One Thing I Know
Cake "I Want To Love You Madly"
I don't want to hold back
I don't want to slip down
I don't want to think back to
The one thing that I know I
Should have done

I don't want to doubt you
Know everything about you
I don't want to sit
Across the table from you
Wishing I could run

Chapter One...
"Whispers"
Coldplay
Night turns to day
And I still have these questions
Bridges will break
Should I go forwards or backwards
Night turns to day
And I still get no answers

It only made sense. You can only be around someone for so long with out beginning to have feelings for them. I never would have expected it to happen to us. Things changed, we got older. We turned into what we had always hated. I turned into my worst enemy. I cringed when I thought of what I was getting myself into, but once I was there, you couldn't wipe the smile off of my face. I never wanted it to happen to me. What happens when the one thing you never wanted was the one thing you can't live with out?

"Two more hours. I really don't think I can take that much longer." I said, staring out the window, longing to be outside doing anything other than what I was currently doing. I ran my fingers through my straight strawberry blonde hair and placed a pencil behind my ear.

"You sound so desperate. It's almost like you hate school." Peyton Sawyer sarcastically said with one eyebrow raised. She let out a light laugh and slowly turned to Nathan Scott. "Is it official?" The curly haired blonde asked the dark haired basketball player.

Nathan shook his head and shrugged his shoulder. "Official?" He questioned her. Peyton rolled her eyes. "Haley, You. What's up?"

I felt my stomach begin to tie in knots. This happened every time. I played it cool. "Yeah, Nate, what's up with that? When did she come into the picture? She doesn't seem like..."

Before I could continue, I was interrupted. "Not like it is any of you business. What I do in my spare time, definitely doesn't concern you rumor spreaders." He picked his books up off the floor and threw a ball of trash into the garbage can.

"Three." Haley said as she walked into the classroom and casually took a seat next to Nathan. My stomach tensed up again. "Hey guys." I tried to give her a fake smile. "I just finished my last final and was hoping that you all wouldn't be doing anything." Haley James and Nathan's relationship was fairly new. I am sure that is why it gets to me the way it does. Nathan and I have known each other since kindergarten and it killed me to know that he was with her now.

"You hoped right, Hal." Nathan winked at her and I thought I was going to puke. I could hardly stand to be around her and don't get me wrong, Haley really was a sweet girl, but when she was with Nathan I got insanely jealous.

Preparing to think of an excuse, my thoughts were interrupted with the perfect person, Lucas Scott. Half brother of Nate and an amazing listener, Lucas had been there for me a lot lately. "Madison, can you come out here for a minute?" I nodded and walked outside the door.

"What's going on?" Lucas didn't say anything, "Lucas...Really, what's going on?" He slowly lowered his head. I waited impatiently for what was about to be said.

He finally spoke, "I talked to Nathan." He scratched his head that was still lowered. He continued looking at the gray tiled floor. "I don't..." He paused, "I don't want to hurt you Madison and I am scared that what I am about to say... will do that to you. You mean more to me than that."

I put my face into my hands, sighed, and then looked up, "Lucas, please, just tell me. I can take it. You know me." If I had it over to do, I wouldn't have told Lucas to tell me. What was about to be said would change everything I thought and imagined.

"Nathan and Haley..."

"Please, Lucas, you are hurting me more by not telling me."

"...they got married."