by: darkestbeforedawn
summary: the undeniable question of 'what-if'. what if...? [hana x tohru] [shoujo ai]
dedication: to those closet hana x torhu fans-- you know why you are! -winks- and those who are patiently waiting for me to move my ass with 'fumbling towards ectasy' -bows- this is for you guys!
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The color black wasn't my favourite in the spectrum. One, because black wasn't a color, and neither was white. But they were always thought in pairs, black and white, dark and light, what is 'good', and what is 'bad'.
They were the opposites of each other, and it was so much easier to think of it that way. So much easier..
She was the blinding and beautiful light to me, you can say. Everything about her made me think of the sun, and it's ever shining light. Her eyes [the way it was sky blue], her skin [the way it was just barely tanned], and her smile... [the way it made me want to protect her so].
I love her. It's not like I could deny it even if I could choose, because I'm not one to hide anything.
But I'm not one to reveal the truth either. Those who wish to know, will eventually come and ask.
I won't deny them the truth, but that doesn't mean I don't have my secrets.
If she was the blinding light, in which truth was always revealed and the kindness of everyone, even those who were to frightened to believe they had that were shown, then...
I am willing to be her darkness. The biting, the retched, the creeping, and the ever-present darkness that turned all that was beautiful into something ugly and hated by all, the embodiment of that which possessively hid all that was truth.
But they never bothered to ask, did they?
Black wasn't my favourite color. White was, but if she was to be it, then I am willing to be her black, so I may always be with her.
And then.. maybe there will be grey.
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R&R please!