SUNDAY (GIL's OFFICE)
I don't own anything not even the song "Nobody Knows" by Tony Rich
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more everyday
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown, I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Gil sat in his office after giving out assignments. He knew she was not coming but still he watched his door in hopes that her head would pop in and they would talk out what happened and where everything went wrong. He was a little angry that she had not called though, never had he expected her to come but a call would have made him feel some type of satisfaction but she never did. So he called her instead, he was not surprised when the phone picked up and then cut out.
Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is tumbling down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around
After trying to call back he was not surprised when the got a busy signal. " Off the hook" he whispered to himself " how convenient."
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about
The love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
Gil was so deep in thought that he did not hear Warrick come in the office or call his name.
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling at night and
Nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night as if
I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me
"Hey Gil.. Hello?" Warrick waved his hand in front of his face. "So did Cath call in sick or is she late?"
"What..Oh Warrick I did not see you there." he paused "did you say Catherine was here?"
How blue can you get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle
It's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say
Just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be loving you still
Warrick shook his head "no your fiancé is not here and I thought maybe you knew where she was"
Gil stared into space. "Gil what's wrong with you ?" Warrick made a face at him "are you okay"
Tomorrow morning I'm hitting
The dusty road
Gonna find you wherever
Ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
You come back to me
Gil put his hands on his head " Don't let anyone know yet but I really screwed up with Catherine and I don't think we are getting married anymore or if we are even a couple anymore." Warrick stared in shock "What happened two weeks ago you two could not wait for the wedding." Warrick paused " Cold feet eh"
Gil smirked " Yeah more like frozen solid. I guess nervous and then I had doubts and then it turned into denial or something. I thought to myself that I have only once felt this safe in a relationship and that time the women I was with broke my heart. I guess I just freaked out and I thought that maybe it would be easier if I pretended not to care and then if she ended up hurting me it would not be a big shock. But then I ended up hurting her and I feel horrible because I love her terribly and I want to be with her I want her to be my wife and I want her to be the one who is happy and makes me happy."
Gil stood up from his desk and walked over to his butterflies " No one really knows hard much I care for her, not even her because I tried to hide it the past few days and it is now the biggest mistake and regret ever I should have told her instead of pretending like I did."
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about
The love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
Warrick smiled at his honesty " Well then you better get over to her place and let her know. Tell her everything you told me Gil. Cath loves you more then anything and she wants to be with you, she needs to know you want to be with her."
Gil smiled "Thanks Warrick" he grabbed his keys and drove to Catherine's.
Gil pulled up out front and raced to her front door leaving his Denali running.
"Catherine" he rang the door bell and called out her name " Catherine please I need to talk to you I am sorry I hurt you and I want to marry I love you so much please open the door and let's talk."
Inside the house Catherine jumped out of bed and walked toward the front door.
"Catherine please ..I Just need to talk to you come on let me in."
Catherine sat on the couch and let the tears take over. She waited a minute when everything got quiet she thought he had left but he was persistent and he knocked and rang the doorbell again.
"Catherine I was afraid and I need you to know, I want to tell you, I need to open up please let me in."
Gil stopped shouting when he heard crying on the other side of the door. After the crying seemed to be getting closer to the door he heard the doorknob turning. Gil was certain she was going to let him in, but instead she changed her mind and flicked off the front porch light leaving him in the dark.
Inside Lindsey who had heard the commotion climbed back in her bed as did her mother and cried herself to sleep.