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A/N: just wanted to thank you for the reviews, I know this chapter is kinda weird, but I'll try to answer the questions about the baby but I think I'll take a couple of chapters. Also the story is going to start jumping in time but I hope I don't make it too confusing.
Chapter 3.
They were on a beach just sitting there, feeling the sand beneath them, looking at the sky and just holding each other as the sun was about to rise, when the firs rays of light reach them Buffy stood up and pull him with her and make him follow her to the water
"You know? It's bloody inconvenient that even in my dreams, I have this suicidal tendency of going into the light with you". He complained as he tagged along.
"C'mon, you know the sun can't hurt you now" Buffy said as she smiled sweetly at him, but he looked uncertain. She tried to walk with him but e stood and looked at her hesitantly.
"You do know .right?" she asked taking his hand and entwining her fingers with his and looking down on her actions.
"Well I believe its true seeing how this is a dream and all"
"That's not what I meant, and why do you know it's a dream anyway?"
"Then what did you mean slayer? "he asked before the train of though was lost.
She met his gaze and took their joining hands between them, and put them at his eye level, then flames engulfed them just like that time a thousand years' times on the cave And she looked at him with teary eyes "I Love You" it was almost a whisper.
"No you Do-".but she cut him off.
"Spike, the reason you are here is because you are my soul mate"
"Buffy, the reason you are here is because you are my soul mate"
They stood there, holding their hands for a long silent moment, staring at each other, until she step backwards breaking the connexion.
"Are you gonna wake up? ".
"Why should I?"
"I missed you".
"You missed me"
"We miss you ... ... y'know? I think this time we really screw up the balance?".
"Not our faults luv, 'sides it was them who gave us the gift, and this is jut an excuse they have to make so that we would enjoy it"
"Death Is my gift, is that what I should enjoy?"
"Pet, you got that all wrong, Life is your real gift; you just needed to understand Death so you could get Life... " He eyed her in wonder and asked "does it hurt?"
"What?" he motioned to her body, she was burning and dissolving into ashes from her feet to her head, it made her panic.
"Spike what's going on?" fear in her voice, but he didn't move as he watch her turn to dust, he only reacted at the very last moment when he heard her scream
"SPIKE!!"
"SLAYER" he screamed but couldn't move, he looked around but even the remains of his golden princes were gone, now it was only him and the endless ocean before him , but he was alone now, the woman he loved died before his eyes again he got to his knees and stared sobbing through close eyes and whisper
"Buffy im so sorry, so sorry love... wanted to give you the world, I love you , Buffy please come back ... Buffy"
"BUFFY!!!!" he screamed one last time in desperation. Before, sinking to the ground, but as soon as he did, he could hear a woman's voice.
"Spike? Are you coming to us?"
He couldn't recognize it, it came from the ocean, but he didn't want to look.
"Buffy?"
"Not her, you have to wake up soon, open your eyes"
And for some reason he did as she asked and open them, when he did he was no longer in the each, he was. well he didn't know where he was all he could make out , was the form of a woman looking down on him, she seemed familiar but he felt disoriented, and all of the sudden got aware that his body ache horribly, he felt tired, so he blinked a couple of times and drifted into a peaceful slumber .
Faith had been sitting on a couch by his side the whole time, looking on him, waiting for any sign that he would wake up, it was weird though, looking after a comatose person after she herself had been in one, sure she didn't remember almost any of it, except for the end, for those dreams she had before waking up alone, and into a different world, a world that had move on without her, she remember feeling so angry, at Buffy, at the mayor, at the Scoobies back then, she remember feeling disoriented and scared, no one should wake up feeling like that ever, so she figured that Spike shouldn't either, yeah he had been evil mythic bad ass apparently , but she'd never been there to witness his evil ways, and then when she came back to Sunnydale, she'd actually felt pity for him he was so whipped, she smiled at the memory of her calling him that after he hit her, always protecting B 'only in SnunnyHell could you fight with the slayer of slayers and then looked back at it as something funny' she mused to her self.
Before she Called Buffy the second time that morning, Angel had given orders to the people in the hospital to let her stay with the vamp (yes he is still a vampire according to Fred's lab results, he still had the demony essence in him or some crap like that), but why Angel held so much power now was beyond her, the guy had been growing loner , broodier, and angrier since Cordelia fell into Coma and she could understand him being depressed, but something was really off with him, maybe it was all that power that came with managing an evil Law Firm, or finding out that the love of his unlife was devastated at loosing the hate of his unlife, but whatever it was seemed dangerous, he was having a cold attitude even toward his friends, he was giving them orders as if they were nothing more that his slaves, and the way he had yelled at her yesterday, was plain awful he had been cruel telling her that she was still a lost child , that no matter how much she deluded herself into believing she had good accepting and loving friends, he was still the only friend she had and now by wanting to help Spike she was betraying him, that she was clueless an stupid, and that is only the half of what he said, sure he had apologize and obviously let her stay with Blondie out of guilt, but his words cut deep not just because her insecure mind believed in them a little, but because Her friend was using those insecurities as a weapon to hurt her, and the Angel he knew wouldn't do that, and if he was all Angelus like, she would have been dead by now.
A low moan cut her of her musings, to make her gaze fall upon the sleeping vampire before her, she watched him move and moan
"Slayer". Only a whisper.
She had been paralyzed until she heard the word, and stood by his side, but she didn't dare to touch him.
"Spike? Are you coming to us?"
"Buffy?"
'A year and a coma later and she still is all the man thinks about. Figures'
"Not her, you have to wake up soon, open your eyes".
As on comand he did, she stared at him as he tried to focus his gaze , and a painful expression crossed his face, he then blink a couple times but closed his eyes again an fall asleep once more.
The slayer run of the room in search for a doctor or a nurse, he had woken up and actually speak a word, things might be looking up after all.
Buffy, awoke by the sound of someone singing in the back of the car, it was an annoying voice she had learn to live with, she opened her eyes to see Xander driving the car, then she turned to the road and saw the sign saying that they were about 15 miles from Miami.
"Sleep well?" the burnet Asked.
"Actually yes, had a nice dream about a beach, how long was I out?" she asked turning to see Andrew plying and singing to William who was laughing and babbling along. She smiled at the sight, it was amazing seeing her baby like that , every time she looked at him it hit her how much she love this creature but every time he laugh with that playful innocent tone he completely melt her down, she got all this warm fuzzy feelings and she felt oblivious to the rest of the world.
"About 40 minutes, I guess".
"Hey Andy! Wanna change seats?"
"Not really im OK, we are playing"
"No I meant I wanna change seats"
"Buffy you can't do this in the middle of the freeway, we may get pulled up" Xander said
"Fine, but I want Will time, with all that's going on I haven't been with him today" she pouted at him and then turned around again to stick her tongue out to Andrew, who just smiled triumphantly at her.
"Well it is my job to spend time with him, but I'll let you having him in the plane, is a known fact that babies cry a lot when flying, and I want to see the movie"
"Gee thank you for allowing me to spend time with MY baby when YOU, the babysitter don't want to"
"What can I say, I'm very giving" He said and Buffy snorted, turning her head back to the road.
"Well you seem awfully cheerful for someone whose past is literary coming back to bite her in the ass" Xander noticed.
"You're not looking below the surface Xand" she sighed.
"so tell me "
"what do you think he'llbe like? Whe he wakes up I mean"
"I don't know, still British and evil I guess?" she glared at him .
"Sorry, i just... i don't know Buffy, you know I never really knew the guy, but I gues I hope he doesn't have amnesia or anything disturbinglike that"
her eyes widened "Oh My god ! what if he won't remember Me? What if this whole returning him from the dead was so that he didn't remember anything and that he would start a new life all human, and without any oft this demon crap?"
"I don't think the powers woul-"
"What if he was brought back to fullfil some evil prophecy or something?, I mean why else did they, whoever 'they' are send the Amulet to W&H?, what if he's back only to go away again" the last part spoken slowly and with fear...
Xander only looked at her with sorrow, she had been though too much this last year, she had been devastades after they left the whole in the ground that had been Sunnydale, he didn't think he was gonna make it trough the hearbreak of loosing Anya at least in a long time, but was sure that Buffy certanly was not going to make it, a girl coul only get trough some amount of pain and not loosing it, but she had felt it all by her young age and she had been a hopless mess up until she found out she was pregnant, sure it was HIS baby which didn't exactly make Xander giddy at the tought, but when she told him looking so fragile and scared and yet so full of hope and amazment, he swore he wouln't say a word again about the Bleach vamp who somehow manage to get a slayer knocked up, and after the first wave of shock and anger at the news, he realized that this was a miracle and not just a miracle in that general creating life is a miracle kid of way , but the guy's guys were supposed to be dead for Pete's sake! and some how someone above decided that he was good enough to reproduced.
And Buffy was so happy, anything that make her happy couldn't be bad right?, so he went into full Best friend mode and do what he had to do, unfortunately what he had to do was claim to be the father of the child to anyone who were outside the Scooby circle, they were the only ones who knew the truth, and Willow had cast a spell on them so they couldn't tell anyone else the truth, so when the news reach Angel he had received a broken nose, which was ironic because Angel was the whole reason they were lying in the first place, anyway it had been worthy , he loved the kid so much and although he didn't actually felt like his dad he did know he would do anything for him, for them, after all they were all a big family now.
"Xander ? you there?" he was brought back from his wonderings by the voice of a worried slayer
"huh? Wah?, oh yeah I just kind of zoned off"
"yeah I could see that"
"I know, I'm sorry, is just that I'm a little worried you know? Don't want to see you get hurt, by all this"
"and also I forgot to call Marco and ask him to handle 'The HellMouth' while we are gone"
"oh I totally forgot about the bar Too, good thing we don't open tomorrow"
"yeah good thing" 'bad thing is that is the least of our concerns right now he thought.
She was waiting outside the room for the doctors to come out with news thy had been there for about half an hour and she didn't think it was good, she had just got off her cell phone after talking to Robin and telling him she probably wasn't coming home tonight she had explained all that had happened since this morning, and he was very supportive , he even offer to stay with her or stay for her if she was tired, which made her totally happy because she knew how hard it was for him to even think about helping Spike, let alone take care of him, and he would if she asked because he adored her , that thought made her glow, 'I have a boyfriend that adores me , heee!', she would have even start to dance her happy dance if it wasn't for the nurse that was calling out for her.
"Miss! Miss!"
"Yeah?"
"You are Mr William York's relative right?"
"Yes he's my cousin, is something wrong?"
"No actually, when the doctors came to check on him, he had already been out of the comatose state, and was jut sleeping"
"It's that suppose to happen?" asked Faith warily.
"Is very unusual in these cases but there's nothing to worry about, quite the contrary actually, it just means than when he does wake up it will be less mind numbing for him"
"I see. So can I come to his room"
"Sure, but be sure not to wake him up"
It hadn't pass 2 minutes since she came back to the room when she watch the sleeping form starting to roll on the bed obviously waking up she decided that it was best that she didn't say anything , so she just sat beside him in the couch and stare at him silently, he continued moving a little until he stared opening his eyes when he did he looked around the room , he wasn't sure where he was or why was he there, but when his eyes fell on the Brunette sitting next to him , he was relieved to see a familiar face.
"Faith?" he wonder out loud and found out that speaking actually hurt a little and the sound of his voice was harsh.
"Nice to see you remember me cutie" she winked at him, at his puzzled look.
"What happened? Where the bloody hell am I?"
"Yep It's bloody you alright"
A/N: just wanted to thank you for the reviews, I know this chapter is kinda weird, but I'll try to answer the questions about the baby but I think I'll take a couple of chapters. Also the story is going to start jumping in time but I hope I don't make it too confusing.
Chapter 3.
They were on a beach just sitting there, feeling the sand beneath them, looking at the sky and just holding each other as the sun was about to rise, when the firs rays of light reach them Buffy stood up and pull him with her and make him follow her to the water
"You know? It's bloody inconvenient that even in my dreams, I have this suicidal tendency of going into the light with you". He complained as he tagged along.
"C'mon, you know the sun can't hurt you now" Buffy said as she smiled sweetly at him, but he looked uncertain. She tried to walk with him but e stood and looked at her hesitantly.
"You do know .right?" she asked taking his hand and entwining her fingers with his and looking down on her actions.
"Well I believe its true seeing how this is a dream and all"
"That's not what I meant, and why do you know it's a dream anyway?"
"Then what did you mean slayer? "he asked before the train of though was lost.
She met his gaze and took their joining hands between them, and put them at his eye level, then flames engulfed them just like that time a thousand years' times on the cave And she looked at him with teary eyes "I Love You" it was almost a whisper.
"No you Do-".but she cut him off.
"Spike, the reason you are here is because you are my soul mate"
"Buffy, the reason you are here is because you are my soul mate"
They stood there, holding their hands for a long silent moment, staring at each other, until she step backwards breaking the connexion.
"Are you gonna wake up? ".
"Why should I?"
"I missed you".
"You missed me"
"We miss you ... ... y'know? I think this time we really screw up the balance?".
"Not our faults luv, 'sides it was them who gave us the gift, and this is jut an excuse they have to make so that we would enjoy it"
"Death Is my gift, is that what I should enjoy?"
"Pet, you got that all wrong, Life is your real gift; you just needed to understand Death so you could get Life... " He eyed her in wonder and asked "does it hurt?"
"What?" he motioned to her body, she was burning and dissolving into ashes from her feet to her head, it made her panic.
"Spike what's going on?" fear in her voice, but he didn't move as he watch her turn to dust, he only reacted at the very last moment when he heard her scream
"SPIKE!!"
"SLAYER" he screamed but couldn't move, he looked around but even the remains of his golden princes were gone, now it was only him and the endless ocean before him , but he was alone now, the woman he loved died before his eyes again he got to his knees and stared sobbing through close eyes and whisper
"Buffy im so sorry, so sorry love... wanted to give you the world, I love you , Buffy please come back ... Buffy"
"BUFFY!!!!" he screamed one last time in desperation. Before, sinking to the ground, but as soon as he did, he could hear a woman's voice.
"Spike? Are you coming to us?"
He couldn't recognize it, it came from the ocean, but he didn't want to look.
"Buffy?"
"Not her, you have to wake up soon, open your eyes"
And for some reason he did as she asked and open them, when he did he was no longer in the each, he was. well he didn't know where he was all he could make out , was the form of a woman looking down on him, she seemed familiar but he felt disoriented, and all of the sudden got aware that his body ache horribly, he felt tired, so he blinked a couple of times and drifted into a peaceful slumber .
Faith had been sitting on a couch by his side the whole time, looking on him, waiting for any sign that he would wake up, it was weird though, looking after a comatose person after she herself had been in one, sure she didn't remember almost any of it, except for the end, for those dreams she had before waking up alone, and into a different world, a world that had move on without her, she remember feeling so angry, at Buffy, at the mayor, at the Scoobies back then, she remember feeling disoriented and scared, no one should wake up feeling like that ever, so she figured that Spike shouldn't either, yeah he had been evil mythic bad ass apparently , but she'd never been there to witness his evil ways, and then when she came back to Sunnydale, she'd actually felt pity for him he was so whipped, she smiled at the memory of her calling him that after he hit her, always protecting B 'only in SnunnyHell could you fight with the slayer of slayers and then looked back at it as something funny' she mused to her self.
Before she Called Buffy the second time that morning, Angel had given orders to the people in the hospital to let her stay with the vamp (yes he is still a vampire according to Fred's lab results, he still had the demony essence in him or some crap like that), but why Angel held so much power now was beyond her, the guy had been growing loner , broodier, and angrier since Cordelia fell into Coma and she could understand him being depressed, but something was really off with him, maybe it was all that power that came with managing an evil Law Firm, or finding out that the love of his unlife was devastated at loosing the hate of his unlife, but whatever it was seemed dangerous, he was having a cold attitude even toward his friends, he was giving them orders as if they were nothing more that his slaves, and the way he had yelled at her yesterday, was plain awful he had been cruel telling her that she was still a lost child , that no matter how much she deluded herself into believing she had good accepting and loving friends, he was still the only friend she had and now by wanting to help Spike she was betraying him, that she was clueless an stupid, and that is only the half of what he said, sure he had apologize and obviously let her stay with Blondie out of guilt, but his words cut deep not just because her insecure mind believed in them a little, but because Her friend was using those insecurities as a weapon to hurt her, and the Angel he knew wouldn't do that, and if he was all Angelus like, she would have been dead by now.
A low moan cut her of her musings, to make her gaze fall upon the sleeping vampire before her, she watched him move and moan
"Slayer". Only a whisper.
She had been paralyzed until she heard the word, and stood by his side, but she didn't dare to touch him.
"Spike? Are you coming to us?"
"Buffy?"
'A year and a coma later and she still is all the man thinks about. Figures'
"Not her, you have to wake up soon, open your eyes".
As on comand he did, she stared at him as he tried to focus his gaze , and a painful expression crossed his face, he then blink a couple times but closed his eyes again an fall asleep once more.
The slayer run of the room in search for a doctor or a nurse, he had woken up and actually speak a word, things might be looking up after all.
Buffy, awoke by the sound of someone singing in the back of the car, it was an annoying voice she had learn to live with, she opened her eyes to see Xander driving the car, then she turned to the road and saw the sign saying that they were about 15 miles from Miami.
"Sleep well?" the burnet Asked.
"Actually yes, had a nice dream about a beach, how long was I out?" she asked turning to see Andrew plying and singing to William who was laughing and babbling along. She smiled at the sight, it was amazing seeing her baby like that , every time she looked at him it hit her how much she love this creature but every time he laugh with that playful innocent tone he completely melt her down, she got all this warm fuzzy feelings and she felt oblivious to the rest of the world.
"About 40 minutes, I guess".
"Hey Andy! Wanna change seats?"
"Not really im OK, we are playing"
"No I meant I wanna change seats"
"Buffy you can't do this in the middle of the freeway, we may get pulled up" Xander said
"Fine, but I want Will time, with all that's going on I haven't been with him today" she pouted at him and then turned around again to stick her tongue out to Andrew, who just smiled triumphantly at her.
"Well it is my job to spend time with him, but I'll let you having him in the plane, is a known fact that babies cry a lot when flying, and I want to see the movie"
"Gee thank you for allowing me to spend time with MY baby when YOU, the babysitter don't want to"
"What can I say, I'm very giving" He said and Buffy snorted, turning her head back to the road.
"Well you seem awfully cheerful for someone whose past is literary coming back to bite her in the ass" Xander noticed.
"You're not looking below the surface Xand" she sighed.
"so tell me "
"what do you think he'llbe like? Whe he wakes up I mean"
"I don't know, still British and evil I guess?" she glared at him .
"Sorry, i just... i don't know Buffy, you know I never really knew the guy, but I gues I hope he doesn't have amnesia or anything disturbinglike that"
her eyes widened "Oh My god ! what if he won't remember Me? What if this whole returning him from the dead was so that he didn't remember anything and that he would start a new life all human, and without any oft this demon crap?"
"I don't think the powers woul-"
"What if he was brought back to fullfil some evil prophecy or something?, I mean why else did they, whoever 'they' are send the Amulet to W&H?, what if he's back only to go away again" the last part spoken slowly and with fear...
Xander only looked at her with sorrow, she had been though too much this last year, she had been devastades after they left the whole in the ground that had been Sunnydale, he didn't think he was gonna make it trough the hearbreak of loosing Anya at least in a long time, but was sure that Buffy certanly was not going to make it, a girl coul only get trough some amount of pain and not loosing it, but she had felt it all by her young age and she had been a hopless mess up until she found out she was pregnant, sure it was HIS baby which didn't exactly make Xander giddy at the tought, but when she told him looking so fragile and scared and yet so full of hope and amazment, he swore he wouln't say a word again about the Bleach vamp who somehow manage to get a slayer knocked up, and after the first wave of shock and anger at the news, he realized that this was a miracle and not just a miracle in that general creating life is a miracle kid of way , but the guy's guys were supposed to be dead for Pete's sake! and some how someone above decided that he was good enough to reproduced.
And Buffy was so happy, anything that make her happy couldn't be bad right?, so he went into full Best friend mode and do what he had to do, unfortunately what he had to do was claim to be the father of the child to anyone who were outside the Scooby circle, they were the only ones who knew the truth, and Willow had cast a spell on them so they couldn't tell anyone else the truth, so when the news reach Angel he had received a broken nose, which was ironic because Angel was the whole reason they were lying in the first place, anyway it had been worthy , he loved the kid so much and although he didn't actually felt like his dad he did know he would do anything for him, for them, after all they were all a big family now.
"Xander ? you there?" he was brought back from his wonderings by the voice of a worried slayer
"huh? Wah?, oh yeah I just kind of zoned off"
"yeah I could see that"
"I know, I'm sorry, is just that I'm a little worried you know? Don't want to see you get hurt, by all this"
"and also I forgot to call Marco and ask him to handle 'The HellMouth' while we are gone"
"oh I totally forgot about the bar Too, good thing we don't open tomorrow"
"yeah good thing" 'bad thing is that is the least of our concerns right now he thought.
She was waiting outside the room for the doctors to come out with news thy had been there for about half an hour and she didn't think it was good, she had just got off her cell phone after talking to Robin and telling him she probably wasn't coming home tonight she had explained all that had happened since this morning, and he was very supportive , he even offer to stay with her or stay for her if she was tired, which made her totally happy because she knew how hard it was for him to even think about helping Spike, let alone take care of him, and he would if she asked because he adored her , that thought made her glow, 'I have a boyfriend that adores me , heee!', she would have even start to dance her happy dance if it wasn't for the nurse that was calling out for her.
"Miss! Miss!"
"Yeah?"
"You are Mr William York's relative right?"
"Yes he's my cousin, is something wrong?"
"No actually, when the doctors came to check on him, he had already been out of the comatose state, and was jut sleeping"
"It's that suppose to happen?" asked Faith warily.
"Is very unusual in these cases but there's nothing to worry about, quite the contrary actually, it just means than when he does wake up it will be less mind numbing for him"
"I see. So can I come to his room"
"Sure, but be sure not to wake him up"
It hadn't pass 2 minutes since she came back to the room when she watch the sleeping form starting to roll on the bed obviously waking up she decided that it was best that she didn't say anything , so she just sat beside him in the couch and stare at him silently, he continued moving a little until he stared opening his eyes when he did he looked around the room , he wasn't sure where he was or why was he there, but when his eyes fell on the Brunette sitting next to him , he was relieved to see a familiar face.
"Faith?" he wonder out loud and found out that speaking actually hurt a little and the sound of his voice was harsh.
"Nice to see you remember me cutie" she winked at him, at his puzzled look.
"What happened? Where the bloody hell am I?"
"Yep It's bloody you alright"