Disclaimer: A.S.P owns all the characters I'm using for this fiction.
Just friends
Part 8
She stood in front of the diner, the sign on the door said closed but the lights were on, she put her hand on her stomach and took a deep breath
she walked into the diner just like she did 2 months, looking around, smelling the smell of the best coffee in Connecticut, it was late, the sound of the bell, she thought, must have been heard, where is he?
"We're closed" he yelled from the kitchen
"But I need coffee and I've traveled from far away for this particular one…" she yelled back
"Rory…" he said and came out of the kitchen
"Hi"
"Hi, yourself…" he said in an angry tone, he was mad at her, for leaving without saying goodbye, for not calling him for 2 months
"You're upset…"
"What an amazing observation…"
"I'm sorry"
"What are you doing here?"
"Didn't I just say what I'm doing here…?"
"You know what I mean…"
"Yeah, well I came to visit, took some time off from the writing"
"Your mom didn't say anything"
"She doesn't know I'm here, and she's not at home so I figured…"
"I don't know where she is"
"What do you mean?"
"She said she had to work, she didn't come for dinner so I don't know where she is…"
"Oh… so how about that coffee…"
"Sit down I'll make you some"
"Thanks… can you make that decaf…?" she sat down, she looked at him when he was with his back to her 'god I missed him' she thought
"Decaf? What are they doing to you in New York?"
"Nothing, I just thought it was time to quit…"
"Well that's good… so how's the book coming…?"
"Slowly… I never thought it could be so hard"
"Well if any one can do it, it's you…" he poured her some coffee and went around the counter to sit on a stool next to her facing her
"Thanks" she said turning to face him
"So how is everything else?"
"Everything is fine, the usual"
"Good, good…"
"Well this is weird"
"Yeah, a little…"
"Maybe I should go"
"What? Why?"
"I thought it'll be easier" she got up "I was wrong"
"I'm sorry…" he put his hand on her arm "you want to go home?"
"I think its best if I did…"
"o.k."
"Thanks for the coffee… bye…" and she left, her eyes red, she thanked god she managed to hold her tears till she was out
She got to the house and sat on the sofa in the dark till she heard some one at the door
"Mom…"
"Rory…? When did you get here?" she jumped her
"A few minutes ago… get off will you…"
"You went to Luke's… I can smell his coffee… god I need coffee"
"Here take some of mine…" she took a sip
"Eww… Rory, are you trying to kill me… this is decaf…"
"Ohh, sorry, forgot for a second…"
"Since when do you drink decaf…? So what are you doing here and why didn't you say you were coming, I have to hide all your baby posters I hung around town…"
"Very funny mom…"
"It was… don't lie…"
"So how are things?" she asked sitting next to her on the couch
"The usual"
"Nothing new, exciting? How's the book?"
"Fine, its fine"
"So, hungry? I brought some leftovers"
"No I'm fine you go ahead"
"I need coffee…" she said dialing the phone
"Halo"
"Hey there mister…"
"Hey"
"What are you doing?"
"Nothing…"
"Wanna come?"
"I don't think I should come tonight"
"But I need coffee…"
"So come here, I'll make you some"
"Luke…"
"I just don't want her to feel weird you know, and you guys should spend some time together…"
"Why are you so sweet?"
"Stop it"
"Thank you"
"It's fine"
"I'll see you in the morning"
"Just follow the smell…"
"You know I will"
"Good night"
"Night"
the truth is he couldn't be with Lorelai around Rory, he sat on his couch looking at his hand remembering how good he felt when she held him "oh Rory" he said aloud "if I could only make things easier on you" he knew she wanted to hug him when she came to the diner, to feel him, but he couldn't do that to her, hold her, it would only make her hurt more, he took the book that was lying on the table and held it, he missed her, her jokes, her hands, her smile… he put the book down, turned off the lights and went to bed.
In the morning Lorelai woke up and went to Rory's room, she wasn't there… she found her sitting in the kitchen drinking tea
"Honey? You look pale… what's the matter?"
"I threw up"
"Are you sick?"
"I don't know… I guess its something I ate…"
"I tell you it's the decaf… mommy told you since you were 4… never drink decaf… but you are a grown up now… you don't listen…"
"Yeah… a grown up…"
"You want me to drive you to the doctor?"
"No, I'm fine I just drink this tea and rest for a while…"
"o.k.… I gotta go get some breakfast before I head to the inn, I'll call you later o.k.?"
"Sure"
"By hon"
"Bye"
"Good morning sunshine" she said to Luke when she went into the diner
"Morning…"
"Just coffee to go, I'm late"
"Coming right up"
"Rory is sick"
"What? Sick how?"
"She threw up this morning"
"Probably something she ate…"
"Or drank… what were you thinking giving her decaf…?"
"She asked for it… at least some one in this family got brains…"
"Funny man…"
"Here…" he handed her the coffee
"Bye…"
"Bye"
Rory sat at home all day… she felt better, after all it was only morning sickness, she got use to those, 'if I could only find a way' she thought 'to get out of this mess' a sound of a car pulling at the drive way broke her from her thoughts 'it cant be mom, its only one'
She opened the door to find Luke on the porch
"Hi"
"Hi"
"I brought you some soup, your mom said you were sick…"
"I'm fine now, thanks"
"So can I come in?"
"Amm, sure, yeah, come in"
They went inside and he did his way to the kitchen and poured the soup into a bowl
"Here"
"Thanks" she took it and went to the living room, he followed her and sat next to her on the couch
"This is good" she said trying to cut the silent
"Thanks"
"You feel better?"
"Yeah"
"I missed you…" he said suddenly
"Luke don't do this"
"I did"
"I think you should go"
"I just said I missed you… what's the big deal?"
"Please go" she choked, trying to stop herself from crying
"Rory? Are you o.k.?"
"Luke please… go away…"
He took the bowl out of her hands and put it on the table
"Come here" he said quietly gathering her to him, holding her
"I missed you so much"
"Shh… come down…"
"You have to go…"
"Why?"
"Because I can't do this…" she pulled away from his touch
"Do what?"
"Luke, please… I need you to go…"
"Fine" he gave in and got up, she didn't look at him and he just left her there crying till she fell asleep
"Rory honey, wake up…"
"What time is it?"
"4… how are you feeling?"
"Better"
"I see that Luke brought you some soup… that was nice of him…"
"Mom… I need to talk to you"
"Sound serious…"
"Please don't hate me…" she started crying again
"Oh honey… what's wrong?"
"Oh mom… you have to believe me I never planed for this to happen…"
"What is it honey?"
"I'm pregnant…"
"What? How…? When… forget when, who…?"
"Please don't hate me…"
"Rory…?" she said searching for answer in her eyes
"Please don't hate me…"
"Oh my god..." she said finely reading between the lines
"Mom?"
"This isn't happening…"
"Mom…"
"Rory… why…?"
"I'm sorry"
"o.k., you need to stop crying it's not good for the baby…"
"Please don't hate me…"
"Oh Rory… I don't hate you… when did you find out?"
"2 weeks ago"
"And you're telling me now…?"
"I almost had an abortion…"
"Oh Rory…"
"I had an appointment, I was there but when they called my name I just couldn't do it… I couldn't…"
"Shh sweetie, come down… its going to be alright…"
"It took me 2 weeks to get the nerve to even come here…"
"I'm glad you did…"
"Mom what's gonna happen now?"
"Rory, I need to tell you something… to…"
"Oh my god you're pregnant to…"
"No… God no…"
"What then…?"
"I think he loves you…"
"What?"
"Its not going so well… we tried… it's just not the same…"
"What do you mean?"
"everything is different, he's different… the kissing, and the sex… and his attitude… its like he's not here… and I tried to call you and talk to you about it but I thought, maybe its just a faze, you know, maybe he just needed time to adjust… but I was wrong… and now this, maybe it's a sign… and the other day I went to his apartment and he didn't notice but I saw the book lying there on the bed…"
"What book?"
"Jane Eyre… he misses you, and he thinks about you all the time I can tell… I know him…and I'm thinking, it's my fault, I missed the train… you know… I let him go and he moved on… and now this… maybe I had it coming…"
"Mom… I'm sorry…"
"Don't be sweetie… now its time for me to step aside… to let you be happy…"
"You can't…"
"I have to… for you… and for him… and for this little one here…" she rubbed Rory's stomach "I'm done hurting the people I love, I cant do this to you, and… and as much as I wanted it… well he wants you and its not working out between us… I'm happy for you… I'm going to be a grandma…"
"But you love him…"
"He's changed… I loved him for who he was when he loved me… all those things he did for me… the love in his eyes… its gone… and you know me… I need some one who loves me…"
"I'm sorry mom"
"Don't be… go to him… I know he wants you to…"
"Did he really have the book…?"
"oh, yeah… you see Luke Danes can not read Jane Eyre… his image is all ruined"
"I think it's cute…"
"Well you would… now to the fun part of being pregnant… pizza or Chinese?"
"Pizza… definitely…" suddenly Lorelai started to giggle "what now?"
"Tell me something… have you thought about Emily's face when she hears this…?"
"Oh my god…"
"Exactly… I have to have a camera for this one… this is so good… Rory, honey, love of my life, thank you… thank you… thank you…"
"History repeats itself…"
"Well not quite… you are 25 and you graduated from Yale… this could get you some soft spots in there hearts…"
"Very funny… to have a kid with one of your ex's… they're gonna love this one…"
"Oh, cheer up, at least we get to see Emily Gilmore in action… in all her glory…"
"I'm dead…"
"So would that call for a celebration? Should I order some Ben and Jerry's with that pizza?"
"You're nuts…"
"Just taking care of that little one…"
"Sure, fine, whatever… I'll just sit here figuring a way to tell Luke about this…"
Lorelai ordered the pizza and kept talking about Emily's face, after they ate, Rory got dressed and headed to Luke's
"Wish me luck…"
"You don't need luck with that killer smile of yours…"
"I'll be back later…"
"No you won't…"
"What…?"
"You wont… you're spending the night there…"
"I am not…"
"We'll see about that…"
"Mom?"
"Yes sweets?"
"thank you for being you…"
"Thank you for giving me a grandson and a chance to see Emily in a sequel to 'mom I'm pregnant'…"
"You're crazy…"
"And you love me…"
"I do… very much…"
"Hey Rory? Could you do something for me?"
"Sure Mom, what is it?"
"Could you tell him I'm o.k. with it and that I'm happy for you guys?"
"Sure mom… I will…"
"Come on now, go make him happy…"
"Bye mom…"
What she was going to say, she didn't know, but she was going to him… to her very own Mr. Rochester.
Its gonna be all Rory and Luke next.
She's going to tell him. How will he take it?
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