself pine for you both.
As the poem says, "How can I, who never sleeps, hope to see you in my dreams?"
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Written for the anichallenge community at Livejournal. Not too bad. Malik x Yami Bakura x Ryou obviously...