Chapter 10...
Please Note: Chapter 10 begins Lucas as the narrator.
"I Love You"
Sarah McLachlan
Just you and me
On this island of hope
A breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you
My sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek
I watched doctor after doctor pass me. Finally after hours, Dr. Malone came out "She is asking for you, Lucas." I stood up and followed him into Madison's hospital room. She looked so peaceful. Her strawberry blonde hair lay right past her shoulders. I walked over to her and placed my hand atop hers. She opened her eyes. "Hey." She said.
I smiled back at her. "Hey." I pulled a chair next to her bed. "Is it okay if I stay in here for a minute doctor?" He nodded. "Just don't talk too much Madison." She agreed. I ran my hand over her hair, down her face, and rested my hand on her shoulder. "How do you feel?"
She smiled. "I've felt better, but I've felt worse. How do you feel?" Her green eyes twinkled like emeralds. She took my hand in hers. Our fingers intertwined.
"About?" I asked her.
"Everything." She looked up at the ceiling fan and watched it move. She sighed.
I let out a deep breathe and my eyes started to fill with tears. "God. I am such a girl." I said, wiping the tears away from my eyes. Madison sat up and kissed me. Her lips were soft. I felt so awful for hurting her. She was perfect. It was like she didn't even care that I hurt her. It was like she didn't even know. I knew she did. "I feel like... I am sorry for doing this to you. I feel like you are amazing. I feel like..." I paused. She looked up at me. "I feel like I love you."
I felt her body tense up. Her eyes opened the widest I had ever seen them. I anxiously awaited a reply from her. Seconds turned to minutes that seemed to last ages. "Lucas I..."
I was kicking my self for telling her. I was making her want to run away. "No, I'm sorry Madison. I shouldn't have said anything." My heart began to race. Adrenaline was running through my body. I stood up to leave. "I'm glad you are doing better and I... I'll see you later." I opened the door.
Madison yelled out, "No, Lucas, please don't leave." I turned around to her longing face. "I'm sorry. You mean more to me than anything and I care about you so much. I don't ever want you to get hurt." She paused. "I don't want you to be with a girl I can't trust."
"But, Madison I want you."
"But Lucas... I don't trust myself."
"Why?" I asked her. I sat next to her on the bed. "You really aren't making sense."
"I'm a bad person Lucas. You don't know the real me. You know the me that you make me." She began to cry. "That's not me. I am a snob. I drink. I have sex. I smoke. I have more money than I know what to do with and I spent it on stupid things." She wiped her eyes. "I deserve to be with Nathan. He's an asshole. I don't deserve to be with you. You deserve Haley. She is perfect for..."
I couldn't let her keep talking. I leaned in toward her and kissed her. "Shhh. She is perfect for Nathan." I kissed her again. "You're perfect for me." My hand glided over her hair, "And I love whatever you that you are." I winked at her.
A smile crept across her face. Her eyes lit up. Then she said what I had been waiting to hear, "I love the you that you are too." I kissed her again. "Mmm." She said, "One more." My lips hit hers once more.
"I think I should maybe go." I kissed her forehead. "You need all the rest you can get." She nodded. I tucked her into bed. "I'll come see you tomorrow." She said okay. "Love you."
"I love you."