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Chapter two
Love & Lost
Well, here I am again, thinking. Maybe I should pick up another hobby. Why am I kidding myself? I know I half like this thinking thing. Hey, I just answered a "why question," possibly the extra studding is making me smarter.
I'm thinking that is probably better that I never knew my parents because the lose would have been harder. I mean, when I head their voices inside my head when dementors were near it hurt, it was so painful. Hear their last words; I was so close to them, yet so far away. It hurt worse when I saw them in the Mirror of Erised, because I actually saw my current self standing with them. Though more than the pain I felt guilt, they were my greatest desire because I never met them because they died for me, stupid, little me.
Also the more I learn about them from photographs and their old friends I mean old friend it makes me lust after them more. I want to know them, to hug them.
After Sirius - um- went away I realized how painful it would have been o know them. I mean, it would have been painful to love them and lost them. I do love them , do not get me wrong, but loving a person, their character, personality, and time together compared to loving and person that you are told is great and who they were and their image with no first-hand experience is different.
Merlin, I hate thinking, my thoughts are like a paradox. You know the saying, "It is better to have love and lost then never love at all. "That is not true. If had never loved, I would have never felt the anguish I feel now, and the anguish I have felt before, and will feel in the future, but the love and pain are part of me and have made me who I am today. Seriously I am a paradox
Second chapter done. No one reviewed my first chapter. I feel horrible. If no one likes this I probley stop the story.
Chapter two
Love & Lost
Well, here I am again, thinking. Maybe I should pick up another hobby. Why am I kidding myself? I know I half like this thinking thing. Hey, I just answered a "why question," possibly the extra studding is making me smarter.
I'm thinking that is probably better that I never knew my parents because the lose would have been harder. I mean, when I head their voices inside my head when dementors were near it hurt, it was so painful. Hear their last words; I was so close to them, yet so far away. It hurt worse when I saw them in the Mirror of Erised, because I actually saw my current self standing with them. Though more than the pain I felt guilt, they were my greatest desire because I never met them because they died for me, stupid, little me.
Also the more I learn about them from photographs and their old friends I mean old friend it makes me lust after them more. I want to know them, to hug them.
After Sirius - um- went away I realized how painful it would have been o know them. I mean, it would have been painful to love them and lost them. I do love them , do not get me wrong, but loving a person, their character, personality, and time together compared to loving and person that you are told is great and who they were and their image with no first-hand experience is different.
Merlin, I hate thinking, my thoughts are like a paradox. You know the saying, "It is better to have love and lost then never love at all. "That is not true. If had never loved, I would have never felt the anguish I feel now, and the anguish I have felt before, and will feel in the future, but the love and pain are part of me and have made me who I am today. Seriously I am a paradox
Second chapter done. No one reviewed my first chapter. I feel horrible. If no one likes this I probley stop the story.