Category: FAKE
Pairing: Dee x Ryo
Rating: R for language...and things in later chapters.. ;)
Disclaimer - Yea...I think its clear I don't own....so I think its also clear that you don't sure. THANKIES!
Warning -- This is shounen-ai...though if ur in the FAKE category in the first place...I don't think you really need a warning. :) Flames will be used to keep Dee and Ryo warm and toasty...not that they need it when left on their own. ;)

A/N: Im pretty pleased with how this story is going so far, and I hope you are too. Thanks for all the reviews on the last chapter...you guys are so great. I'm also very flattered that some people added me to their alert/fav author list. ::blushes:: You guys are too good to me. I just hope that I can return the favor by providing you with an interesting read for the evening. ::smiles:: Enjoy!!! =o) --Meg hun....once again, you are a life saver. Without you, this story would be without emotion and life. hugs and kisses xoxox-- Also, a special thanks to my friend Katie who dragged me kicking and screaming the rest of the way through this chapter. Much love hun!

--- You Are Everything I Never Knew I Always Wanted ---

Chapter Three --

Ryo slowly climbed the apartment stairs that led to his loft. It had been a very long day, not to mention confusing as hell. Ryo and Dee had spent most of the day working on case files across from each other in silence. There was the occasional comment or question exchanged between the two men...but nothing extending too much beyond that. Neither of them really knew what to say to the other it seemed. As the day went on things had loosened up between the two of them, but something still made Ryo feel uneasy. The detective had racked his brain from top to bottom throughout the course of the day, and he still couldn't put his finger on why the way Dee was acting towards him was bothering him so much. Dee hadn't been angry or upset at all as he had originally expected, and if he was...he kept it well hidden. That was definitely a plus from Ryo's view point. Ryo unlocked his loft door and stepped inside closing it quietly behind him.

"Bikky!" Ryo called the boy's name and glanced around for where he might have gotten to. "Bikky I'm back from work are you here?" Ryo smiled as he saw the boy step out from his room.

"Yea I'm here." The blonde boy folded his tan arms across his chest and leaned against the doorframe with his usual attitude about him. "You're home from work early." He noted as he stared at Ryo curiously. Ryo tossed his keys on the table and removed his coat slowly

"I got done with what I needed to do a little early today." Ryo informed the blonde troublemaker and raised an eyebrow as he saw that the boy did not look thoroughly satisfied with the answer he had just supplied for him. He was about to open his mouth to ask Bikky what the matter was but was silenced before he could get out a single word.

"You think I'm stupid don't you Ryo?" Bikky asked as he adjusted his cap slightly and continued on with an explanation. "You never come home from work this early. Even if you did get done all the things you needed to do....you would never skip out like that unless you had a reason." Bikky smirked. He knew by Ryo's silence that he was right. "So what's the real reason? Got a hot date?"

"Bikky!" Ryo said in surprise as a slight blush crept into his cheeks. "You...n...that's not entirely true..." His voice trailed off as he ran his fingers through his hair nervously.

"Calm down Ryo...I was just askin' is all. But judging by that reaction I'd say I'm not as far off base as I thought." Bikky took his hat off and began to spin it around on his finger. "So who's it with?" He asked nonchalantly. "Dee?" Ryo paused for a moment musing over how Bikky could read him like a book before answering.

"Yea it's with Dee. But it's not a date okay?" Ryo said with a warning tone to his voice. "We just have a few things that we need to discuss." He informed him.

"In other words you guys had a fight." Bikky said as he placed his hat back on, folded his arms, and stared at Ryo with a knowing look.

"No." Ryo corrected him. "We had a disagreement." As far as Ryo was concerned that was completely different from a fight.

"How is it that you two have so many fights?" Bikky asked in confusion and amazement. "You aren't even really dating each other." He added as a side note.

"Disagreements." Ryo repeated. "And it's not that we aren't 'really' dating each other, it's that we are not dating each other....at all." He corrected him. He wanted no misinterpretations in Bikky's mind as to the extent of his and Dee's relationship.

"Yea whatever Ryo..." Bikky said highly unconvinced. "Anyway...do you care if Carol stays the night here tonight?" Ryo removed his jacket with a sigh. He didn't care that Bikky and Carol hung out as much as they did. In fact he was glad that the two kids had each other. God knows Bikky stayed over Carol's house more often than what was normal. Especially since the two were of the opposite sex. Though, even if it was another boys house Bikky stayed over all the time, since Ryo had met Dee he would probably see that to be a little strange as well. Ryo was almost sure there was something a bit more than friendship going on between the two kids but he gave in anyway.

"Alright Bikky. I don't care if Carol stays, but behave yourself you hear me?" Ryo forewarned him. Bikky's cheeks took on a pale blush to them as he turned and walked into his room while throwing his assurances and thanks over his shoulder at Ryo. The detective smiled a knowing smile and glanced at his watch. Time was disappearing quickly for him. Dee was scheduled to pick him up shortly. Ryo retreated to the confines of his room and opened his closet to search for a change of clothes. He eyes scanned the hangers and after much debate (though he didn't understand why it mattered) he finally decided on a pair of khaki colored pants, a crimson button up shirt and a tie that was a shade or two darker. Ryo wandered over to the mirror and adjusted a few strands of hair that were hanging so stubbornly in his view. After a few minutes of that losing battle Ryo heard Dee's signature knock on the apartment door followed by Bikky's footsteps as he ran to the door at light speed to harass the person behind it. With an evil grin Bikky flung open the door and crossed his arms in front of him when he saw Dee standing there.

"Well if it isn't the King of Sleaze himself." Bikky said quite proud of his attack at the man. Dee rolled his eyes at the young boy.

"Can it Brat!" He told Bikky as he let himself into the apartment and glanced around. "Where is Ryo?" He interrogated the blonde boy in his police like fashion.

"I dunno..." Bikky smirked as he took on the challenge to make Dee's temper flare through the roof. It was one of his favorite hobbies. "It wasn't my turn to watch him." He said with a devilish grin as he finished the remark.

"You little bastard!" Dee yelled and went to punch the boys lights out but was thankfully (for Bikky's sake) interrupted.

"Dee..." Ryo said with a warning tone to his usual pleasant voice as he approached them from out of his room. Dee stopped trying to strangle Bikky mid-grab and his eyes widened slightly at the man who had just scolded him. Ryo looked great. Dee mentally slapped himself. No, he couldn't think like that...he was past that now. Unfortunately old habits die hard and he found himself glancing twice over the other man. Bikky took that opportunity to slip away and get to the phone to call Carol.

"Hey...Ryo. You look..." He quickly caught himself and straightened up. "Anyway....are you ready to go?" He asked his partner as he brushed a few dark strands of hair from in front of his emerald eyes. He couldn't think that way. They were just going to dinner as friends. Ryo told him that he wanted to talk, and that is what they would do. Them going out together was nothing more than a chance for them to discuss a few things that needed closure. Dee had to remind himself that his previous goals no longer were in effect. He was ready to move on. Ryo raised an eyebrow slightly at Dee's strange behavior and choppy wording of his sentences. He felt himself being slightly disappointed. Dee was still acting strange. Ryo had hoped that maybe throughout the course of the day Dee had managed to allow himself to return to at least somewhat of a normal state. Dee watched Ryo for a moment before waving his hand in front of the other man's eyes. "Yo...Ryo" Dee said as he tried to get the other man to stop being a space cadet.

"Huh? Oh...yea I'm ready to go. Just let me grab my coat." Ryo walked into the kitchen and removed his coat from the back of one of the kitchen chairs. Smoothly he flung it over his shoulders and slid his arms inside. "Okay ready now." Ryo assured him before he turned around to face Bikky. "Remember what I said Bikky. Behave yourself." He gave the blonde a warning look. Bikky waved a hand dismissively at Ryo and continued to his conversation with Carol, a small blush burned at his cheeks again..

"Yea shrimp, nothin below the belt you hear?" Dee said with a smirk on his face only to get a harsh slap on the arm from Ryo.

"Shut up you sleazy fag!" Bikky called out to Dee which resulted in Carol screaming at him loudly through the phone.

"You little punk!" Dee shouted and went after the boy a second time but found himself being quickly ushered out of the apartment by Ryo.

Once they had gotten out of the apartment and onto the city streets Dee's temper had cooled down considerably. Now he only mumbled curses beneath his breath, though after a few minutes it slowly diminished. The walk to the restaurant was silent and awkward. The only sounds that broke the silence that loomed over the two men were the honks from the street and the conversations of those who passed them. Ryo didn't like that fact at all. It was almost as if Dee was just flat out pretending he wasn't there, but that couldn't be it. Dee had been pleasant with him earlier so Ryo didn't think that he was angry with him. It was confusing and Ryo couldn't put a finger on the problem. That alone drove Ryo to the point of insanity. He supposed he could just ask Dee what was going on, but truth be told...he was afraid of the answer he might receive or how it might affect him. Ryo's musings were cut short as Dee's voice cut into the silence that threatened to smother the dark eyed detective.

"Hey...we're here." Dee said and he caught hold of the sleeve of Ryo's jacket as his partner almost breezed right by their destination lost in thought. Ryo blushed as he was pulled back by Dee. "Where were you going?" Dee asked the other man with an amused grin on his lips. Ryo laughed nervously.

"Sorry. I was just thinking and..." His voice trailed off and his explanation died out in the sounds of the city. Dee shook his head.

"You've been zoning out a lot today man. If I hadn't of grabbed you, you probably would have been halfway to Florida by now." Silence followed as Ryo stood there wanting to ask his partner the question that was ripping and tearing at his mind. "Anyway..." Dee said as he opened the door to the restaurant and made a motion for Ryo to go inside. "After you." Ryo did as he was told and walked inside. He realized then that he didn't even know what restaurant they were at. He turned to Dee.

"What is this place called? I don't think I've ever been here before."

"The West Bank Café." Dee informed the other man as he pointed to a sign that clearly stated the name of the restaurant. "It's actually a restaurant where a lot of people that are into theater come to eat after shows...but I've been here a few times before and it doesn't really get too noisy. I figured that it would be a good place to talk." Dee explained. Ryo nodded. Ryo himself did happen to enjoy theater so he didn't feel out of place there. He glanced around. It was a nice restaurant. Not anything too fancy... but not shabby either. Ryo wasn't given too much time to muse over their surroundings before they were ready to be seated. The hostess led them to a small table near the back. Dee and Ryo both thanked her and took a seat.

"You're waitress tonight is going to be Caroline. She will be with you shortly" The girl informed them before taking her leave. As soon as their hostess had disappeared the infamous silence showed its ugly face again. It hung in the air around the two men like a plague. Dee didn't speak because he didn't know what to say to the man sitting across from him, and Ryo didn't speak for dread of what might escape his lips. The silence made it seem like hours before the waitress finally came to take their orders. When all was ordered and the two men were left alone for a second time, Ryo decided that he was not going to give the silence a chance to take hold of them.

"Dee..." Ryo started but stopped when his partner locked his emerald eyes with his own. Maybe he could just act like he hadn't said anything at all.

"Yes?" Dee looked up from the table that had held his interest until that point. Ryo looked down once and then back up to meet his partner's strong gaze. It was too late now...Dee had heard him. He had to continue what he had started. He needed to know what exactly was going on.

"You've barely said two words to me so far." Ryo pointed out quietly, afraid of the reaction Dee might have to his accusation. Dee sighed and began to play idly with his napkin.

"You were the one who said that we needed to talk. So I was just waiting for you to say something I guess." The young detective informed his partner. "So what was it that you wanted to say Ryo?" Dee was curious to hear what the other man had to say, although he was determined not to let anything Ryo told him change his stance on the situation. For once in his life he was going to hold true to his word if it killed him. Ryo cleared his throat nervously before he finally granted himself permission to speak.

"I just wanted to say, that I'm sorry about last night." Ryo rushed the words from his mouth afraid that if he didn't, he would freeze before he got them all out. Dee took in his partner's apology as he hooked his finger onto the top of the ashtray and pulled it towards him. He lit up a cigarette thoughtfully and placed his lighter on the table. Dee took in a deep drag from his cigarette before placing it carefully on the side of the ashtray. The detective leaned slightly forwards in the direction of his partner and began to speak.

"It's okay Ryo. What happened last night is in the past...it doesn't matter." He assured his friend before he grabbed his cigarette from the ashtray, took another drag, and settled back into the confines of his chair. "No biggie alright?"

"No, it does matter." Ryo insisted. "I know that the way I behaved last night was wrong..and I.."

"It doesn't matter." Dee repeated with a little more conviction this time. "If it was hurting my feelings you were worried about...don't. I've gotten everything sorted out now." The emerald eyed detective assured his partner and put his cigarette out almost symbolizing a close to the conversation itself. Dee had everything sorted out now? Why didn't Ryo enjoy the sound of that? He was about to ask Dee just exactly what he meant by that, but instead it was at that moment Caroline the waitress decided to show up with their food. Ryo's words were lost within the delicious aroma that now filled the air around them. He decided to let the comment slide for the time being. The rest of the dinner went rather smoothly. The two men struck up a conversation about things around the office they would like to change. One of them being JJ...the other being Berkeley Rose. When they received their check, Ryo reached for his wallet but Dee held a hand up to stop him.

"I told you I would take care of it remember?" Dee reminded the other detective and reached for his own wallet. Ryo gave him an uneasy gaze and Dee rolled his eyes. "Look if it bothers you so much...you can leave the tip okay?" Dee offered. Ryo was decidedly happier with that arrangement. When everything was paid for, the two detectives retreated back out onto the streets of New York City. Both men were considerably more comfortable around each other since their rather brief but promising conversation over dinner about the other night. They both figured that they had probably just needed to address that it had happened. It was easier to forgive and forget that way.

Though he did feel considerably better now that he had a chance to apologize to Dee, Ryo still couldn't shake the feeling that something was different. Something was just not right. It nagged at the back of his mind unrelentingly. Something about the way Dee was acting was out of place...out of character for him. He struggled with the thought all the way back to his apartment. When they reached Ryo's place Dee walked him up to the stoop in front of the door that led into the complex itself. There was a small moment where silence reigned victorious over the two for what felt like the umpteenth time that night. Dee glanced at Ryo's apartment and ran his fingers through his dark hair that was now highlighted by the moon's glow. Ryo's eyes widened slightly at how amazingly handsome his partner looked just then. A blush crept into his pale cheeks as he realized exactly what he had just been thinking. His heart pounded slightly with the combination of the silence and the way Dee looked with the moon hitting him that way. Ryo could feel the heat rising to his cheeks. It was a scary feeling for him, because at that exact moment no matter how hard he tried, there was absolutely no way he could deny the fact that he was attracted to his partner.

"Well, have a good night and I'll see you at work tomorrow okay Ryo?" Dee said and shot one last smile his partner's way before turning to make his way down the steps. Dee had one foot on the stairs before Ryo's voice reached him through the cool night air.

"Dee.." Ryo called his partner's name hesitantly and felt his cheeks grow hot instantly at the sound of his own voice. Dee turned slowly around to face him. Ryo drew in a breath as he gazed into the other man's eyes that seemed to pierce through the night straight into the depths of his soul. Ryo fell silent. He had figured it out. The thought that had been bothering him to the point of insanity was all too clear to him and now he knew for sure that he didn't like it one bit. Dee was confused by Ryo's silence and retreated from the stairs back to Ryo. He stood in front of his partner and looked down at him.

"What's wrong?" Dee asked, voice soft with concern for Ryo. Ryo stared up into the taller man's eyes. He knew now...and the need for answers burned on the tip of his tongue. Not only did he now know what was bothering him...he now knew why as well. Ryo stared into his partner's vibrant emerald pools and felt fear overtake him. Ryo took in a shaky breath as he let his question slip smoothly from his lips.

"Why haven't you tried to kiss me tonight?" As much as he had tried to keep it at bay...the pain was evident in Ryo's voice. Ryo's chest tightened as he searched the eyes of his partner. Dee's lips parted slightly at Ryo's absolute sense of forwardness and he sighed as he looked down into his partner's dark eyes. When he finally found his voice, he gave the answer to the question Ryo had tactlessly thrown his way.

" Because I'm done chasing after you." Dee told him honestly. "I mean, it's been awhile now Ryo. Don't you think?" He asked still looking deep into the dark eyes of the Japanese-American. "It's alright though... because like I said at dinner, I have everything sorted out now. Last night helped me realize a few things that I was too stupid and blind to see before then." Dee paused for a moment as he gazed upon a look in the other man's eyes that was unreadable. He reached out and gave Ryo's arm a reassuring squeeze and flashed him a quick smile to show that he was in fact okay. "You don't have to worry about me pushing you anymore Ryo." He assured him and reached up to brush a stray strand of dark blonde hair from in front of his partner's eyes.

"Dee..." Ryo said softly. His voice was shaking and there was nothing he could do to control it.

"Don't worry about me Ryo...okay? I'm ready to move on." He squeezed his partner's arm one last time before taking a step back from him. "I'll see ya at work tomorrow buddy." He said as he turned and walked down the steps onto the sidewalk. He stopped for a moment to light up a cigarette before he flashed Ryo a quick wave and left his partner to his own thoughts.

Ryo stood there, lips parted as he watched Dee leave. His thoughts were spinning so much that it made him dizzy and he felt sick to his stomach. Ryo swallowed hard as he leaned his back against the cool brick of his apartment complex. The thoughts that flooded Ryo's mind nearly drowned him as they washed over him in waves. Dee was going to move on from him. This was what Ryo had told him to do all along. It was a good thing wasn't it? Ryo finally didn't have to worry about being felt up at work or shoved into corners by his partner anymore. Dee was giving up on him. Every emotion that Ryo knew existed (and a few that he didn't) clawed at his mind unrelentingly. This is what he had wanted since Dee had started pursuing him. So why did he feel so god damned disappointed? It didn't make any sense. Ryo sucked in a breath as an image of Dee standing in front of him with the moonlight entangled in his dark hair invaded his thoughts. It did make sense. It all made perfect sense. Ryo knew now that he couldn't deny the way he felt any longer. He had felt this way since day one, but could never bring himself to admit the truth. Though he couldn't really be blamed. In situations such as these, it is always hardest to admit things to yourself, and as it seemed...he had admitted it a day too late.

"How interesting." A voice came flooding through the night and rang in Ryo's ears. Ryo jumped slightly. He must of been completely lost in his thoughts, because he hadn't noticed the blonde man that now stood at the bottom of the apartment steps with an ever growing smirk playing on his lips. Berkeley Rose had made his entrance, complete with signature bastard smirk and all. Slowly the Commissioner made his way up the steps to stand in front of Ryo. Ryo was struck speechless by the unexpected arrival of his boss at his home. Rose smirked down at the man standing in front of him and adjusted his glasses. "It seems I happened to be passing by at a bad time." He said almost casually and took Ryo's moment of weakness to corner him. Smoothly he placed a hand against the wall and squared his body so that Ryo was trapped against the apartment wall. Rose certainly didn't waste any time Ryo thought to himself. "I heard the whole thing you know." Rose confessed into the dark eyes of the detective in front of him.

"You listened in on our conversation then?" Ryo asked less than surprised. He didn't put it past the Commissioner to do such a thing. Rose smirked.

"I was out for a walk, and it just so happens that it led me here." Ryo didn't look convinced, but truth be told...Rose didn't really care one way or the other if Ryo believed what he was saying or not. "I heard you two talking, and normally I would have kept on walking...but it was just too good of a conversation to pass up." He explained as he raised an eyebrow slyly and moved his body closer to the other man's. Ryo shivered softly under the blonde's piercing gaze and he felt his cheeks turn a slight shade of pink just as they did the first time he had seen Rose. Even in the darkness that night provided as a cover, Rose could still detect the blush that invaded Ryo's pale features. Smoothly he brought a hand to the other man's cheek and caressed the skin there softly with his thumb. "It's quite a shame..." Rose said seemingly more to himself than to the man he was holding captive against the wall. Ryo sucked in a breath as Rose's cool fingers made contact with his blush warmed skin. Casually Ryo turned his face so that Rose's fingers fell out of contact with him.

"What's a shame?" Ryo asked the other man as he locked his gaze on the brick wall beside him. He had to look away. The other man's stare was just too intense for him to handle. Rose lifted his hand to Ryo's cheek again and turned his face back towards his own. He left his hand there as if to keep Ryo from looking away again.

"Don't look away from me Ryo." Rose told him firmly as he allowed his eyes to burn into the other man's. When the Commissioner saw that Ryo understood, and wasn't going to switch his gaze back to the wall he lowered his hand. After a moment of silence Rose adjusted his glasses and graced Ryo with an answer to his question. "It's a shame.." Rose explained to the other man. "..that sometimes, people realize things they should have realized years ago just a little too late....and others give up on things that they have been chasing after for forever just a little too soon." Rose laughed coldly at the absolute looks of horror on Ryo's face as the words he provided him sunk in. "It's also quite amusing..." Rose continued. "..that these things normally end up falling hand in hand." Rose's already existent smirk grew as Ryo began to adopt a look of worry in his dark eyes.

"What do you mean?" Ryo asked the other man who now stood dangerously close to him "Are you referring to..." Ryo's voice trailed off as his boss's gaze easily overpowered his own. Rose's cold laugh penetrated the silence that now hung between them. With a victorious smirk Rose told Ryo exactly what he meant.

" It seems to me that you've just had your pedestal kicked out from under you by the man who placed you there."

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A/n: Wow this chapter was really mean to me. I was sure I was going to get this posted within my promised time of a week. But this chapter decided to be mean and my muse left me halfway through on vacation, and I couldn't finish it until he decided to come back :( Oh well...I promise the next chapter will come quicker because I've duct-taped my muse to a chair and he is not going ANYWHERE. Hmmmph! At least this chapter turned out to be one of my longest!!! Please read and review and please please please come back for chapter 4!!!! (also, don't bash Berk too hard...I happen to love the man. ::sigh:: LOL )