Love's Bitter Poison
Summary - Kagome and Inuyasha are in love, but afraid to speak up. When Kagome finally sums up the courage to tell him, he rejects her, acting as though he could care less about her. However, Inuyasha soon realizes that his arrogance is killing Kagome and decides to tell her the truth. But will it be too late by then? R & R!
A/N: Sorry I took so long to write the better version of Chapter III! Thanks to all my reviewers for being patient with me! Enjoy!
Chapter III – Koga's Cruelty and Kagome's Illness
The sun shined on Kagome as she walked sadly to Koga's. It made her hair shimmer like silk.
Inuyasha watched her, but did not follow her anymore. He realized that it was over. He had not admitted to loving Kagome, so now she had found someone else.It felt as though there was a rock in Inuyasha's chest. He had never felt pain like this before....not even when he lost Kikyo....
He had lost. There was nothing more he could do. Telling Kagome that he loved her would do nothing to help the situation.
He did not know how wrong he was.
As Kagome walked, she remembered this morning, how he had held her and watched the sunrise with her. But Kagome had paid no attention to the sunrise. She only cherished the fact that she had been in Inuyasha's arms for that one moment in time....
....and her eyes shined with tears at the fact that it would never happen again.
Then she remembered the anger and hurt in Inuyasha's eyes when she told him about Koga....how he had pushed her away......
Kagome felt the pain stab at her already suffering heart. She wanted to say she was sorry, but it wouldn't make a difference. He wouldn't care.
She did not know how wrong she was.
Inuyasha watched Kagome until she began to disappear from sight.
He began following her once more, not being able to resist the urge.
Kagome finally arrived at Koga's place in the late afternoon. She was weary from walking. And she certainly was not in the mood for climbing.
"Kagome, there you are!" called Koga as he jumped down the mountain.
Kagome flashed him a fake smile. Suddenly, Koga kissed her on the cheek.
Kagome felt her face flush red and her eyes widen.
"What's the matter, love?" Koga asked, smiling maliciously.
Kagome said nothing, but Koga wasn't expecting an answer. He picked her up and began jumping up the mountain.
It was all Inuyasha could do to keep himself from pounding the shit out of Koga for kissing Kagome. He sat in his tree and growled and clenched his fits until his nails dug into his palms.
After Kagome and Koga disappeared from view in the mountain, Inuyasha still wanted to keep an eye on her.
What if they start kissing in there? Or making out? Or....
Inuyasha froze.
Then he shook his head fiercely, getting the horrible, wretched thoughts out of his head.
Kagome looked around the den to find that it was empty.
"Where's your pack?" Kagome asked curiously.
"They're.....out," Koga said coolly. A bit too coolly.
"Come sit with me, Kagome," he said, patting the pile of hay beside him and grinning as he sat down.
"No....I'd rather stand," Kagome replied. She was feeling a bit worried at the moment. What's Koga up to?
Koga suddenly stood up and approached Kagome. She instinctively back away from him, but he suddenly grabbed her and kissed her forcefully on the lips. She struggled against him, trying to push him away, but he wouldn't let her go. He forced his tongue into her mouth, making Kagome feel sick and frightened at the same time.
Without warning, Koga ripped the blouse of Kagome's school uniform while his tongue was still in her mouth, causing her to sob with fear.
Inuyasha was about to turn back to the village when he sensed something.
He sensed fear.
Kagome's fear.
And he could smell the horrible, salty scent of her tears.
His heart pounding, he looked over at the den, a feeling of worry washing over him. What's going on in there....?
Kagome thrashed in Koga's arms, pounding on his chest and letting out muffled shrieks. Her shirt was now in shreds on the floor, and Koga finally broke the kiss to take a look at her chest, only to see her bra. He had his hand over her mouth and was about to rip her bra off too, when suddenly—
—"LET GO OF HER, YOU STUPID BASTARD!!" Inuyasha shrieked, punching Koga in fury as he entered the den.
Kagome fell over, sobbing uncontrollably. When he was suddenly aware that she had the opportunity.
The opportunity to fall again.
To try to die again.
She looked down at the earth, more than a mile below. She was now lying on the edge of the ledge of the den, wondering if she should try again while Inuyasha was occupied with beating Koga.....
"Don't. You. Even. THINK. About. It." Inuyasha growled, grabbing Kagome's shoulder. She turned and looked at him with tearstained eyes.
He felt his heart writhe in his chest as he saw her vacant, empty, saddened eyes, the eyes that made him shiver. The eyes that weren't suited for Kagome. Her eyes were meant to be full of light and hope, with laughter flickering in them every now and then. Not like this.
Inuyasha took off his undershirt, revealing his bare chest, and gave the shirt to Kagome to put on until she could get some of her own clothes back at home.
"Thank you," she said weakly, putting it on.
She noticed that Koga was knocked out in a corner. Serves him right...
Inuyasha crouched down and let her mount his back. He hopped down the mountain and finally began running through the forest. Until he slowed to a stop.
"Inuyasha, what's wrong?" Kagome asked in an emotionless tone.
Inuyasha's heart chilled at the sound of her empty voice.
He set her down and looked at her.
"Stop it, Kagome," he growled.
"Stop what?" she said in the same flat tone.
"Stop acting like this!!" he shouted angrily. The way she talked, the look in her eyes.....he could feel it all slowly destroying him on the inside. "Whenever you talk, it's like you're not even there, it's like your mind is off somewhere else!! And your eyes are suddenly so cold and dark....just like Kikyo's!"
Inuyasha went pale, realizing what he had just said. But it was true. Kagome's eyes did suddenly bear much resemblance to Kikyo's.
Kagome felt herself wince in pain at the mention of Kikyo. But she was having trouble concentrating on anything at the moment. Her thoughts were foggy, the back of her neck burned, and she felt suddenly very ill.....
Inuyasha looked at her, seeing that she was not going to respond. He felt his eyes sting. Seeing Kagome like this was something he couldn't stand. He had to make her better......
"Kagome.....please don't hurt anymore. I love you," he told her softly. A tear fell down his cheek. He walked towards her, to wrap his arms around her, but she moved away from him.
The words had not registered on Kagome yet. It was as though she had heard the words, but had not truly understood them.
Her brain worked slowly. She was tired and felt ill. She shouldn't have been in the rain last night.....
Inuyasha loves you, said a small voice inside her head. But she could barely hear it. She felt hot and ill and numb all at once.
Inuyasha noticed how she wobbled slightly as she stood, and noticed that her face looked flushed and her eyes were dazed. He put his hand on Kagome's forehead.
"Kagome, you're burning up!" he said with concern. The big moment when he finally admitted his feelings for her....and she was feverish.
"Come on, we have to get you to Kaede," he said softly, crouching down so that she could get on his back.
"No," Kagome said, shaking her head. Inuyasha looked at her, confused. But Kagome was more confused than he was. She couldn't find it in herself to think straight, and felt slightly delirious.
"Come on, Kagome!" Inuyasha told her. But his voice began to fade. Everything darkened and Kagome felt herself begin to fall.....
A/N: There you go! Sorry it took so long, but I kinda had writer's block for a while. --; Anyway, the next chapter will be much longer! Promise!