Lunchtime at the CSI building
As Sara walked into the kitchen she cringed when she saw basically the
whole team there. Nick, Grissom, Greg, Warrick and Catherine. Reaching over
to the middle of the table Grissom grabbed the last cream bun and handing
it to Sara said "Hey Sara sorry I cracked it" then shortly after added
"Just don't be late again. Declining Grissoms offering but not his apology
Sara went over to the coffee pot to find it empty. As Sara turned to go
Catherine caught her by the shoulder
"Do you wanna talk?" Catherine whispered
"I'm fine, really I am" Sara said but she knew she wasn't fooling anyone; she rushed out before Catherine could take the conversation any further.
Locking the door of the testing room Sara jumped on the scales and her heart soured, the trials and tribulations of the past months seemed to wash form her mind as the number was lower than last time, much lower. Luckily it was quite cold so everyone in the unit was rugged up. Sara unlocked the door and went back into the kitchen as tough she hadn't just run out in a close-to-tears state
"Hey Catherine" Sara said happily
"Hey you" Catherine replied feeling Sara's forehead for her change in mood was a big surprise.
"Who are you and what have you done with Sara?" Catherine joked
"What? Just because I'm happy"
"Well if I'm not mistaken a minute ago you rushed out of here because hm....... If I recall there was no coffee, now either you got some coffee or something else happened to perk up your mood, do you care to elaborate?"
"Not really" Sara replied and Catherine reached behind her to open the cupboard
"Cool score" Catherine said pulling out a container of doughnuts and passing one to Sara
"Here Sara" Catherine offered
"Nah not for me"
"You on a diet?" Catherine asked, her face now covered with a mixed look of curiosity and concern
"Yeah"
"What, Sara are you crazy? You're so tiny. What exactly have you been doing to yourself?"
"Nothing nothing, just getting in shape, watching what I eat you know a nice healthy diet nothing too drastic" Sara said trying to convince Catherine, she almost laughed at her statement of watching what she eats 'more like watching what I don't eat'.
"Ok" Catherine smiled, took a bite out of the doughnut and her face turned very pale. Grissom walked in
"Catherine you found my doughnuts, you didn't eat them did you?"
"Er yeah she took a bite why?" Sara enquired and Grissom smiled
"They have been there for a bit to long, I was doing an experiment, um Catherine maybe you should go to the doctor" Grissom and Sara laughed as Catherine walked out of the room in a zombie-like state.
"So Sara fancy a doughnut" Grissom joked and taking his experiment left the kitchen.
It was the end of the day and Sara didn't really feel like going home straight away, instead she went for a walk around her neighborhood block. Never would she have thought on her first day working with Grissom that in time she would be in the position she is now. She reminisced about her first investigation into Warrick, a man who was now a close friend and how bad Warrick had felt about being one of the factors that caused Holly Gribb's death. She knew he wasn't to blame for what happened but he still blamed himself, she wondered how this could parallel with her own life. Could she be to blame for everything in her life, she knew it was her fault that she hated herself, she perpetuated this body of hers and she was determined to follow through until it looked the way she wanted it to. She began to run around the block. Faster and faster until she fell over, almost passed out, out the front of her house. Sara ran up her stairs to her room reminding herself that this was exercise not torture. She didn't even have time to get changed because by the time she reached her bed she had collapsed without even getting under the sheets.
Later that night she awoke from her state of collapse and could hardly remember how she got there. Getting redressed she took her car and went to the CSI building. Sara knew she didn't start for another five hours but she went in and sat at the kitchen bench, her head in her hands, and she fell asleep.
"Sara, Sara" someone said shaking Sara Sidles shoulders
"Yeah" Sara said in a sleep like state
"What time did you get here?" Warrick enquired
"I'm not sure, around 3ish"
"Gosh Sara you're crazy" Warrick laughed and walked off without anymore to say
Sara got up, poured herself some coffee and went to her desk. She grabbed an old shoebox and put all her favourite desk things in there, she then walked up to Catherine's desk.
"Hey Catherine you want these things?"
"Um why? You love those things"
"Too much clutter for me but you can have them"
"I'll put them aside until you come to your senses ok"
"Ok whatever but I don't want them" Sara said and walked off. Catherine was curious as to why she didn't want these things anymore but didn't think that Sara was in a state to be asked.
A few minutes later in the testing room
The knife felt cool in Sara's hand, she ran the blade along a piece a paper and watched it slit a perfect line. 'It's sharp' she thought 'Just sharp enough' She brought the blade to her wrist and there was a knock at the door
"I'm fine, really I am" Sara said but she knew she wasn't fooling anyone; she rushed out before Catherine could take the conversation any further.
Locking the door of the testing room Sara jumped on the scales and her heart soured, the trials and tribulations of the past months seemed to wash form her mind as the number was lower than last time, much lower. Luckily it was quite cold so everyone in the unit was rugged up. Sara unlocked the door and went back into the kitchen as tough she hadn't just run out in a close-to-tears state
"Hey Catherine" Sara said happily
"Hey you" Catherine replied feeling Sara's forehead for her change in mood was a big surprise.
"Who are you and what have you done with Sara?" Catherine joked
"What? Just because I'm happy"
"Well if I'm not mistaken a minute ago you rushed out of here because hm....... If I recall there was no coffee, now either you got some coffee or something else happened to perk up your mood, do you care to elaborate?"
"Not really" Sara replied and Catherine reached behind her to open the cupboard
"Cool score" Catherine said pulling out a container of doughnuts and passing one to Sara
"Here Sara" Catherine offered
"Nah not for me"
"You on a diet?" Catherine asked, her face now covered with a mixed look of curiosity and concern
"Yeah"
"What, Sara are you crazy? You're so tiny. What exactly have you been doing to yourself?"
"Nothing nothing, just getting in shape, watching what I eat you know a nice healthy diet nothing too drastic" Sara said trying to convince Catherine, she almost laughed at her statement of watching what she eats 'more like watching what I don't eat'.
"Ok" Catherine smiled, took a bite out of the doughnut and her face turned very pale. Grissom walked in
"Catherine you found my doughnuts, you didn't eat them did you?"
"Er yeah she took a bite why?" Sara enquired and Grissom smiled
"They have been there for a bit to long, I was doing an experiment, um Catherine maybe you should go to the doctor" Grissom and Sara laughed as Catherine walked out of the room in a zombie-like state.
"So Sara fancy a doughnut" Grissom joked and taking his experiment left the kitchen.
It was the end of the day and Sara didn't really feel like going home straight away, instead she went for a walk around her neighborhood block. Never would she have thought on her first day working with Grissom that in time she would be in the position she is now. She reminisced about her first investigation into Warrick, a man who was now a close friend and how bad Warrick had felt about being one of the factors that caused Holly Gribb's death. She knew he wasn't to blame for what happened but he still blamed himself, she wondered how this could parallel with her own life. Could she be to blame for everything in her life, she knew it was her fault that she hated herself, she perpetuated this body of hers and she was determined to follow through until it looked the way she wanted it to. She began to run around the block. Faster and faster until she fell over, almost passed out, out the front of her house. Sara ran up her stairs to her room reminding herself that this was exercise not torture. She didn't even have time to get changed because by the time she reached her bed she had collapsed without even getting under the sheets.
Later that night she awoke from her state of collapse and could hardly remember how she got there. Getting redressed she took her car and went to the CSI building. Sara knew she didn't start for another five hours but she went in and sat at the kitchen bench, her head in her hands, and she fell asleep.
"Sara, Sara" someone said shaking Sara Sidles shoulders
"Yeah" Sara said in a sleep like state
"What time did you get here?" Warrick enquired
"I'm not sure, around 3ish"
"Gosh Sara you're crazy" Warrick laughed and walked off without anymore to say
Sara got up, poured herself some coffee and went to her desk. She grabbed an old shoebox and put all her favourite desk things in there, she then walked up to Catherine's desk.
"Hey Catherine you want these things?"
"Um why? You love those things"
"Too much clutter for me but you can have them"
"I'll put them aside until you come to your senses ok"
"Ok whatever but I don't want them" Sara said and walked off. Catherine was curious as to why she didn't want these things anymore but didn't think that Sara was in a state to be asked.
A few minutes later in the testing room
The knife felt cool in Sara's hand, she ran the blade along a piece a paper and watched it slit a perfect line. 'It's sharp' she thought 'Just sharp enough' She brought the blade to her wrist and there was a knock at the door