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A/N: Thanks for the reviews, ideas popped into my head, and now the story will make you go gasp! because I enjoy doing that! So here it goes, the gasp! chapter.

I Leave my Burdens at the Door

Spike woke up, and tumbled off his bed onto the floor. "Ow," He groaned. He had one hell of a hangover, and that really hadn't helped. "Ok, no more drinking..." He lied to himself. That had been one messed up dream.

(A/N: Gasp!)

He'd thought Buffy was...Hot?! And he loved her, and she loved him, and Kerri was there, and the snow...

"Too much thinking, Advil now," He said, standing up unsteadily. He looked at the bottles spread around his room. 'Advil, shower, coffee.' He wandered down the hall to the bathroom, and almost ran into Dawn as she exited it.

She winced at him, and waved her hand in front of her nose, "Whoa, Will, you've had a whole half already!"

"I am burning that movie..." He grumbled at her.

"Don't blame Lord of the Rings for your drinking issues, now take a shower," She pushed him lightly into the bathroom, "You stink."

Kerri sat in her room, quietly hoping her little spells worked. So she fiddled around in Buffy and Spike's subconscious, nothing she hadn't done to other people. So now they both said they loved each other, in their dreams.

And the only little mix-up is that she'd accidentally put herself in Spike's dream, but nothing to bad. Her friends didn't call her Aine (A/N: Celtic goddess of love) because she messed up spells. She was going to get those two together. She still didn't know why she cared so much though.

'Damn empathy...' She lit up a candle, when a knock on her door distracted her, "Come in," She said, without realizing she had all her spell things out.

Dawn walked in "Kerri-" Dawn started, "What's all this stuff?"

Kerri quickly realized her mistake, "Ummm," 'I could tell her, it wouldn't matter.' She thought. "Dawn I need to tell you something."

"Wow..." Dawn said for the fifteenth time, "So this is really an alternate universe..."

"Yup," Kerri responded.

"And only you, Buffy, and now I know."

"Yes."

"Interesting..." Dawn quipped.

"You're taking this amazingly well," Kerri said.

Dawn shrugged, "You get used to it."

Spike stumbled into the kitchen to see Dawn and Kerri already there. 'Does that girl ever sleep?' He thought looking at Kerri.

"Good morning William," She said politely, "How's your hangover?"

Dawn snorted into her cereal.

Spike glared at her, but smiled when she slid a cup of coffee down to him.

"So," Kerri said, "Any interesting dreams you wanna' share?"

Spike almost spit his coffee out.

Dawn giggled again.

Spike raised his eyebrow at his sister, "Ker," He asked, "Did you give Dawn coffee?"

"No," She said innocently, "Why do you ask?"

Dawn started laughing so hard she almost fell off her seat.

"No reason..."

Buffy paced around her crypt. She had actually drunk blood, major ew. Well it had tasted ok, but...It was the principle of the thing. How could Spike drink something so disgusting, he was so nasty and-

"I'm going to be a vampire forever!" Buffy whined. Her door suddenly slammed open, and Xander walked in.

"Hi Xander." She said plainly.

Xander gave her a quizzical look. "Xander?" He asked her.

Her eyes opened wide, hoping she hadn't made a huge mistake. "That's your name isn't it?" She asked, trying to keep her cool.

"Yeah," He said narrowing his eyes, "But no whelp? No sidekick? Just Xander?"

She quickly scanned her brain for an excuse, "Yeah...I guess I'm trying to be nicer..." She mentally smacked herself. That was the worst excuse ever! "And you have stupid hair." Maybe not the worst...

"Nicer," Xander said in disbelief, "Right..."

"Umm," Buffy said, trying to get past this part, "What do you need?"

Xander gave her another weird look, but asked his question. "Have you seen Spike?"

"No." Buffy said easily.

"What do you mean no?" Xander asked.

Buffy's eyebrows shot up, 'What?' She thought. "I mean no," She said, "I have not seen Spike."

"Are you lying?" Xander asked.

"Why would I lie about if I saw Spike?" Buffy asked, "Where'd he go?"

"If I knew that I wouldn't be in this hell-hole asking you." Xander said.

'Is he always this big of a jerk?' Buffy thought. "Look," She said, "I don't know where he is alright? So just get out of my house ok?"

Xander laughed, "Yeah, nice house."

"I can't exactly get money to get a real one can I?" She asked him. 'He can't can he,' Buffy thought.

"You could just leave." Xander told her.

She walked over to the door and held it open for him, "You first," She quipped.

Xander glared at her, "You're useless." He said, then stalked out into the night.

She slammed the door as hard as she could, trying to get the last comment to be deafened from her ears. But it rang louder than the door did. How many times had she told Spike that? Her vision started to blur, and she felt a pang in her chest.

She put a hand over her heart, "Ow..." She fell into the easy chair, and stared at the ceiling. 'Maybe I won't be a vampire forever,' she thought. Then something popped into her head. She jumped up and grabbed her coat. She had to see Kerri.

(A/N: Next chapter will be longer...I keep saying that don't I...Give me ideas!)