They all sat in the band's practicing-room in the dungeons, eating their pizza, when spike stood up and knocked the chair over „What the hell...?"

Everybody just stared at him in surprise. Hermione found her voice first "What's the matter, Spike?"

He ignored her and stared at the others instead "Does he always do this?"

Everybody just stared.

"Does he always cut the fuckin' pizza in seven pieces?"

Sydney laughed "Whoa, Spike... Never ever again shock me this way! Yeah, Alex ever makes seven pieces. He says it's 'the ideal shape for a pizza' if he makes seven exactly same looking pieces... did you never notice?"

"I never shared"

"Oh... right"

Tricia still seemed to not-understand-anything "What the fuck is the problem, spike?"

He ran his fingers through his hair and walked from one wall to the other and back again. "How... Fuck, how do you share your fuckin' pizza?"

Rick sighed "Look, it's really easy: Sydney eats four pieces today and next time, Trish will eat four and then Syd again and so on... And Ginny and me... Well, Ginny said four pieces were too much for here and she just wanted three and that's it. No big thing"

Spike stared at him for a moment "Yeah... right" He turned to face Hermione again "So, the last one seems to be mine, pet"

Hermione stared into his silvery blue eyes "You wish"

Spike came over to her "It's fucking my piece, Granger"

"No bleedin' way, Ferret"

"As I hear 'bleeding way'... you can have it like this, if you want"

"No. I don't want your blood over my piece of pizza" They stood there for a while, staring into each others eyes, until Tricia just rolled with her eyes, stepped between the both and ate the last bit of pizza.

Hermione and Spike stared at her, then back at one another

"Did she just eat our pizza?"

"Yeah"

"What shall we do with her?"

"Well... What about... Put her head into a toilet?"

"Good idea..."

"Spike, do you know what we are doing right now?"

"Planning revenge?"

"No. Acting like two-year-olds"

"Oh..."

Tricia turned "Good they recognised they were acting childish, 'cause it took me hours to fix my hair and..." Suddenly, cold water came out of Spikes wand and Hermione stood next to him, laughing.

After Tricia had stopped being mad at everybody and screaming at Spike, the Band was about to start their practicing. Hermione interrupted after the first seconds of 'numb' from linkin park

"what is the name of your band?"

Sydney smiled "Dark fairies"

Spike turned "No, fuck, that sounds so fuckin' gay!"

"I like 'dark fairies'" Tricia said

"Yeah" Rick answered "'cause you're a bleedin' girl. Our name is 'Iron maiden'"

Hermione laughed "You know, Iron maiden do already exist and they are kinda well-known"

"Fuck..." Spike thought about it for a moment "What about Square in a circle?"

Ginny laughed "Square in a circle? That does not make any sense"

Hermione shook her head "It does make sense, Ginny. A square in a circle really seems as if it is on the completely wrong place, it just doesn't fit. And this band doesn't fit into the world out there. We all seem out of place out there..."

They nodded and decided, that the strange name 'Square in a Circle' sounded quite alright to them and were about to start 'numb' again, when Hermione (again) interrupted by coughing

"What is it this time, pet?"

"Why don't you have somebody on a keyboard?"

"Because we didn't find anybody who was able to play the keyboard. Can we please start now?"

"No. Because you just found someone who can play the keyboard and without a keyboard, you sound, sorry to say that, horrible"

Spike rolled his eyes "And are you able to play 'numb'?"

"Not yet... But I can do 'easier to run'"

He sighed "Right... Get yourself a keyboard and we try to do 'easier to run'"

Hermione smiled widely, got a keyboard with a flick of her wand and stepped behind it.

They started to play and Spike looked a bit nervous when he started to sing

It's easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

Its so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken

From deep inside of me

A secret I've kept locked away

No one can ever see

Wounds so deep they never show

They never go away

Like moving pictures in my head

For years and years they've played

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Replace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Replace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

I would take all my shame to the grave

It's easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

It's so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember

The darkness of my past

Bringing back these memories

I wish I didn't have

Sometimes I think of letting go

And never looking back

And never moving forward so

There would never be a past

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Replace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Replace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

I would take all my shame to the grave

Just washing it aside

All of the helplessness inside

Pretending I don't feel missplaced

Is so much simpler than change

Its easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

It's so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Replace every wrong move that I made

It's easier to go

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Replace every wrong move that I made
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Hermione watched him closely while playing the song by heart. There was even more emotion in Spikes voice than when he sang the funeral song. He was singing his heart out, telling his own story, his secret, out to everyone. And no one noticed, but Hermione. Not even Ginny did. And they all wondered why a single tear escaped Spikes eyes and why he let go of the microphone and stormed out of the dungeons. They all stared at Hermione who was the only one that was not shocked and surprised. She looked into the shocked faces of her new friends and then to the floor.

"Yeah, you know... Sometimes it's just easier to run...."

And with that she exited the dungeons and was surprised to find Spike right next to the door.

"Why did you have to hurt me, 'Mya?"

"I... didn't mean to, I just... wanted to prove my mind that I could trust you... That your story was right from the beginning to the end. And it was"

They smiled at each other "Wanna go for a walk, pet?"