This is the story of two people who have been emotionally and mentally cut off from the world around them. They have been estranged from emotions until these eyes meet up again. What will happen? L/J R for later chapters
Disclaimer: I own no characters, places, ideas, or plots created by Miss Rowling.
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No Longer Estranged chp6
"For the most part fraud in the end secures for its companions repentance and shame."
-Simmons, Charles
Lily walked through the apartment, slowly looking over James' flat. She wanted to get to know him more, now that they had shared their transcendent experience. Lily smiled looking at a photograph on the mantelpiece, she recognized Sirius, James' friends who had stopped by earlier the day before. There were two adults in the picture along with Sirius and James. Lily figured them to be James' parents, as the mother had his black hair deep chocolate eyes. The father had the tall figure with glasses, except his hair was slightly browner than black and he had gray eyes. Lily moved along the mantle studying the faces in the pictures, the happiness that flooded through their features. Moving and waving in an interesting sort of chaos, that Lily found intriguing.
But one Picture caught her eye. This one was strange; contrary to the other pictures this one had a cold feel to it. The day was cloudy and there were five figures in the picture. Five boys. One girl. One boy seemed to be lying on the grass, huddled away from the others. Another boy stood towering over him, while the three other watched with some malicious glint. Lily looked over to the girl with mounting curiosity. Why would James have such a morbid picture taken? And why would he keep it?
Lily reached up to the picture, wanting to get a better look at the faces, especially the girl. The girl was standing off to the side, pointing her wand at the boy standing over the huddled one. She seemed distant, yet familiar. But just as Lily was about to touch the frame that held the ominous photo, a shot of pain screamed through her spinal cord and hit her neck at such force, that the room blacked out. She new she couldn't see, but she heard voices, familiar voices.
"LEAVE HIM ALONE!" a voice in her head screamed
"Ah, Evans, don't make me hex you." Some conceited voice replied calmly to the other.
Lily opened her eyes and saw the room around her start to spin, she felt her body start to calm down, and breathing regulate, when another shot of pain caused a second blackout. More voices came, a new one first.
"I don't need help from filthy little Mudbloods like her!"
Lily moaned in pain as this new surge of memories swept through her. She couldn't recognize the voices, she could only hear them, and feel the hate and want contorted within them. Her body felt as if it would explode if one more voice entered her mind, but she wouldn't let go, not yet. She had to recognize the voices; she had to remember something…anything.
"Bad luck, prongs." Was the last thing she heard before a loud shrill scream pierced the room? She felt herself shaking and convulsing and screaming with horrible dreams. Once more she opened her eyes hoping to see the room about her and not black, but what she saw was even better, James concerned face stared back at her trembling body.
"Lily, Lily wake up. You were having a dream, it was just a dream." James held her close to him letting her take in his warmth, willing her body to stop shaking. Lily looked around the room while holding onto him, bewildered as to what just happened.
She wasn't in the sitting room anymore; she somehow had gotten to James' room…and into his bed, his clothes on her again. Another dose of pain swept through her body, as she felt the blackness coming about her once again. But she wouldn't let it happen without her getting a word into James. The intensity of this torment scared her to the point of thinking after she blacked out again; she just might not wake up. So with a will of strength she pulled herself away from him and looked deep into his worried eyes.
"I love you." She whispered kissing his lips gently before closing her eyes and falling back on the pillow, letting the dark take over.
James just sat there, staring at her seemingly lifeless body. Until something kicked in, he had to get her to the hospital. He had to stop lying, and putting her in danger. Remus had been right, and if Lily had gone into a coma, James would never forgive himself. So with a swift hand, James swept lily up and apparated with her to St. Mungo's hospital. Being a very well known auror he was able to get her into the classified special operations ward, where only VIP's or victims of Voldemort and his followers were allowed to be cared for. This ward was also very good for James' particular needs, as the doctors did not ask the names of the patients unless it was a fatal case.
An attendant led James to a single secluded room in the far corner of the magically enhanced wing. He set Lily up to a magically ran machine that observed her pulse and breathing patterns, and left saying that a medi-wizard would be in shortly to attend them.
James ran his fingers through his hair knowing he was probably going to get fired for missing yet another day of work for this girl. They had slept all through the night and it was now somewhere around 2:00pm the next day. They had both woken up at some point during the day because they had both gotten cold, and felt the need to put clothes on again. James wasn't as emotionally drained as Lily had been so he took the opportunity to take a shower, then got back into bed just as Lily started having her fit.
Lily stirred for half a second, giving the appearance that she would wake up, but to no avail. James walked quickly over to her and sat down on the edge of the bed, holding her hand tightly. He studied her face, the rise and falling of her chest, the way her flaming hair seemed to tumble gently across the cotton white pillows, creating an effect that reminded him of ocean waves. The experience they had shared together was one he'd never forget, the way not only their bodies molded together, but the way their souls and magic seemed to burst into eachother with ease and familiarity was a feeling that could not be mistaken. Love was upon him, whether he wanted it or expected it or had absolutely no clue to its coming, the full reality of his ironic delusions was staring back in the face.
The sound of shoes rapping gently on the floor pulled him out of his reverie. James turned around to see a young woman in white robes and thin rimmed glasses come towards Lily's bed. She had long brown hair streaked with reddish blonde, at the moment pulled back into a ponytail, with bangs that fell just above her eyebrows. Her body type was not so much different from Lily's small and petite except she had more curves and walked with a sort of Spanish flare.
"Good Afternoon. My name is Medi-Witch Cassandra, but you can just call me Cassandra. The entire title is to annoying to pronounce every time you have a question. So I see we've got ourselves a girl unconsciense, huh?" She smiled swiftly getting introductions over with, and heading swiftly to business.
"I'm James and yes, we were back at my flat and all of a sudden she started having these huge bursts of pain, coming from the bottom of her spine to her neck. After a few minutes of it she fainted. I didn't know what to do so I brought her here." James got up from the bed and moved to the other side so Cassandra could get a better look at her. She fluttered about checking vitals, and doing other various things medi-wizards always attend to.
"Has this ever happened before?" she asked not taking her eyes off Lily
James cleared his throat feeling a little nervous for some reason "Yes, once before but she didn't faint."
"Why didn't you bring her here then?" Cassandra raised her eyebrow in question at James.
"Well my friend knows quite a bit about healing so I called him over. She didn't want to go to the hospital, she didn't think it was that serious." He sighed in frustration knowing that most of it was his convincing her it wasn't serious
"Is there anything else I should know about her?" Cassandra pressed knowing something wasn't completely right here.
James contemplated telling her of Lily's memory loss, but that would lead to too many questions. He figured he'd have Lily be revitalized, and stay for only a day or so until strong enough to return to his flat in Dublin. Hopefully, then, he'd have the courage to straighten things out with her and confess the truth to her. Even though it would undoubtedly end in her departure. So with a quick glance at Lily and a meek smile towards the medi-witch he shook his head no.
Cassandra frowned as his back was turned on her, looking out the window. Something definitely wasn't right here, James' countenance towards her had gone from the hope of a patients loved one to a defensive criminal. She studied him as his back was turned. His frame had gotten stronger, and his eyes more knowledgeable. Yet there was a sense of loneliness in him that you could feel go away the moment he looked at Lily. She knew him, she remembered him from so long ago. He had certainly changed.
Cassandra walked toward the girl's bed, to check on her condition. She was stable, but she wanted an IV with a strengthening potion to be applied. If it wasn't for the damned policy to not ask names in the special care unit she would have questioned James about the girl. She seemed familiar, yet far away. As if lost in a memory. Cassandra turned back to James who now had his back against the wall and his eyes closed.
"James." Cassandra started softly. But when he didn't respond she echoed a little louder "James!"
He started, looking at Cassandra in question.
"You look like you have been through bloody hell, I think you should go home and get some rest until-"
"No I can't. I'm staying with Li-" he stopped himself before he said her whole name, not wanting to find out that this witch might have known Lily in the past or right now. "I'm staying with her. And if I decide to go home I can't go home because I have to go to work as I have missed about three days already." He sighed and collapsed into a near-by chair.
Cassandra sat down in a chair next to him and gave an encouraging smile "You must really like this girl to have missed three days of aurors work. You are an auror I presume as you have access to this ward." James nodded in compliance "Well, even though it is none of my business to intrude on my patients personal matters, I say you go to work and explain…whatever has been going on at your home" James grinned at Cassandra's hints "then by the time you come back, as I'm sure you'll have quite a time explaining to Mr. Moody about this, I promise you" Cassandra looked down at the girl quickly remembering the name of the childhood friend the girl had reminded her of, Lily. "She'll be as beautiful and healthy as ever, and ready to go home I might add."
James smiled knowing this would be the smart thing to do, missing the hesitation in her reassurance. But whenever James looked away from Lily he felt as if a person could walk right through him and not notice him standing there. She made him complete, and strong. The past day had been so beautiful, just lying together and making love. He had never felt so absolute in his life. He had always been so far away from everyone, especially as of late. But that moment he saw her in the muggle coffee shop, all time had stood still and he had found the person he needed to spend the rest of his life with.
He sighed at Cassandra's expecting face, and nodded getting up and walking slowly to Lily bed. He enclosed her hand within his and kissed her gently, saying a mental farewell for now. With one last glance at Lily he turned back to the medi-witch and smiled.
"You said I must really like this girl to miss work. I do really like her. In fact, I love her with all my heart and soul. She's my everything so-"
"Don't worry Sir, she's in good hands. A lucky girl she is to have someone to watch over and care for her like you do."
"Thank you. Oh umm, there are two men, they're my friends, who will probably be coming to check up on Lily." He whispered feeling his body edge to Lily's bed again.
"May I ask their names, sir?" Cassandra pressed a little
"Remus and Sirius are their first names, you know very well that last names are-"
"Irrelevant, yes I do sir." Cassandra backed down from her high horse and watched as he apparated back to his flat to get on some suitable robes for work.
Cassandra glanced over at Lily's pained body, and walked swiftly over to it. She whipped out her wand and whispered "ennervate'" Lily stirred wincing in pain as the light flooded her eyes and the throbbing in her spine increased. And just as she was about to let out a horrid wretch of a scream she was silenced by a numbing sensation going through her body.
"This potion will help you numb the pain and have your wits returned, although your mobility will be constricted to just head movements for a short while."
Lily looked about her and sighed, realizing that James must have brought her to St. Mungo's. "James!" she cried out "Where is James? Is he all right?" Lily tried to get up and go search for him, but as the only part of her body she felt moving was her head and the slight twitching of her left big toe, the probability she would be able to get up and walk around were quite slim.
"Sshhh" Cassandra hissed on the edge of Lily's bed moving a piece of hair that had fallen over Lily's eyes "James has gone off to work to explain his absence these past few days,"
"How did you-"
"He told me now, shush. Dear, you absolutely have no obligation to answer the next question I am about to ask you. But if you would please, just for conversation's sake, what is your name."
Lily chuckled at the girl's nervous state "Lily Evans, and what is yours, if you dare to tell me?"
The girl smiled at her knowingly "Cassandra. I'm a medi-witch here at-"
"Cassandra? Your name is Cassandra?" Lily cried in stupefaction. She had been wondering why this girl had looked so familiar these past few moments, and she realized it was the Cassandra from the memory she had had.
Cassandra chuckled lightly "Yes, do you remember me, Lil?"
"No…well yes! I mean, I do now, but I didn't before. This is so wonderful. I just want to get up and do a dance but I bloody can't." She yelled through happiness and frustration at her temporary paralization.
Cassandra looked down at her confused, what does she mean she didn't remember her but now she did? But something else had been clouding her mind before this outburst.
"Lily, can I ask you something?"
Lily snorted "Sure, it's not as if I'm going anywhere." Cassandra grinned at the familiar dry humor
"What were you doing with James Potter?"
"What do you mean?" Lily felt a spot of pain in her spine indicating the potion was wearing off. So she attempted to push her self up to face Cassandra better, wanting an explanation to the question. Cassandra walked over and propped a pillow up behind lily's back making it more comfortable for her to sit up and move as little as possible.
"I mean when have you and James Potter been friends, let alone lovers?" Lily furrowed her brow in confusion. She knew that this girl was a friend, her memories and the kindly feelings towards her told her this. But why was she saying that her and James didn't like eachother in school?
"You two practically desp-"
"Hey lily-kins." Lily looked up as Sirius Black strolled through the door with a big grin. "James told me you were here, so I figured I might as well come in to check up on you, as my dilatoriness would not permit me to visit yesterday. So here I am. And who is this beautiful young witch?" Sirius looked over at Cassandra who's back was turned to him. Lily noticed how Cassandra's semblance seemed to diminish once Sirius addressed her. Her eyes had gone vapid as she stared hard the cotton white bed sheets, desperately trying to avert all attention from her. She begged that Sirius maybe wouldn't notice her. That if she somehow stood stock still and blended in with her surroundings he'd dismiss her as some figment of his imagination. Sirius' attention however was never averted from a pretty female specimen in the room.
"Oh come on I don't bite." He took her arm and spun her around quickly trying to surprise her or make her laugh, but the stock still face of Cassandra Grenelle staring back was no comfort to him.
"Cassy…?" Sirius looked from Cassandra to Lily's perplexed and now pained expression as the potion was almost fully worn off. Sirius pulled Cassandra out from Lily's room and whispered to her.
"What have you said to lily? Cassandra please tell me what you've told her." Cassandra tried to pull away from Sirius' firm grip but he wouldn't let her go. His intent was for James and lily's relationship at the moment, even though his heart was going at a rapid speed.
"Nothing of importance."
"What of your past together? Your friendship, what have you told her?"
"Why does it matter so much? What have you and James Potter done to her? Brainwashed her? How is it that Potter is in love with Lily Evans? The very Lily Evans who wouldn't date Potter if it were a choice between him and the giant squid, as I recall those were her exact words…" Sirius smirked at the memory of them by the lake, and the furious look on lily's face once James had asked her out.
"No, she was brainwashed before James fell in love with her. She inhaled Sonamos and for some reason her memory was erased." Sirius loosened his grip on her to make sure she knew he didn't mean to harm her
"You mean the gas from the attack? How is she still alive?"
"I know, most of the victims suffered fatal injuries, massive brain damage, or paralyzation. But I've never heard of Sonamos instigating memory loss. Anyway, James found her and brought her back to his flat to rest and once she woke up he moronically as he so correctly put it,-"
"Told her they were friends in school and that she was staying over to get away from family troubles." Sirius and Cassandra looked over a very worn very frenetic looking Remus Lupin. "Sirius if you are telling her to go along with this lie, then I am going to-"
"To what Moony? Break both their hearts? Look at the girl, she is madly in love with James and he is somehow madly in love with her."
"Somehow?" Cassandra snorted indignantly "I am astounded as to how Lily ever fell for a conceded, egotistical, prat like James. He was everything she's ever despised in a man, as she made quite clearly to you all back at Hogwarts." Cassandra was quite put off by these past events. She, like Lily's former self had always hated chauvinistic, narcissistic men. And the 'marauders' (James, Remus, and Sirius' group nickname in school) were the prime paragon of this type of man. They were irresponsible, unreliable, and just plain annoying.
"Was being the operative word, Cassy" he hissed out venomously using the nickname that she let only Lily call her. Except, Sirius figured out that she didn't like anyone else but Lily using the name, so he used it purposely just to get a rise out of her.
"Oh I'm so sure that in a matter of years he's undergone this dramatic change that could make him into a good person." She shot back sarcastically
"Try in a matter of weeks." Remus finally spoke up after Sirius had pushed him down. Cassandra raised her eyebrows in question looking at the sullen Remus. He had changed so much since the last time she saw him, which granted was almost a decade ago, but never-the-less they were still quite young. Remus looked to be 40 years older, at least in spirit. But Cassandra had always noticed this about Remus in the short period of time that she had known him.
"What?" she asked quietly, calming down slightly and looking over at Sirius. She was surprised to see a grim face meet hers. She turned back to Remus for an explanation.
He sighed in resignation and started by running his hands through his graying hair "After graduation something terrible happened to James' family. To all of them, but him."
"What happened?" Cassandra persisted at Remus' pause. He looked at her in enervation and continued
"They died." Cassandra put her hand over her mouth and gasped "Voldemort knew of James' families strong urges and fighting against his plot, and how they were making a difference. So the day of the commencement ceremony at Hogwarts they were killed. The next day James found them at home…mutilated. From then on his life really didn't have any meaning."
"He would go wandering aimlessly around all of London for days at a time. Sure once he got his job he was able to focus more. But he focused on the death and destruction of Voldemort and his Death Eaters." Sirius jumped in, recalling that horrible time in James' life.
"But we were worried because he was focusing on death all day long, no matter who's death it was, it was still death. And the thought of death constantly, would have driven him insane."
"No to sound pompous or anything, even though you think that every word out of my mouth is selfish and pompous, if it weren't for Remus and Peter and I, James would probably be dead."
Cassandra took all this in for a moment, staring at the floor, debating the situation. She looked up at Sirius with a firm face after a few moments and frowned. "Listen, I'm sorry about what happened to James and his family, I truly am, but that does not excuse the fact that he is toying with Lily's life. She has no memory of anything, of her friends, her home, her life, her job, which she did have one by the way. And probably doesn't anymore thanks to your mate. No matter what way you look at it, James is "
"But Cassy, they fell in love." Sirius tried to reason with her, taking her hand gently. Causing a rush of pain to sweep through the others hearts. "Surely, you know what blindness is involved with those circumstances."
"But Sirius, she fell in love with him, because she who he was. Do you honestly suspect that if Lily had woken up at James' flat and still had her memory, that the results would have been the same?"
Sirius didn't have an answer for that. He knew in his heart that James had been completely in the wrong with what he did. But the look on James' face when he was with Lily, or even talked about her, was all worth it. He hadn't seen James truly smile for such a long time, that it felt like the Prongs he knew, had died with his family that day. But now all of a sudden, once James saw the look on his face as he gazed into Lily's eyes, nothing was wrong in his life.
"Bollucks, am I bloody lucky that Moody didn't fire me." Cassandra, Remus, and Sirius looked up as James walked through a pair of swinging doors and headed towards Lily's room. His hair was even more ruffled than usual, and his face was as pale as a ghost. But as most people who work as Aurors under the command of Alastor Moody say; One look from Mad Eye Moody's Magical eye, and your soul will have jumped out of your body and gone to a mental institution.
They all stood there staring at him not knowing what to do, it was now up to Cassandra to decide whether Lily found out James' deceit. She didn't know how to handle it, what she truly needed was some time with Lily to estimate whether she was most definitely in love with James, or just under some sort of trick or prank. Cassandra put on her work ethics face and walked smiling over to James. Sirius and Remus stood with baited breath as she approached him.
"Mr. Potter." She smiled and shook his hand "Lily is doing fine, but I would like to have her stay for a little longer if you don't mind. There are a few more tests I would like to run before supplying you with a final corollary on her situation" she glanced over at Remus and Sirius at this last double meaning.
"No, not at all. In fact-" James eyes darted to where Cassandra's previously were, and they landed on Sirius and Remus. He smiled and walked over to them giving each a brotherly hug and handshake "Thanks for coming to watch over her, mates. It means a lot to me! When did you two arrive here?"
"Moments after you left sir, so why don't you and your friends go get a cup of coffee for about a half hour, than come back I'll tell you what I think. I also think that by then, Lily will be able to tell you for herself." James felt Remus and Sirius shift uncomfortably around him as they stared hard at the ground and diverted Cassandra's gaze. He felt something wasn't right, in a sort of omniscient sense. But he went along with her anyway.
"Can I see her for just a moment?" Cassandra nodded and let him in
"But only for a moment, sir" James smiled gratefully at her as he walked swiftly into the room and spotted Lily leaning against the bed. One hand on the bed for support, and the other massaging her forehead with a pained expression on her face.
James walked quietly in front of her and wrapped his arms around her body. He smiled guiltily as he felt her shiver with excitement at his touch.
"James." She whispered relaxing into his arms, and wincing as pain set through her body.
"Sshh. I'm here, you're all right." He put a hand under her chin and lifted her lips to his, kissing them softly, yet with a passion they both immersed each other in. As he pulled away and inched away from her body she frowned in question at him.
"I'll be back in a half hour." Lily grabbed his hand and pulled him back toward her body, preventing him from moving back towards the doors.
"Why do you even have to go? I want you to stay with me, James." Lily whispered as she lay her head on the crook between his neck and shoulder. James shuddered in titillation as she kissed his skin, but reluctantly pushed her away.
"Because the doctor says she needs to run a few more tests, then you'll be good as knew…and I can then take you home" he whispered huskily, causing her body to tremble. He forced a smile at her knowing lily knew he was putting it on just for good measure. So he gave her another hug and whispered in her ear "I love you." Then with a small nip at her loab he pulled away, making her squirm.
"I love you too." She grinned back tracing a line from his eyes to the soft crevices of his lips. James opened his mouth slightly and kissed her fingertips, relishing in the contact of skin between them.
"I'll see you later then." As he turned to leave he spotted the medi-witch Cassandra leaning against the door with a stunned look on her face.
"Are you all right?" James laughed to himself
She nodded not being able to verbalize her stunned thoughts. She had watched the loving exchange between James and Lily. And the part that stunned her most, was that the whole of it was loving. From the moment they had looked into each others eyes, Cassandra could feel the intense heat flowing between the two. In her most wildest dreams, she never had imagined Lily Evans and James Potter falling madly in love.
"I'll be back in a half hour Ms…"
"Grenelle." She replied still in a daze walking to check on Lily's vitals.
"Grenelle?" James asked as a light bulb went off in his head. He was about to ask if she meant the Cassandra that dissapeared form Hogwarts all those years ago. But Remus and Sirius, spotting the look of revelation grabbed him by the arms and walked him towards the coffee room, filling him in on what has been going on at work and in the world as James and Lily were in their emotional hibernations.
Once Cassandra had her wits about her again, and was sure that James was clearly out of hearing reach she actually noticed that Lily was out of bed "Lily you really should be in bed, you're putting pressure on your already weak legs by standing up." Lily rolled her eyes at Cassandra and climbed into the uncomfortable hospital bed. She watched as Casandra's facial expressions changed from shock, to acceptance than to amusement at lily's eye rolling.
"Cassandra, I can't remember much. But I remember you. I remember how much you meant to me, and how much it hurt when you left." Cassandra sat on the bed with a sigh. She knew this would have to come up eventually, especially if Lily remembered her from Hogwarts.
"You want to know why I left?" Lily nodded gently, not wanting to press the matter if Cassandra was uncomfortable "My family was murdered by Voldemort…you remember him ri-"
"Yes I remember Voldemort." Lily interrupted impatiently. Cassandra raised her eyebrow at Lily's rudeness but continued anyway
"So I had to move back to France to live with my aunt and uncle. Even though I had only lived in Hogwarts for a short period of time, I don't feel there was any other place in the world that I could feel so much at home. And I'm sorry for not writing, but I felt that if I wrote you, you would be in grave danger. Even more danger than from being a muggle born."
"Why did you think I'd be in danger if you wrote me? I mean, even if our owls were intercepted, it's not as if the ramblings of teenage girls would be of any consequence to Voldemort and his Death Eaters." Lily questioned, feeling hurt more by the minute, as the memories of hers and Cassandra's fun times started to leak back into her mind.
"I don't know Lil, all I know is that you were my best friend, no you were more like a sister to me, and losing you would just have been like losing my family all over again." Cassandra had taken Lily's hand and squeezed it tight, somewhat relieved to have gotten her friend back from the years of separation.
"So, that we've gone through that, what is the deal with James?" she started slyly
"What do you mean?"
'Well, when he came in here before I could have fried an egg in between you two, there was so much heat." Lily giggled at Cassandra's spat, but regretted it as pain went through her head. Cassandra noticed that her heart beat had accelerated on the monitors, so she went to give lily another dose of the pain killer.
"Oh no, if you paralyze me again, the moment I can move again I will cut your hands off."
"Lil it's the only thing I can give you for the pain." Cassandra tried to reason with her. She didn't need Lily going unconscience again once James returned.
"The pain will go away eventually, it did last time. What did Remus give me?" Cassandra frowned at her resistance
"Remus probably gave you an illustrious list of illegal potions. Granted you felt better but if used on a regular basis they could become addictive." Lily frowned at this discovery, so she laid back into bed, however still refusing the potion Cassandra wanted to give her. Cassandra reigned herself to Lily's stubborness and set out on her mission of judgment.
"Anyway, back to James…do you love him?" she cut right to the point
"I've never needed anyone as much as I need him. It's so strange though, because the moment I laid eyes on him, after I woke up at his flat that is, I felt an instant attraction. I mean, before this I don't think that I believed in real love."
"So how do you know if what you think is love isn't being mistaken for just a sexual attraction?" Cassandra had the memory loss potion in her right pocket and if she was convinced that Lily wasn't truly in love with James, her memory would be returned within moments of drinking the potion.
"I don't. All I know is that there are no words, other than love, to describe what I feel for him." Cassandra was beginning to doubt Lily's resolution.
"But lily, matters like this need time-"
"I think your being completely unfair Cassy." Lily sat up on the bad in defence, she didn't like how Cassandra was being so protective and interrogative.
"I'm just trying to make you see how long it truly takes people to fall in love, Lily."
"Listen Cassandra just because it took you years to realize you were in love with Sirius and are to cowardly to admit it-"
"Lily!" Cassandra jumped up from the bed, astonished that Lily had just remember that information and not felt any pain. Something was happening to her.
"No, you listen to me." Lily pushed herself out of the bed and stood facing Cassandra, again dismissing the fact that pain should have been shooting up her spine.
"When we were kids you told me that love was the most exciting experience in the world, you told me that it could happen to you over 50 years of knowing someone or within in an instance of looking into their eyes. I didn't believe you then. I thought it ridiculous for someone to trust their life with a person they've known for all of 1 minute. But now that I believe you, you're turning your back on it. It was your dream to fall in love and now that you have you won't even talk to him."
Cassandra knew it was too late to pass judgment on the reality of Lily's love for James. She knew that Lily was madly In love with him, but she also knew as she watched and listened to Lily's angry comments, that if her memory kept supplying her with blind memories to support her feelings, she wouldn't need the memory potion anymore.
Lily had stormed to the closet and pulled out the sweat pants and sweat shirt she had come to the hospital in and started to slip on the pants under her dress gown. Cassandra tried to calm her down, during this pause of Lily's vehement comments.
"Lily please, you can't go anywhere I haven't discharged you yet. All patients who are admitted to this ward must stay at least one night." Lily didn't answer her, she just continued to get dressed and glare at Cassandra every now and then.
"I'm sorry for whatever I said that made you upset Lil, but I'm just trying to look after you. I-"
"I know what this is about." Lily said gravely as she slowly walked towards Cassandra
"You do?" she asked in disbelief
"Yes. You're mad at yourself, and your taking it out on me."
"Mad at myself?" Cassandra gaped at the incredulous comments coming out of Lily's mouth
"Yes, you're mad yourself because you've fallen in love with an ignorant, dimwitted pig. You know what we thought of Sirius."
"Oh dear godric…" Cassandra murmured as Lily's complete confusion came into reality, her anger building up as lily continuously insulted Sirius.
"Your mad because I now have the most wonderful person in the world to spend the rest of my life with and you-"
"Shut up!" Cassandra cried pushing Lily against the wall, and not caring what kind of pain she was in. Lily wasn't only being lied to, but the love she felt for James was so unreal that it made her deviated. The lies mixed in with the truth her mind was feeding her had made her become incomprehensible.
"Hey what's going on in here?"
Cassandra looked to the door to see James, Remus and Sirius staring at the girls in shock and confusion. They had been keeping James from the room as long as possible, but the Cassandra's last name had sparked a curiosity and worry in him, so they had to go back. What James saw made his blood boil with anger. Lily was smashed against the depressing white walls of the hospital room with Cassandra's right hand squeezed about her throat.
Cassandra looked at James' livid face and rivaled his with her own. "I'm not sorry for doing this. But you should be! You depleted with this girls mind, a mind that held truth and meaning, and beliefs. You have altered everything she has grown to be, to what you wanted her to be!" Cassandra shrieked at James. She took her left hand and placed it inside her pocket extracting a small vivid blue bottle, no bigger than a shot glass.
"I will not have my best friend used by a disgusting, conceded, toe-rag like you, prongs!" she spat out taking the lid off of the bottle and putting it to Lily's mouth. She was ready to force feed it to her if Lily wouldn't except it. But Cassandra's anger stopped as she saw Lily's appalled face. But her eyes weren't in the direction of Cassandra, they were focused on James. So Cassy let down both hands and watched as Lily, trembling with fear and anger walked over to James.
"Prongs…" she said quietly "That's what they called you in school." She nodded to Remus and Sirius "Peter too, he called you that. I hated those stupid names. I hated whenever you used them and thought you were to cool to pay any attention to any other being on the planet, let alone the school. I hated the way you all went through girls as if they were nothing but a breeze in the air. I hated…" she stopped herself for a moment and held onto the bed post for support, as her anger now was so full of power that it had diminished the fear and was making her weaker by the moment. Lily rose her eyes and drew them level to James' now tear filled eyes.
"I hated you." She whispered, fury lining every syllable
"L-Lily-" James started to walk towards her, just wanting to touch her. But with each step he took she took one backwards.
"Don't touch Me." she screeched "You…you…" Lily took a deep, raspy breath, trying desperately to quell her malevolence. "You lied to me."
James felt his heart break within his chest.
A/N: DON'T KILL ME PLEASE!! I BEG OF YOU! I know you are all hating me right now because I haven't updated for so long, and I'm sure now your hating me even more for giving you another cliff hanger. Please keep reading, I don't care if you review or not, I just want people to read this story this literally came from the depths of my heart. Thank you to everyone who has read, and reviewed or not.
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notfredrt91: I'm pretty sure it's mostly cold in England most of the year as it is to the north. Hey don't shut yourself up, people should be able to say whatever they want, even if it is a little quirky. How else could you explain me? Thanks for the review and keep reading please!
Lilbird: Your wish has been granted, except…he hasn't really said anything…tsk tsk naughty James. I hope you like this chapter!