Dear Trent,

Trent, I know that you may not what to be hearing from me right now and I fully understand this. If you are ready this letter tries to explain what I was feeling and if you aren't read this went you think that you are ready to.

First off, I wanted to tell you that I do love you but not in the way I thought that I did. I never meant to hurt you and did want to marry you a hundred percent until the night before our wedding. So you know, I never once lied to you and didn't know that I was going to do that until the second that Connor walking into the room.

You may ask what happened the night before that help me decide that marring you wasn't the best thing in the world. The night before, I was playing my guitar at Hayley's, when Connor walked in the café. I thought that he was there to apologize, and ask if he could come to the wedding last minute, as he does everything. When I asked him if he was coming, he told me that he couldn't come. I asked him why, and he told me that he loved me. At the moment I didn't think that it would change my feeling for you at all.

I told him that I loved you and was getting married to you the next day and with that he was gone, telling me that he did what he had to do. After that I just started to cry my eyes out. I told myself it was because I could be losing one of my best and closest friend, but in fact it was my feeling for him. All the night I was think what would happen if we never when out after your father died? What would happen if I feel for someone else? What would happen if I feel of Connor instead? The thing I didn't see was that I had fallen for him, but no I told myself that I just had butterfly in my stomach.

To tell you the true, as Dr. Oliver walked me down to you, I as I could think about was you. I thought about the wedding, what would happen after the wedding and in our honeymoon and our future kids and their kids. But not once during that did I think about out feelings or if I could be happy with you for the rest of my life. That's what I started to think about when I got up there. I start to think about the time that Kim almost wouldn't marry Dr. O because she was scared of get divorce like her parents.

I was fine as the priest asked you if you could be their in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, and love me for the rest of my life. But when he asked me, I broke down inside. I could and still will be if you allow to be, there in your good and bad times, when you sick or not but that's when I figured out that I couldn't love you for the rest of my life at least in that way, Connor or no Connor. But I said I do anyway.

After that Connor walked into the room. I felt happier for some reason, more complete. No offence, but I forgot about you for a second, and he and I were the only one in the room. It's hard to explain the feeling because well I myself don't fully get it my self. I felt like I was meant to be with him, like we belonged together. Then the priest asked if anyone had a reason to stop the wedding, I waited and almost hoped that Connor would say something. I thought to myself, that if I was wished someone stop my, our, wedding then I should get married at all.

That's why I did it, not because he was there, even if he did help with the choice. I didn't want to want to but I knew that that I had to for both of our goods. Then you did the most amazing thing the world, you understood. I don't to know if you were pulling at act but that was one of the best thing that you have ever done for me. That was one of the reasons that I liked you.

After that you told me to go him, which I did. I could never do that. That is another reason that makes you so great. After Connor and I when outside, I toke him and kissed him. I know that you may not want to hear that but I think you do. I didn't kiss him, because I forgot about you. I did it to see if it was different them with you. Luckily, or unluckily, however you may choose to see it, it was different, a good different.

Just so you know, it toke me about a month to store out my feeling for you, which ending up being friendly ones. It toke another month before we started dating. It's been 3 months since the whole thing happened. I hope that we could become friends again or least talk. I am so sorry for any pain that I may have caused you and for doing what I did to you. I hope that one day in your heart you could forgive me.

Hopefully still you friend
Kira