In a Hero's Head

by Aki and Tenshi

Harry's had a bad life. In and Before Harry's 6th Year what does he think and how does he feel about loss, love, life, and friends. Pre HBP and Pre before i knew how to write. My other HP fics are better than this one, so read those instead. By Aki.

11. great friends

Chapter 11

Great Friends

Second to last chapter. Here it is. Hope you like. Please review when your done reading.

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Well Hermione and Ron have successfully gotten me to talk about Sirius. I told them how I felt and tried to keep my temper. Emphases on the tried. They said they understood how I felt about losing Sirius, but I did not have to keep my feelings inside all the time. That they lost Sirius too, and even if they could not understand they would try to. Actually it was More Hermione that said that, not Ron.

I told them a lot of other things too, like how I don't like people keeping secrets from me, especially when I can be trusted with them. We made a deal, if I don't keep my feelings inside hey wouldn't keep secrets.

Hermione and Ron, well more Ron, were shocked when I told them that I felt like an outsider and a murderer. Ron attempted to comfort me in some way, but Hermione really got to me.

She said every one feels like an outsider sometime in their life and it is only natural and that she has felt like an outsider for being a Know-it-all. Ron added in that he had felt that way because he was poor and that know one can ever completely fit in everywhere And as for being a murderer that it was self-defense and that I was trying to save others at the same time. And that they deserved it.

What touched me the most is what Hermione said when I told her about wondering if my parents would love me, "Any decent person, and your parents were better than decent, love their kids no matter what. You could be a book-worm, a jock, a bully, or a mischief-maker, but you are always perfect in your parents' eyes, you're always their angel. I also know," tears were welling up in her eyes; she was speaking passionately, not know-it-allish, "that you are a great person and it seems almost impossible that anyone could not love you." Around here Ron's mouth was gaping as he added an 'amen'. That made me laugh the first laugh in a long time.

I have great friends. I should share more so I don't feel so alone. That statement was what I needed for reassurance. Hermione can speak miracles. They are the best friends ever.