Chibi: I call the 'other Yugi' YAMI and ATEMU. Just in case ya get confused. And if you are, I am sorry. I switch back and forth between those two like I do a LOT of times in this chapter! I am just not used to Yami's real name yet so I just switch back and forth from Yami and Atemu to get the feel of it. Also, the rating is higher for the language and whatnot.

Chibi: Thank you Pharaoh Atemu's Angel. I love you!!

Thanks to the other reviewers too! Here. Since I know you were probably very impatient, I made a three chapter present! Don't forget to review!

{....} : me interrupting

(....) Yami mind talking

/..../ Yugi mind talking

'....' Private thoughts

Chapter four: Learning to Live Without Television

Yugi's POV

When we got back to the cabin, it was already dark out and jii-chan had already beaten us to it. I felt so sorry for Atemu-chan...Why was the horse afraid of a little squirrel? I mean...c'mon...

Atemu ran over to the couch to sit down when jii-chan stopped him; he grabbed him by the shirt collar and kept him from going anywhere.

"Where do you think you are going Yami-san?" Jii-chan asked him.

"Umm...To go watch T.V...?"

"Go to your cabin room....now please..."

Yami didn't hesitate in trying to argue with the old man (who happened to be my grandfather); in fact, he stopped with life altogether...Poor Atemu-chan...

I followed Yami to our room and when I reached the door, I heard someone crying. Something clenched in my heart because I knew it was my poor Atemu-chan within the sanctum, crying his pain away. I grabbed my chest for the jolt to my heart took me by surprise and it stung, like I was feeling his pain...

"Atemu...? Can I--"

"Go away!!" he cried back at me.

"Atemu..." No, I don't want you to be in pain my beloved crimson eyed koi...

I walked through the door, just to be yelled at by Atemu again for not leaving him alone.

"Yami, stop this. Now." I said sternly. I felt so much pain. He was chocking on his own sobs for something he didn't do.

"Aibou! I just want to be loved! I just want your jii-chan to like me! He hates me even though I protected you and always kept you by my side. He hates me! Like everyone else does!"

That was it! That ticked me off.

"Atemu! I don't hate you!"

"Then how come everyone we know tried to kill me and use me?! Especially Dartz! He said I was worthless and that I was a cursed and evil soul. The only soul within a ten-thousand year span to have all the evil of the earth! How do you think I feel?!"

I slapped him; slapped him hard.

"So you just think the same way as the others do? You hate me too? Go ahead...I'll just...Just....I'll....I...--" Yami then began to go out crying again. He cried very loud and the pain in my chest arrived again. Yami began to rub his cheek against the pillow of the bed trying to dry off his face but failed miserably when he couldn't stop crying. I wished he could use my face and cheek as he did for the pillow.

I heard grandpa walking down the hall though Yami was still crying fiercely. I hid under the spare bed in the room because I was small enough. Grandpa walked in and stood directly in front of Yami's crying form.

"What's this? I came to see if you knew where Yugi went but apparently you are crying. What? Can't handle not watching T.V. for a few days?!" I felt Yami flinch. Poor Atemu....

"This is interesting! The great 'Almighty Pharaoh of Doom' with no feelings is crying?" he inquired harshly. Jii-chan!! You are despicable!

Atemu cried harder than he previously had been before, daggers piercing through me like hot butter knives.

"C'mon! Say something! Say your name! Your REAL name!"

"Leave me be...!" Atemu said between sobs.

"Say it!!!"

"Atemu!" Atemu screamed back.

"Now, admit that you love my grandson! Admit it!!!" I felt Yami freeze; both in mind and spirit, and as well as body.

Since Atemu was disoriented, I searched through the mind link and got a mental image of what he looked like right now. He looked so scared and distraught. Tears not ceasing to fall and caress his cheeks.

"I-I-I-I........" Atemu stuttered. He was shaking everywhere. I then felt a hint of lust but it soon disappeared.

"What's that you got on your shirt there 'Atemu'?" Jii-chan asked as he pointed to Atemu's shirt. Atemu looked down only to get his nose flicked up harshly by his finger. Atemu sniffed in a sob and laid back down on the bed, back turned to jii-chan.

"Don't you turn your back on me boy!" Grandpa said as he grabbed Atemu's beautiful locks of hair. Atemu screamed for getting his hair pulled tightly unexpectedly. Jii-chan looked like he was ready to smack him so I came out from under the bed. The only reason he couldn't spot me was because of all the shadows everywhere. I saw everything clearly from under there and I am going to stop this.

"Grandpa!!!! He is crying because you tease him and keep making him feel miserable!!!" I yelled.

"Yugi, stay away from him...It's for your own good. I bet you he is thinking disgusting thoughts about you! I know it! About how he could lay you! I want him to stay away." Grandpa said.

I froze. What if....No, he doesn't love me...Heck...I-I...

"Shut up!!! God damn you old man! Leave me be!! What have I done to you?!!! WHAT?!" Atemu screamed through his tears.

"You want to know what you have done to me? Your existence. That is what you have done to me. I wish I never brought the millennium puzzle home to Japan. I wish you never were here with my grandson!"

Atemu immediately ran out the door, one hand in front of him to push everyone away, and the other to cover his once beautiful face. I heard the door slam as he went outside as well as other things breaking and crashing on the floor. Grandpa had a look of satisfaction on his face as he walked out like nothing happened. I began to run after Atemu. But as soon as I made it to the front door, something caught my eye.

It was a little diary. It had the words: 'Atemu's New Diary' written on it. I didn't want to read it, but...I just had this feeling....I opened it but there was only one entry. I guess this really was his new diary. I began to read it.

Entry One of my new diary:

This diary is totally dedicated to the one I love. My other diary only had the last couple of pages talking about my koi, but now, every page will be about the one I love. I am extremely happy. I love to write my feelings about my secret love into words, but I have never told anyone, not even him...

Feverish nights of manifest feelings;

Only the darkness can play my song

Shadowy fires that burn and course through me

Haven't yet ceased to create the light

The light that had forever stopped

For the one I love is—

The name was scribbled out and some of the pages were crinkled. I then looked at the last page of the diary and these words:

I know who it is. Stop writing these stupid feelings of yours down. You don't have any feelings. Stop now or I'll tell; I'll tell HIM!

Then it hit me...Grandpa must have written the threat in Atemu's secret diary...He must have ripped all the pages in it...I have to get to Atemu and fast.

Chibi: sorry I added angst in here too. Gomen! It's for the story! Uh, at least I think...Please review!! Oh, and I made grandpa kinda evil in this. What? I needed a ploy to put angst in! I still love Yugi's grandpa! I didn't mean to make him evil....it just...happened...

Atemu and Yugi: Arigato!