A/N: R&R!

All the Times That I Could beg you Please

Buffy woke slowly. She yawned once and opened her eyes. She screamed and fell from her bed onto a hard cement floor. She looked around her

'What am I doing in Spike's crypt?' She thought. She stood to her feet shakily, but leaned against the bed as she was overcome by a rush of memories. New memories rushing in with here old ones.

Drinking blood, being turned, fighting with Spike who was the...Slayer?! This wasn't right, these things never happened to her. 'What the hell happened?!' Her mind was screaming. There was a light knock on the crypt door,

"It's open," Buffy called.

Kerri carefully slipped in and closed the door behind her. "Hello Buffy." She said softly.

"Kerri what the hell is going on? Something happened right?" Buffy was panicking now.

"Yea, something happened." She said in the same soft calm voice.

"Well what!" Buffy yelled.

"I did a spell," She said, "You and Spike switched lives now, but you're the only one who knows."

"You did what!" Buffy shrieked "Why the hell would you do that?!"

"I think you need to know how Spike feels, and how he has to live." She said calmly still, "You have a beautiful home, he has nothing, and you make sure of that. I told him I'd make this world a little bit better for him, so you need to live his life. You're going to need a revelation to change back."

"It's not like he has any feelings!" Buffy yelled.

"I guess you'll find out, won't you." Kerri said with a small smile, quietly walking out the door again.

Buffy was freaking out know, she had no idea what to do, she couldn't live his life.

Across town William "Spike" Summers woke up to the sound of his sister's voice.

"Will!" She called, "Wake up! There's no food!"

Spike groaned and rolled over in his bed. He could hear Dawn's feet racing up the stairs. His door slammed open and Dawn belly-flopped onto his bed.

"Wake up Spike!" She yelled in his ear.

Spike shoved her off his bed. But she hopped back up.

"Fine, I'm awake." He grumbled, sitting up, making Dawn get off the bed to stand on the floor. He swung his feet over the edge, and ruffled his already messy curly brown hair.

"Nice hair Frodo," Dawn quipped.

Spike looked at her oddly, "Frodo?" He asked, looking at his feet.

"You know," Dawn explained once he looked back up, "British guy, big blue eyes, messy curly brown hair, little ringlets everywhere?" She said, moving her fingers around in little circles by her temples for example.

"You've gotta' stop watching those movies." Spike said standing and shuffling to the shower.

"Na'," Dawn called, "Legolas is way to hot!"

"Who?" Came the reply. "The elf! I thought you read the books!" She yelled exasperated now. She could hear the water turn on. "Oh, the blonde one? And that was awhile ago." Spike yelled.

"Yes, the blonde!"

"He's a-" Spike started to say, but Dawn cut him off.

"Shut it Will, there's no food, what should I do?"

"Hold on, we'll go out alright?" He called.

"K!" Dawn yelled, bouncing to her room.
Kerri looked up from her make-up when she heard a knock on her door. "Come in," She said.

"Hi Ker," Dawn said, coming in and sitting down by her.

"What's up?" Kerri asked, going back to applying eyeliner.

"Nothing really," Dawn said, "There's no food, so Will's taking us out."

"Alright."

"What're you doing?" Dawn asked pointing at the streaks Kerri had drawn coming down from her eyes.

"Dunno'," Kerri said, "Just playing around."

Dawn shrugged "Cool, Will should be done soon, so let's go."

Kerri put her stuff down, and fallowed Dawn out the door.
That night the gang was sitting at the magic box.

Buffy pushed the door open and walked in.

Spike stood up, "Buffy get out of here."

Buffy was surprised by how quickly she was jumped on. She looked around at here friends, but all she could see was hatred. She really couldn't believe this. 'But Spike deserves it,' She thought.

"Buffy," Spike said harshly, "Get. Out."

"Why should I?" She blurted out.

Spike stalked up close to her, "Because there's nothing you can do to hurt me, but there's a lot I can do to hurt you."

Buffy spit in his face then spun out the door.
"Buffy help me!" Spike called out to her. He was being attacked by all kinds of monsters, and even humans. He sat huddled up, unable to fight back.

Buffy ran to help, but when she got there, the monsters where gone.

Spike lay on his side, cut and bruised, lying in a pool of his own blood. He looked into her eyes, "Why didn't you save me?" He asked.

She opened her mouth to respond, but in a flash of light, his body was gone, and she was in a deep forest.

"Buffy!" Spike's voice called out to her again.

Buffy wandered through the forest until she found him.

"Buffy!" He called out even though she was right in front of him.

"Buffy help me!" He was crying now.

"Spike, I'm here, I'm right here!" She said to him.

"Buffy, I'm lost! Help me please!" He fell to his knees in desperation.

"Spike can't you see me? I'm right here!" She told him.

"Buffy!" He let out one more strangled yell before sobbing into his hands.

She reached out for him, but before she could reach him, the flash of light came again.

Spike was in a wheelchair sitting alone in a room.

Drusilla and Angelus walked through the door together, fused at the mouth.

Spike rolled his eyes. "Back I see," He said.

"Still useless I see," Angelus smirked.

Spike tried to catch Dru's eye, but she just had a look of disgust.

Angelus grabbed the handles of the chair and flipped Spike out.

As they walked out Buffy stared as Spike tried to get back in, when the light flashed again.

Spike was pacing his crypt, "God why do I even try?" He said.

"Spike?" Buffy said, walking in front of him, but he walked right through her.

"I'm useless, I can't feed, I'm in love with the Slayer,"

Buffy gasped.

"Why should I even go on anymore, I'm just a waste of space." With that he picked up a stake and rammed it through his heart.

"No Spike!" Buffy screamed as he disintegrated. "I love you!"

Buffy sat straight up in her bed in the crypt. "No..."