Aijo no Katachi
A form of affection
Chapter 4: Chimamire no
Swirls of blood and decay encompass her body while she lay immobilize staring at the dark clouded sky. The moon painted in blood, shone bright red staring down at her petite body that rested on the clearing were large trees encages it. She wanted to throw up at the heavy stench of blood the lingered around her, but to her folly it was her own blood she was bathing in. Eyes dilated in panic as she tried to push the fear of death aside.
"uwahhh....uwahh...."
Cries of a born child echoed breaking the eerie silence and right then she realized, she was dying....
"dame.....I don't want this....."
Waves of blood washed over her body and the sea of red engulfed her. She shut her eyes in fear.
"Sakura..."
A familiar masculine yet tender voice, emanating from beyond, was calling her to open her eyes and so she did...
She was still there on the same spot, still lying half conscious half asleep, bathing in her own blood. Sharinggan eyes belonging to a stoic face loomed over her. His ebony hair tickled her face when he leaned over her, causing their forehead and nose to touch in a sweet bliss.
Even if it was just for a fleeting moment, despite the incomparable pain she was experiencing, she felt loved.
But everything has to come to an end, and it already has for her.
She felt life slid out through her fingertips while she watched his back walk away from her. Sakura desperately extends her half dead hand, drenched in her own blood, towards him but He kept walking until the darkness had engulfed his form. It was evident, that to be with him, was not meant to be. She was just his tool, to be used and discarded.
"DAME!!!!!"
Her emerald eyes flung opened and she saw Kakashi sitting in front of her with Shin sitting in his lap, sleeping peacefully.
He was holding her outstretched hand.
"k-kakashi-sensei?"
Sakura stammered and retracted her hand to her chest, blushing lightly from embarrassment.
To think that of all people, her sensei had to see her like this.
Kakashi didn't seem to particularly mind, he did after all barged into her peaceful sanctuary. But to see her shifting and looking disturbed even in her sleep wasn't normal at all.
"I was scouting the perimeters of the village when I heard a child wailing loudly...."
Kakashi pointed down to the energetic son of Naruto's that Sakura seemed to have forgotten when she decided to go to dreamland.
"Oh..." She wanted to kick herself again, how could she have let herself sleep when they were in the middle of the forest where wild animals may have been hunting their early supper. She had endangered Naruto's son...
His lazy eye glanced at Sakura's distressed look.
"Sakura....tell me the truth..."
She snapped to her senses at her sensei's words. Kakashi's voice was serious, demanding an answer to the question he was going to throw at her. A type of tone that only a teacher would have.
"Are you pregnant?"
She choked a laugh.
"Are you joking sensei? If I would be pregnant whose child would I have ne? Really...you shouldn't joke about things like thi-"
Kakashi grabbed her hand, forcefully. His grip on her was scaring the wits out of her.
"...k-kakashi-sensei...you're hurting me...." she pleaded in a small voice but Kakashi did not let go. Instead he removed his headband to reveal his sharinggan. She edged back to the tree behind her and shook her head wildly from left to right.
'Get away! get away from me!!!!!!!!' she mentally screamed. She didn't want to look at those eyes. Those same eyes.....
"Haruno Sakura." The figure whispered her name to her ear. His hand cupped her face like it was made for her face.
"Sayonara...."
Suddenly to her surprise, Kakashi touched a part of her that she was hiding with her chakra. A few inches from her belly, there lay Kakashi's hand, rested on something that was not present to the untrained eye.
She swiped his hand fiercely, hot tears splattering on her dress.
"don't touch it....." she demanded, jerking away from his grasps and holding her shameful face.
Kakashi closed his eyes, somewhere in the depths of his cold hard exterior; he could feel extreme pain that she was feeling right now. He could only wonder in anger who the bastard that did this to her.
Was she raped? or was there something else to it?A sharp pain stabbed his numb heart, to see her crumble like this....it was disheartening even to him.
For maybe....somewhere inside him..
....He DID care...
Sakura wanted to die right there in front of Kakashi. He has discovered her sin; he must be disgusted right now. To have a baby, to be pregnant, without a father, He must have thought that she was a slut...
Oh how she wished she could crawl to a coffin and bury herself to death.
"...don't look at me...."
She choked in her tears. Kakashi simply patted her head like he was comforting a child that just did something grave, like broke her mother's favorite vase.
Such simple actions from him may seem childish but yet....
...she couldn't help but give in.
And so she did....
Kakashi cradled her limp form that sagged against his chest. Her tears splattered onto his green vest, dampening the cloth, but he didn't mind.
Right now, even if it was a sin, morally wrong, even if it would seem he was selfish, he wanted her only to remember him.
because maybe....
some part of couldn't help but love her....
A/N: ooohhhh!! a little Kakashi and Sakura romance going on there! and what's this?!? Sakura has a baby? who is the father?! will Naruto ever grow up? who are the pairings of this damned fic?! hmm...so many questions so little imagination. Read and Review!
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Japanese Translations:
Dame - no
Sensei - teacher
Sayonara – Good Bye
Chimamire no – Covered with Blood
Mujitsu - Freedom from Guilt
Futashika na - Uncertainty
Shikoryoku - Capacity of Reasoning
Other blabs:
Uhh...so many people requesting to have the chapters longer and so their wish will be granted by the Fairy of Lala Land! From now on I'll try my best to make the chapters longer. Sorry for the Japanese stuff! I can't get it out of my poor mind XD I was even planning on making the dialogues on Japanese so readers will get the feeling of the anime. Sorry!!
Oh! Ahaha! Many thanks on the reviews! The pairings are still a BIG/HUGE secret ahaha! go on and guess your hearts out! I like reading reviews with guesses. Who knows? I just might give you a super long chappie as a prize!