Chapter 5

Sirius Thoughts

Another chapter, the title is a pun. Do you get it? Sirius thoughts as in thinking about Sirius Black, but also like serious thoughts. You probably got it without an explanation so... read.

Hermione and Ron are showing signs of wanting to talk about my godfather. Sometimes I can tell their speeches have been rehearsed. Hermione always brings him up subtly, so I almost get sucked into it. She is very clever I give her that. Ron is more blunt. He will change the subject radically, it almost5 makes me laugh. He never gets it to work, but you got to love the guy. He does care.

When either Ron or Hermione, mostly Hermione, successfully bring up the topic I get all silent and pretend not to hear. When they have had their say and are waiting for my reply it usually is continuing the previous subjecCht or something about Quiditch. They get the point and stop, though look extremely disappointed. A point for pure stubbornness.

If I was to say something, which I am not, I would tell them that they don't understand. I mean, Sirius was not their godfather, he was mine. I miss him the most, because I knew him the best. Sirius was the closest thing to a parent I ever had. Hermione and Ron have parents. Their was a feeling I got from him that I got from no one else.

Sure, Mrs. Weasley is great, I know she loves me a lot, but she has her own kids and it is not the same.

I connected with Sirius a way I have not connected with any other adult. I could tell what he was feeling from the sound of his voice or the look on his face. I know he could do the same for me. Even though we only knew each other for a little while, we were like brothers. Brothers and best friends almost like a dad, or what I guess a dad would be like. I would not know I never had a one or least a dad I can remember.

I won't say this to Hermione because she would probably protest and I do not want to yell at her or Ron like last year.
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