Chapter 3

I'm Sorry

Aki: This chapter is dedicated to GinnylovesHarry, my only reviewer. (which is kind of depressing) I like this chapter more than the first two. I hope you like it.

Mum, Dad, Sirius, Cedric, the ones who have suffered, and the ones who have felt pain from the death of others at my hands, please listen. I am so, so sorry as you can't believe.
I am so selfish. I just realized I am not the only one who has to deal with pain. And the pain others had to suffer because of me.
People's children, parents, siblings, cousins, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, friends, spouses, co-workers, grandparents, and grandkids. They have also lost, directly or indirectly my fault or not my fault at all.
Like the Diggory's. Their only son only child died because of me. When I talked to Cedric's parents after he died they could have well blamed me, but they did not. Their suffering moved them beyond tears or words. You know what they did; they thanked me for bringing his body back when they could have accused me of having blood on my hands. Those are some good people.
Or Neville. He has his parents, but they are unable to recognize him. He is so close to having them, but falls just inches short. That is probably harder then my situation. I do not know how he kept that pain a secret; he is smarter than it appears.
Neville's grandmother probably has that pain in her stiffness. Maybe being strict is used to cover up her pain or may be her pain turned her strict. Maybe she used to lovely and kind, beautiful and homely, but when she lost her son and daughter-in-law to madness it turned her cold and hard as a rock. Grave and bitter, taking all the shine out of her eyes and replacing it with stiffness, hiding behind a mask of resentment. Maybe, just maybe that is what causes her to be so hard. I just hope I do not let pain turn me hard because I want to have something to live for...
I also want to smile.

Aki: Did you like it? Harry is still moping around, but there is a happy ending. He is realizing he is not the only one to lose people he cares for. Pleeze review if you read this. There is a little blue square button that says 'GO' on it that you need to click.