This is the story of two people who have been emotionally and mentally cut off from the world around them. They have been estranged from emotions until these eyes meet up again. What will happen? L/J R for later chapters

Disclaimer: I own no characters, places, ideas, or plots created by Miss Rowling.

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This chapter contains explicit content, if you do not like, or wish to, or feel uncomfortable reading this type chapter I suggest you don't. thank you.

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No Longer Estranged Chp5

"Stars lead me up to heaven, and I hope I'm there with you, for you are a star in my twinkling eyes."

-Fancher, Shannon

Lily felt the intensity of James' heartbeat against her chest. Her eyes kept fluttering from his eyes to his mouth. His now familiar, warm mouth that was just waiting to be filled with her once more. It begged for her soft lips to collide with his. But the one thought that kept intruding on the luscious ones, the one thought that held reason and sensibility, the one thought that she despised.

"We can't James." She gasped out, making sure his eyes were level with hers.

"What?" He was a little taken aback. He thought she wanted to, she did, and she does! But the betrayed look in Lily's eyes made him control himself and attempt to reason with her to stop being so sensible. "Why can't we?"

"James, be reasonable…" Lily placed her hand on James' arm, but he rejected it. Too filled with frustration and confusion.

"Reasonable? Lily you can't tell me to be reasonable. Not after everything we've-" he turned on his heel and ran his hands through his hair in aggravation.

"Everything we've what?" Lily demanded "James this is impossible, we've known eachother for a whole of what, not even 24 hours? We haven't been through anything-" James cut her off, his irrational feelings taking over

"We haven't been through anything? Lily I- OK, granted we haven't really known eachother until now, and yes you've lost your memory but I'm trying to help with all the power I possess Lily. I've already missed two days of work-"

"Then kick me out if I'm such a nuisance to you, I'm quite aware of the helplessness that is my state of life at the moment." Lily had stomped towards James and forced him to look her in the eyes. She saw the hurt and anger that had been sparked by what he saw as "her rejection".

"Can you honestly say that you feel nothing for me?" James whispered, his large rough hands finding her small pale ones. Lily didn't know what to say. She didn't trust herself to say anything at all. She knew that if she let her brain ramble James would probably throw her out, or give the cold-shoulder for the rest of the time she was there. But if she let her heart ramble…well what would happen? The worst thing that could possibly happen is that James would reject her, and she already knew that he would never let himself do that, the anxious look in his eyes alone wouldn't let him refuse her. So Lily plucked up all her courage, and rambled from her heart.

"James, I feel that I can honestly say even through this whole ridiculous ordeal, that I've never felt as strongly towards anyone as I have felt towards you this past day."

James didn't know whether to be happy or dismayed. "Is that a good thing or a bad thing?"

Lily felt some tension lift as she let out a small giggle at James' somewhat innocent, confused face. She held onto his hands and led him to the love seat facing the now intensely glowing fireplace. She took a deep breath and faced his bright eyes one more time.

"It's a good thing James, but the truth of the matter is I can't say that I fully trust you…. "

"Lily, what don't you trust about me?" James asked feeling the guilt surge to the top of his emotions.

"It's not that I don't trust you…it's more that I don't trust myself…when I'm with you…" Lily tried to put it as delicately as possible. But James was getting impatient. His need to kiss her was mounting again as he felt Lily's hands squeezing and rubbing his own.

"Truth?" He asked her, knowing that she was waiting for what he had to say. She nodded giving him consent to continue "I don't trust myself with you either. I feel you're my responsibility that the only way you'd be able to regain your memory is through me. But I don't think that whether it was fate we met, or some ultimate design, I don't think they ever meant us to feel the way that we feel about eachother. That is if my feelings are requited…"

"It's not possible James, I don't know you and you don't know me. Fuck I don't even know me!" James widened his eyes at Lily's choice of vocabulary. "How can this be possible?" Lily removed her hands from his and stood up in vexation "I've remembered a few more things, subtle things. Such as beliefs or hopes…and I am positive that in all my life I have NEVER believed in anything as trivial or insubstantial as...as..."

James stood up behind her, and gently placed a hand on her shoulder to steady her nerves. "As what, Lily?" he whispered gently

As she turned around slowly James could notice the hint of tears, glistening in her green eyes.

"As…love-"

"At first sight?"

"No, I know that's utterly impossible. And besides we were acquaintances in Hogwarts.". Lily stated matter-of-factly "I meant love in general. Love besides love for a family member. I don't remember any boys being explicitly nice to me in Hogwarts. There was one group in particular, that were horrific boys. I can't see their faces…but they were there." James eyes widened yet again, but this time it was at how close she was to figuring out their true relationship in school. If you could even call it a relationship. "But anyway, love…love right now is the only word I can, and want to use when referring to what I feel for you." Tears were fully streaming down her face. In vain Lily tried to quickly wipe the tears falling form her eyes, but James caught her hands and pulled her in for a kiss. Or that's what lily thought.

Once she thought their lips would collide, James stopped his robust advance toward her and his lips changed course. Instead of James kissing Lily's lips, he kissed her tears away. One by one, tear by tear, James kissed Lily's sorrows away. She couldn't believe what she was feeling, pleasure she knew for sure she never experienced before this very moment. But pain shot through her every time they touched, the pain of something nagging in the back of her mind. Something wasn't right with this. Something wasn't true. But at that moment all she could truly feel and care that she was feeling was James touch on her face, on her body. She realized now that the only reason she was feeling emotional pain, was because her stupidity was holding her back from the one thing, one person, who could take the pain away. She wouldn't let that happen any longer.

"James?" she whispered pushing him back and taking his face in her hands.

"What's the matter?" he asked, half out of breath from the feeling she was giving him

"Love me." James hesitated for no longer than a second, once he realized what she was begging him to do. He knew there were so many ways he could bring her beautiful pleasure, happiness he never felt before, the want the need, it all took over him as he delved into her mouth, slowly taking her from the love seat into his bedroom. Her hands were roaming up and down his back stopping at points to explore that certain stretch of skin, or birthmark, or any part of his body she wished to memorize.

Once by the bed, they stopped for a moment just to look into each other's eyes. Each other checking that this was what the other wanted, the answer didn't take long to find. Somehow they both knew without speaking, that neither would be complete of they couldn't have the other.

Lily sat on the bed and tentatively started to pull the sweater off over her small body. She had on a lacy bra underneath the sweater that made James quiver with amazement. This small girl he thought he knew was a woman now. There was not one imperfection that James could find on Lily's body, from the slightly curvy stomach, to the way her breasts just seemed to perfectly arouse his deepest desires. After watching her take the shirt off James took his off as fast as possible and grabbed her close to him.

Their bare skin seemed to become one once they touched eachother, but their souls had yet to be melded. James' body was a temple that Lily couldn't stand any longer to worship it. His hard abs. made her squirm with passion, and pull him in tighter against his body, wanting to feel every movement that every muscle made. James had gently lowered Lily back onto the bed and was now leveling himself on top of her. He couldn't believe how happy he was with just a glance at the glow in her eyes.

He had his arms around her back so he could unfasten the bra quite easily. He marveled at her body, as her head was thrown back in abandonment, welcoming him to any part of her body. He took her right breast and started to kiss it, satisfying himself with her taste and every little gasp she made. He soon got to the nipple and took it full in his mouth, sucking it gently, than fiercely causing her breathing to become shorter and less syncopated. He rubbed her other breast making sure it felt no neglect while the other felt such tension and pleasure. His kisses soon traveled down her body and reached the pants-line. With one last grin at lily he pulled the pants down along with her underwear, if there was any, as James did not care to look. He sat up for a moment and observed the milky smooth skin that was at his disposal. But lily wouldn't let him have all the fun, as she was at a major disadvantage.

She reached up and pulled him back on her by his belt line. She kissed him fiercely, nibbling his lower lip and trailing up to his ear, while steadily taking unbuckling his belt and pulling down his pants. She glanced down at his blue boxers and noticed through them the intensity of emotions. With another short pause and a kiss she smiled and pulled down his shorts, and slowly opened her legs, preparing herself for his soul.

James delved into Lily's body with ease, at first shallow to make sure she wasn't a virgin. His suspicions confirmed that she wasn't he pushed deeper, and deeper, never taking his eyes off of hers. Once as far as he could go and hearing her moans of pain, James pulled out and thrust right back in but released quicker. He made a pattern that her arching back and thrusting body could match his powerful one. First a slow long thrust causing pain and relief. Then four short ones tickling the body and sensations. Again a long slow push, but now only three short thrusts causing more pain, that slowly turned to ecstasy. James could feel her nails digging into his back, holding onto him with everything she was and had. Once James reached only one short thrust he delved into four long ones, on the last one feeling her walls clench around him they both let all they had into eachother, feeling a bond being formed that could never be separated.

James lay on top of Lily for a few moments, catching his breath and breathing her sweet sweat in. Lily didn't want to lose the feeling of him inside her, or anywhere near her, but she felt the soar coming on her and gave him a kiss on the shoulder to signify to let her go. He released her gently and left her body, only to roll over and spoon her, not letting her go. The moment was perfect

"Lily?" James gasped, still short of breath

Everything that Lily could ever have wanted happened in those beautiful, long moments.

"Yes?" she mumbled feeling sleep starting to take her

James didn't know what to say, he felt if he told the truth then everything would be broken, but if he didn't what if Remus had been right? What if the memories started returning at such a rapid pace because of her emotional stress, that she became catatonic, or went into a coma?

"What is it, James?" She turned over to face him, keeping her arms and legs tightly intermingled with his.

"I-" he couldn't do "I need-" he couldn't tell her the truth. Not that truth at least, so he attempted another one, but didn't get a chance to.

"I love you, James" Lily muttered as she finally drifted off to sleep, nudging her head on his chest. All James could do was smile, hope for the best, and whisper.

"I love you too, Lily Evans."

A/N: I know I know I know! You all must be terrible mad at me that I haven't updated for so long and here she comes with the shortest chapter ever to be written to man kind. This person sucks dude! Or homey or whatever your lingo is. I'm sorry. But work and school and other icky stuff caught up with me. Again I apologize profusely!

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R: Thank you. It feels really great to hear from someone who also has the opinions of the same old James/Lily love stories. I know, Iwrote one of them. And after the 31 chapters, I got bored. So as I was watching a pair of my friends have a "lovers quarrel" for the 100th time, I cam up with this idea. Thank you again for thinking that my story is a good one!

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