Lifeline
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"Cause and Effect my love"
Starfire lay on her bed staring at the ceiling, her head resting on the pillow. She had finally found a suitable use for the soft cushiony thing on her bed. And was using it to support her back. She was the surprised at how much she had been doing that over the past few weeks. It was already a month and a week since she'd first told them. And starting phase 2 of her sickness.
It had come much sooner than she'd expected, showing that she was one week off her calculations. She hadn't told her friends yet.
She sat up and grabbed a piece of paper scattered on her bed and preceded to read it for the tenth time. She was getting seriously bored; she'd spent all day reading medical notes on Merel. There was hope; a woman with a severe case of Merel had apparently recovered after a certain treatment. Unfortunately the information was very controversial and not clear enough.
She sighed tossing the paper aside, her cousin had promised to come to earth. A month had already passed since then. He was a lieutenant in the Tamaranian army, and getting permission for him to leave the planet would be very hard to get. She was expecting him to show up in at least another month or so.
She floated above the bed and stretched. A loud "Slip" sound from the door made her loose her concentration and fall back to the bed with a "hugh" She sat up to see Robin standing by the door with a comical smile on his face.
"Up too high eh Star" He teased.
"Oh, Robin you startled me"
"You've been in here all day." He said as he walked into the room, sitting beside her on the bed.
"Yes, I have been doing some research on Merel"
"Have you found anything?"
"Nothing very useful."
His expression dropped.
"When Kai arrives I am sure he will bring good news"
Her hand found his, giving it a tight squeeze. It had become their way of telling each other it would be all right.
"Did you come to check on me?"
"Yeah, I was getting worried. Beat Boy thought you were sleep...you look tired Star"
"I am having trouble sleeping"
"How will you ever get better if you don't rest"
"I do rest but I always wake up, I cannot control it"
"Oh Star" He said softly as he sat closer to her. Starfire felt Robin moving closer and pushing a few papers off the bed she scooped so Robin could get on the bed more fully. Once he was closer to her he slipped an arm around her waist, she responded by snuggling closer to him.
"You've been reading all morning?"
"Well not precisely, I have taken breaks and I also watched some holographs"
"Holographs?"
"They are like pictures, the only difference is that they are holographic instead of paper"
Robin said an "oh" which made Starfire chuckle.
"Here Robin I will show you"
She floated off the bed and took a small box like object. She pressed a button followed by a big holographic image. The picture showed a much younger Starfire, being held by an older guy with black hair, purple like eyes. They were sitting on the ground. Her arms around his neck as he held her hands with his own, both had huge smiles on their faces.
"My brother and me" She said.
Robin stood up, he touched the holographic image his hand went straight through it.
'Wow' Thought Robin, her eyes looked exactly like two green flames, burning inside of her. He recognized that look, but never had he seen that flame burning so strongly.
"Star you look so cute" Star blushed.
"Thank you, does that mean I am not 'cute' anymore?" She teased.
The masked titan grabbed her waist, pulling her closer.
"No, now you're beautiful" He whispered. The emerald-eyed girl kissed him chastely on the lips.
"Your brother looks a lot like Blackfire"
"Yes, he did"
Her expression filled with sadness.
"Do you miss him?"
"Everyday, he loved me much and I loved him. He was my whole world, he and his wife."
"I'm sorry." He offered.
"Why are you sorry?"
"It's just considered polite to say I'm sorry whenever someone dies....it's stupid forget it."
"Why would someone say sorry to something they did not do?"
"I don't know, Star. It's kinda stupid, forget I said anything"
Star stood in front of him; her hands reached to his mask and slowly took it off. Robin though a bit surprised didn't pull away. She slowly removed the mask off his face; once the black cloth was off she pressed her lips against his. Wanting to have him with her forever. He quickly made the kiss pass innocent when his tongue entered her mouth.
After several moments of making out both stopped gasping for air. Starfire pressed her cheek against his temple and crushed him to her. She was scared, petrified, it never quite seemed real until she had started reading the Merel research. She was most surely going to die, and not just die but also leave her friends behind. Leave Robin behind.
She clinged to him with all her strength yet making sure she didn't crush him enough to harm him.
"I love you." She whispered, her voice sounded scared and innocent with such yearning.
"I love you too....so much Star"
No matter how many times he said it her heart still skipped a beat every time he said it. Joy embraced her every time he said it and yet her heart felt heavy.
"Robin?"
"Umm?"
"Could you hold me while I rest? I feel so sleepy"
"Of course"
Robin and Starfire walked a few steps to the bed. Star piled up the papers scattered over her bed and put them on a corner. They both laid on the bed, Robin with the pillow under his head and Starfire's head on his chest. As soon as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder she feel asleep. He watched her sink into oblivion.
Her features relaxed and her breathing steadied. He wondered how tired she must have been to fall asleep so quickly and deeply. For a few minutes he watched her sleep, he watched as her mouth opened just a little bit and her features completely relaxed. She looked nothing short than an angel; he ran a tender hand down her cheeks.
Loving the every curve of her face. He kissed her forehead lovingly. He saw the pile of paper at his feet. Making sure she didn't wake he reached for them, once in his hand. He carefully flipped them over. Careful not to wake the girl in his arms, a few papers had symbols written all over them. Which he guessed was Tamaranian, but he found one that was in English and proceeded on reading it.
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"Dude how long has it been since he went in there?" Asked Beast Boy pointing toward the corridor.
"I dunno and it's none of our business. They need sometime alone"
"Man, I wonder what they're doing"
"It's none of our business"
"Well maybe we could make it our business!" Raven rolled her eyes.
"We all want privacy"
"To do what? Make out?"
"Some people actually have a life" Cleared Cyborg. Beast Boy gave him the evil eye, which the taller titan ignored.
"Yo, have you all noticed how Star has been spending so much time in her room?"
"Maybe she likes her room"
"Dude, this is Star. She *loves * being around people"
"Incredibly enough Beast Boy has a point. She may be spending so much time in her room because she thinks it will hurt us less" Raven put her book down, letting her eyes wonder to the screen just in time to see a diaper commercial.
"So you're saying we should pull her out of her room?" Asked Cyborg changing the channel.
"I say we keep her occupied, that way she doesn't get depressed and go to her room and we don't get depressed"
"Well, well ,well, your brain is actually working today BB" Cyborg patted the green titan on the head.
"Actually I wanted to talk to you guys about something" Said Beast Boy turning serious all of the sudden. Seeing he was serious Raven and Cyborg gave him their attention.
"I mean we haven't really talked about it and....well its already been a month but I mean. What are going to do about....you know....what will we do when she's gone?"
Raven remained expressionless and Cyborg just looked away. They had both been wondering the same thing but hadn't dared talk about it. It seemed as every time they actually admitted it out loud the more real it all seemed.
It was easier to just think it was a normal day, and that Star was nice and healthy. Unfortunately it was becoming harder and harder to ignore everyday.
"I dunno Beast Boy, I guess we'll just___"
"Go on" Finished Raven. But as long as the words were out she regretted them. How could they just go on ignoring that a part of the team was gone?
"How?" He asked.
Just then the alarm came on. And soon afterwards Robin and Starfire ran into the main room with their lips swollen. And Starfire looking sleepy.
"What's wrong?" Asked Robin approaching the four other titans around the control panel screen.
"Yet another robbery. And it seems this one can control water by will" Reported Raven.
"Titans lets move!" Yelled Robin as they ran to the door.
In the elevator Robin faced Starfire.
"Maybe you should stay Star I'm sure we can___"
"Please do not do this Robin. I want to fight, please let me while I can" She pleaded. Thankfully for Starfire Robin had not yet been able to resist her emerald eyes. And quietly nodded in defeat, gaining a peck on the cheek from the girl.
"Thank you Robin"
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(Want a fight scene, sorry I can't do action I simply suck at it ^.^ and I don't want to waste my time when we all know who will win) But if you want one I'll do it and put it in this chapter, only by request though, I'm a sneaky little sucker!()()()()()()()()()()()()()
The titans walked, though more like dragged themselves into the tower only to collapse into the couch. The fight had been non the less successful but that monster had had them running around the same ten blocks for an hour before actually catching him. But they were completely and absolutely exhausted.
Beast Boy turned himself into a kitten and snuggled deeper into the couch. Cyborg resembled a runny egg plastered on the couch, Raven rested her weight fully on the armrest and backrest while Robin rested more like Cyborg, resembling a runny egg. Starfire just sat there, her back resting on the backrest of the couch. She felt dizzy from all the energy she had used but she was not going to admit it any time soon.
Beast Boy suddenly began to snuggle closer to Raven's leg rather than the couch. The dangerous move made Cyborg, Robin, and Starfire open an eye to witness the long flight journey their friends would embark on shortly when Raven realized what he was doing.
Surprisingly enough though Raven lifted a hand right above the kitten's head, which they all knew, was to smack Beast Boy. But instead of coming down in a harsh strong movement the hand simply rested softly on the kitten's head and began rub the furry head's top. The kitten purred and snuggled closer to Raven, rubbing its cheek on her leg.
That's when they all realized he had actually fallen asleep. Beast boy had done that as an impulse, not on purpose. They all let go of the breath they didn't know they were holding and smiled. Shockingly enough Raven had a small smirk on her face as she continued to caress the soft green fur.
Looking up for a moment she met Star's smiling face and couldn't help but smirk back.
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"Hey Cy, pass the tofu dogs!" Called Beast Boy as Cyborg flipped over the hamburgers.
They had decided to go on a picnic. It was a great day, the sun was shining, and the air was fresh. Beautiful day and Cyborg swore to kill anyone who ruined it. It seemed they had been on a lot of picnics since defeating Slade; mostly it was Starfire's idea. And everyone else just went along with it.
"Raven would you be so kind as to pass me the mustard please?"
Raven passed the mustard to Starfire watching in awe as she drank it like water.
"No matter how many times I see that I still want to gag every time" She said.
"But Raven it tastes so wonderful!" Said the red head in between gulps.
"Well if you like it, good for ya Star!" Cheered Cyborg who after their little talk didn't find the girl's obsession with mustard so weird anymore.
"Dude did you just say your ok with her eating mustard, has your brain crashed or something?"
"No you twerp, everyone has a right to like whatever they like. At least mustard is better than that tofu thing crap!"
"It's not crap!"
"Yes it is!"
"No its not"
"Uh hu!"
"Uh Nu!"
"Yeah!"
"No!"
"Will you stop with the whining you'll scare off the birds" Said Raven quietly.
That's when Starfire's eye caught a glimpse of the nearest playground.
"What is that?" She asked pointing toward the playground.
"It's a playground, for little kids" Answered Robin.
"Why are children kept in such a small space with those big objects to play? Are children not allowed to leave the "playground"? And why do children need a playground, can they not play in the park?"
"Wow, slow down Star" Said Cyborg grinning.
"The big metal objects are like toys for them to play with and since they're fun children like to play there. They go there because they want to, it's fun."
"Why can they not play outside of the playground?"
"They can but they like playing there" Informed Beast Boy.
Starfire watched the playground in awe, without warning she stood up and flew toward it. She sat on the bench in front of it and watched as the children played.
A child climbed on what looked like a ladder then slid down the other end. He laughed as he reached the button and his mother picked him up. There were a couple of girls playing in the swings. Starfire laughed as she saw the joyous smiles they had on their faces. And how a mall girl yelled. "Look mommy, I'm flying!"
She laughed when she saw a small boy, not older than 4 playing with sand in a box shaped square. He was all dirty from the sand but he had a big happy smile on his face. She watched, as the children laughed, smiled were happy in that small space. By now she was sure playgrounds were the best thing in the world.
It touched her how adults could build such metal bases for children to play with. If only people took the time to do that in her planet children would actually act like children not small adults. She was so into her thoughts she didn't hear her friends walking to her.
"You ok?" Robin placed a hand on her shoulder she turned to see her friends behind her.
"Yes, I was just watching the children. They look so happy"
"Yeah, that's how children are"
"You are so lucky to have such things in your planet." She whispered, not taking her eyes off the playground.
Beast Boy sat beside her on the bench, Robin sent him a death glare since he wanted to sit beside her but Beast Boy just ignored it.
"Didn't you have something like playgrounds in Tamaran?"
"No....the nearest thing to one are empty bomb shells"
Their eyes went wide open as the thought of small children playing with empty bombshells crossed their minds.
"You mean they actually let you play with THAT!" Asked Cyborg shocked.
"Not really, but we do anyway. We do not have many places where to have fun so we do with what we have. You see we are taught to act somewhat like adults from a very early age"
'That explains her "innocence" she never got the time to be a kid so now she's making up for it' Thought Robin.
She watched as the mother of the little boy in the sand box picked him up and began brushing the sand off his clothes.
"It must be nice to have a mother." She whispered randomly. She didn't even realize she'd said it until she saw her friend's faces.
Cyborg was taken back by her comment; he would have sworn Starfire had known her mother. She was always so positive he would have sworn she had grown up with her parents.
"I suppose it is" Said Cyborg just as quietly.
"I don't remember mine very well" Whispered Robin.
"Yeah me either." Whispered Beast Boy.
"I never met mine" Said Raven.
Starfire dragged her eyes away from the playground to meet her friend's.
"You mean neither of you remember your mothers?"
All four titans shook their heads.
"I do not either though my brother Ryan'r told me I look very much like my mother"
"I've seen pictures of mine" Said Cyborg.
"I remember she used to sing to me" Said Robin a bit more cheerfully.
"I've seen pictures" Said Beast Boy
Raven searched her mind for the reason they'd gone from talking about playgrounds to mothers. But she watched as the other four titans whispered quietly about their mothers. None of them ever talked about their past, it was rare it would come up. But every time it did sadness clouded everyone's mind. And she didn't like it.
"I've never seen her picture. I don't know what she looked like" Said Raven coldly.
Starfire placed her hand over Raven's. Maybe it was the way she said it, or the way her eyes changed as she said it that made Star's old motherly self take over. It was hard to get rid of eight years of playing mother and big sister to a group of not much younger kids.
"Yes you do, you are exactly like her. All you have to do is close your eyes and think about her"
"Wa...what?" She choked.
Starfire blushed, realizing what she had just done. 'Great I did it again!' She thought angrily.
"Nothing, please forgive me. It is just I used to take care of some orphans in my planet and most did not remember their parents so I told them what their mothers could have looked like. To console them.....Please forgive me I did not mean to offend you"
But Raven was still in awe, the soft loving manner she'd said the strangely soothing words had completely thrown her and the other four titans off. She had sounded so soft, caring. Beast Boy shook his head to snap out of his trance.
But before any of them could ask her anything Star flew closer to the playground leaving her friends looking puzzled and confused. This was beginning to happen too much for their liking. They saw her approach a little girl, she had black hair and big brown eyes. The girl's eyes widened enough to fit a chicken when she saw the amber skinned girl.
"You....you...you are Starfire!!!!" Yelled the little girl and proceeded by jumping up and down.
"Hello, yes I am Starfire, what is your name?"
"Shina"
"What a pretty name! I heard you wanted to fly."
"Yes! I want to fly and touch the sky!"
Starfire smiled one of her biggest smiles. She offered Shina her hand which the girl gladly took and walked toward a group of mother clustered around a bench talking.
"Excuse me?" She asked a black haired woman. She recognized the woman as the girl's mother.
"My name is Starfire and I am part of the team titans, I heard your daughter wanted to fly and I wondered if you could grant me your permission to take her flying for a few minutes. It will just be around the park" Said Starfire.
The girl jumped up and down of happiness. The mother's eyes traveled down Starfire to her daughter. Then the woman's sharp expression broke into a warming smile.
"I'll be more than happy to grant my permission but only for five minutes."
Starfire nodded, gripping on the girl's hand tightly. Shina gave her mother a hug before running back to Starfire.
At the other side of the playground the titans watched as Starfire took flight with the small girl in her arms. The girl squeaked of happiness before waving hi to her mother.
"We will go little higher, are you ready?"
"Yes!!" Yelled the girl.
"Hold on tight!" She warned as she took a little more speed and flew around the park. Truthfully she was expecting the child to be a little more afraid of the heights but Shina was more than happy to go higher.
In a strange way Starfire was feeling happy, she loved the sound of children laughing and right now that was what she was hearing. For a whole minute she felt like it didn't matter if she died right now, she would be ok because she'd granted one-child's-dream. After two and a half turns around the park Starfire and Shina landed safely on the ground.
The girl ran to her mother's arms with the biggest smile possible. It had been ten minutes but no one really noticed. Starfire saw as the mother took the girl into her arms and kissed her cheek with all that love and tenderness. And she wondered of her mother had ever done that to her, she would do anything to remember a happy memory of her mother, or anything about her.
Then the Shina ran to Starfire and gave the alien girl the biggest hug she could manage to give.
"Thank you" She said.
"You are very welcome"
After the mother thanked Starfire Shina and he mom left the park. Hand in hand, Starfire walked toward her friends. Somehow she felt like she'd just gotten closer to her mother. She repressed the laughter as she saw a group of third graders clustered around the heroes asking as many possible questions as they could.
Her friends watched her approach, a full smile on her lips.
"What was that all about Star?"
"She wanted to fly." She simply stated, as if it was the best explanation in the world.
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Robin watched as the needle penetrated her skin. She didn't glitch anymore; she said it had stopped hurting. He insisted on being there every time she took a shot. He wanted to be there and hold her hand. Whisper a soothing word into her ear or just be there. Starfire would always reward him with the most beautiful of smiles. And later a good make out session.
Cyborg was truly starting to hate doing this; it wasn't that it bothered him helping Starfire. But it was shaving to witness as the vile emptied into her system and her arm bruise. He hated feeling so goddamn helpless. In football the biggest guy was always the strongest. The one who knocked out guys and helped the rest of the team.
Here in real life it didn't mean anything, he was big and strong. He was the injection guy because that was all he could do for his friend. Worse of all it was the last vaccine he would give her. She had just started phase 3 her system couldn't handle the injection medication anymore.
Once the vile emptied he removed the needle. Again the skin turned a purplish colour. It seemed every time one disappeared another one appeared.
"Thank you Cyborg." Said Starfire calmly.
"Don't mention it; When are you starting with the teas?"
"I will start tomorrow, unfortunately I need some herbs I do not have here for the teas."
"Can you do without them?" Asked Robin.
"Kai will be here shortly, he will bring me the necessary herbs, until then I can manage just fine"
"What are you guys gonna do now?" Asked Cyborg.
Robin looked at Starfire who shrugged a bit.
"I don't know why?"
"Nothing special, just wondering if you guys wanted to hang out"
"Sure" Replied Robin easily.
"Cool"
The three of them walked to the main room.
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A loud crash/splash interrupted the Titan's conversation. The five couch potatoes jumped up on their feet, running to the window to find a big spaceship right outside the tower floating on the water. The five titans ran outside, just then the door opened revealing a cloud of smoke.
The amberish skin girl took a step closer as the smoke cleared revealing a blonde tall guy. His blonde eyebrows were small and a bit upward, like Starfire's.
She smiled widely at the boy who flew turbo speed toward her, embracing her in a bear hug. She did the same for him they titans recognized the boy. He was the same guy who they'd been introduced to just a month and a half ago.
"Kai" Whispered Star happily.
The boy suddenly pushed Starfire at arm's length, and began looking her over carefully. He noticed the light blue marks on her arms and the white patches covering a specific spot. His eyes grew sad and weary.
"Oh Star." His voice filled with pain. She took his hands on hers and smiled.
"It is not as bad as it seems. I am glad to see you"
"I am sorry I took to long, but the jail permission took long to arrive from the Centaury Empire"
Her eyes grew wide, jail permission? Centaury Empire?
Just then another figure stepped out of the ship. A tall girl with long hair and dark eyes approached them.
"Blackfire" She whispered in shock.
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Hi Everyone!!! Thank so much for the reviews. Yes Starfire has 2 husbands, all dead. Well in the comic.
I HAVE A QUESTION!!!! Would you like a Starfire/ Robin sort of lemonish? Well not lemon I mean it would just say they did *it * but it wouldn't fall under R....well maybe a very very mild R. Well just tell me if you want one or if you would like to keep it private between them and me k ^.~! Hehe. Oh and tell me soon cause the lemon one would come the chapter after the next one.
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HELP!!!!!! CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO MAKE A WEBSITE APPEAR! I AM SO SORRY BUT NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TRY IT JUST WON'T SHOW IT! I promise to post it as soon as someone tells me. (Crying and sobbing her eyes out) sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.
COMMENT: Ok people....Whoever is actually reading this far. I CAN TELL YOU KNOW! You reviews tell a lot. Well don't kill me but I was watching some Teen Titans episodes that I taped and I came to the curious finding of findings that RAVEN SAVES STARFIRE IN ALMOST EVERY EPISODE. She either blocks an attack that is directed to her or does something that has to do with that! And what's up with all that chemistry going on between them in the episode where the Puppet King switched their bodies. (Well he really didn't but you all know what I mean) they were touching a whole lot!! Oh I can tell flames are coming. Well sooooorrrry for noticing but its true!
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"Cause and Effect my love"
Starfire lay on her bed staring at the ceiling, her head resting on the pillow. She had finally found a suitable use for the soft cushiony thing on her bed. And was using it to support her back. She was the surprised at how much she had been doing that over the past few weeks. It was already a month and a week since she'd first told them. And starting phase 2 of her sickness.
It had come much sooner than she'd expected, showing that she was one week off her calculations. She hadn't told her friends yet.
She sat up and grabbed a piece of paper scattered on her bed and preceded to read it for the tenth time. She was getting seriously bored; she'd spent all day reading medical notes on Merel. There was hope; a woman with a severe case of Merel had apparently recovered after a certain treatment. Unfortunately the information was very controversial and not clear enough.
She sighed tossing the paper aside, her cousin had promised to come to earth. A month had already passed since then. He was a lieutenant in the Tamaranian army, and getting permission for him to leave the planet would be very hard to get. She was expecting him to show up in at least another month or so.
She floated above the bed and stretched. A loud "Slip" sound from the door made her loose her concentration and fall back to the bed with a "hugh" She sat up to see Robin standing by the door with a comical smile on his face.
"Up too high eh Star" He teased.
"Oh, Robin you startled me"
"You've been in here all day." He said as he walked into the room, sitting beside her on the bed.
"Yes, I have been doing some research on Merel"
"Have you found anything?"
"Nothing very useful."
His expression dropped.
"When Kai arrives I am sure he will bring good news"
Her hand found his, giving it a tight squeeze. It had become their way of telling each other it would be all right.
"Did you come to check on me?"
"Yeah, I was getting worried. Beat Boy thought you were sleep...you look tired Star"
"I am having trouble sleeping"
"How will you ever get better if you don't rest"
"I do rest but I always wake up, I cannot control it"
"Oh Star" He said softly as he sat closer to her. Starfire felt Robin moving closer and pushing a few papers off the bed she scooped so Robin could get on the bed more fully. Once he was closer to her he slipped an arm around her waist, she responded by snuggling closer to him.
"You've been reading all morning?"
"Well not precisely, I have taken breaks and I also watched some holographs"
"Holographs?"
"They are like pictures, the only difference is that they are holographic instead of paper"
Robin said an "oh" which made Starfire chuckle.
"Here Robin I will show you"
She floated off the bed and took a small box like object. She pressed a button followed by a big holographic image. The picture showed a much younger Starfire, being held by an older guy with black hair, purple like eyes. They were sitting on the ground. Her arms around his neck as he held her hands with his own, both had huge smiles on their faces.
"My brother and me" She said.
Robin stood up, he touched the holographic image his hand went straight through it.
'Wow' Thought Robin, her eyes looked exactly like two green flames, burning inside of her. He recognized that look, but never had he seen that flame burning so strongly.
"Star you look so cute" Star blushed.
"Thank you, does that mean I am not 'cute' anymore?" She teased.
The masked titan grabbed her waist, pulling her closer.
"No, now you're beautiful" He whispered. The emerald-eyed girl kissed him chastely on the lips.
"Your brother looks a lot like Blackfire"
"Yes, he did"
Her expression filled with sadness.
"Do you miss him?"
"Everyday, he loved me much and I loved him. He was my whole world, he and his wife."
"I'm sorry." He offered.
"Why are you sorry?"
"It's just considered polite to say I'm sorry whenever someone dies....it's stupid forget it."
"Why would someone say sorry to something they did not do?"
"I don't know, Star. It's kinda stupid, forget I said anything"
Star stood in front of him; her hands reached to his mask and slowly took it off. Robin though a bit surprised didn't pull away. She slowly removed the mask off his face; once the black cloth was off she pressed her lips against his. Wanting to have him with her forever. He quickly made the kiss pass innocent when his tongue entered her mouth.
After several moments of making out both stopped gasping for air. Starfire pressed her cheek against his temple and crushed him to her. She was scared, petrified, it never quite seemed real until she had started reading the Merel research. She was most surely going to die, and not just die but also leave her friends behind. Leave Robin behind.
She clinged to him with all her strength yet making sure she didn't crush him enough to harm him.
"I love you." She whispered, her voice sounded scared and innocent with such yearning.
"I love you too....so much Star"
No matter how many times he said it her heart still skipped a beat every time he said it. Joy embraced her every time he said it and yet her heart felt heavy.
"Robin?"
"Umm?"
"Could you hold me while I rest? I feel so sleepy"
"Of course"
Robin and Starfire walked a few steps to the bed. Star piled up the papers scattered over her bed and put them on a corner. They both laid on the bed, Robin with the pillow under his head and Starfire's head on his chest. As soon as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder she feel asleep. He watched her sink into oblivion.
Her features relaxed and her breathing steadied. He wondered how tired she must have been to fall asleep so quickly and deeply. For a few minutes he watched her sleep, he watched as her mouth opened just a little bit and her features completely relaxed. She looked nothing short than an angel; he ran a tender hand down her cheeks.
Loving the every curve of her face. He kissed her forehead lovingly. He saw the pile of paper at his feet. Making sure she didn't wake he reached for them, once in his hand. He carefully flipped them over. Careful not to wake the girl in his arms, a few papers had symbols written all over them. Which he guessed was Tamaranian, but he found one that was in English and proceeded on reading it.
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"Dude how long has it been since he went in there?" Asked Beast Boy pointing toward the corridor.
"I dunno and it's none of our business. They need sometime alone"
"Man, I wonder what they're doing"
"It's none of our business"
"Well maybe we could make it our business!" Raven rolled her eyes.
"We all want privacy"
"To do what? Make out?"
"Some people actually have a life" Cleared Cyborg. Beast Boy gave him the evil eye, which the taller titan ignored.
"Yo, have you all noticed how Star has been spending so much time in her room?"
"Maybe she likes her room"
"Dude, this is Star. She *loves * being around people"
"Incredibly enough Beast Boy has a point. She may be spending so much time in her room because she thinks it will hurt us less" Raven put her book down, letting her eyes wonder to the screen just in time to see a diaper commercial.
"So you're saying we should pull her out of her room?" Asked Cyborg changing the channel.
"I say we keep her occupied, that way she doesn't get depressed and go to her room and we don't get depressed"
"Well, well ,well, your brain is actually working today BB" Cyborg patted the green titan on the head.
"Actually I wanted to talk to you guys about something" Said Beast Boy turning serious all of the sudden. Seeing he was serious Raven and Cyborg gave him their attention.
"I mean we haven't really talked about it and....well its already been a month but I mean. What are going to do about....you know....what will we do when she's gone?"
Raven remained expressionless and Cyborg just looked away. They had both been wondering the same thing but hadn't dared talk about it. It seemed as every time they actually admitted it out loud the more real it all seemed.
It was easier to just think it was a normal day, and that Star was nice and healthy. Unfortunately it was becoming harder and harder to ignore everyday.
"I dunno Beast Boy, I guess we'll just___"
"Go on" Finished Raven. But as long as the words were out she regretted them. How could they just go on ignoring that a part of the team was gone?
"How?" He asked.
Just then the alarm came on. And soon afterwards Robin and Starfire ran into the main room with their lips swollen. And Starfire looking sleepy.
"What's wrong?" Asked Robin approaching the four other titans around the control panel screen.
"Yet another robbery. And it seems this one can control water by will" Reported Raven.
"Titans lets move!" Yelled Robin as they ran to the door.
In the elevator Robin faced Starfire.
"Maybe you should stay Star I'm sure we can___"
"Please do not do this Robin. I want to fight, please let me while I can" She pleaded. Thankfully for Starfire Robin had not yet been able to resist her emerald eyes. And quietly nodded in defeat, gaining a peck on the cheek from the girl.
"Thank you Robin"
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(Want a fight scene, sorry I can't do action I simply suck at it ^.^ and I don't want to waste my time when we all know who will win) But if you want one I'll do it and put it in this chapter, only by request though, I'm a sneaky little sucker!()()()()()()()()()()()()()
The titans walked, though more like dragged themselves into the tower only to collapse into the couch. The fight had been non the less successful but that monster had had them running around the same ten blocks for an hour before actually catching him. But they were completely and absolutely exhausted.
Beast Boy turned himself into a kitten and snuggled deeper into the couch. Cyborg resembled a runny egg plastered on the couch, Raven rested her weight fully on the armrest and backrest while Robin rested more like Cyborg, resembling a runny egg. Starfire just sat there, her back resting on the backrest of the couch. She felt dizzy from all the energy she had used but she was not going to admit it any time soon.
Beast Boy suddenly began to snuggle closer to Raven's leg rather than the couch. The dangerous move made Cyborg, Robin, and Starfire open an eye to witness the long flight journey their friends would embark on shortly when Raven realized what he was doing.
Surprisingly enough though Raven lifted a hand right above the kitten's head, which they all knew, was to smack Beast Boy. But instead of coming down in a harsh strong movement the hand simply rested softly on the kitten's head and began rub the furry head's top. The kitten purred and snuggled closer to Raven, rubbing its cheek on her leg.
That's when they all realized he had actually fallen asleep. Beast boy had done that as an impulse, not on purpose. They all let go of the breath they didn't know they were holding and smiled. Shockingly enough Raven had a small smirk on her face as she continued to caress the soft green fur.
Looking up for a moment she met Star's smiling face and couldn't help but smirk back.
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"Hey Cy, pass the tofu dogs!" Called Beast Boy as Cyborg flipped over the hamburgers.
They had decided to go on a picnic. It was a great day, the sun was shining, and the air was fresh. Beautiful day and Cyborg swore to kill anyone who ruined it. It seemed they had been on a lot of picnics since defeating Slade; mostly it was Starfire's idea. And everyone else just went along with it.
"Raven would you be so kind as to pass me the mustard please?"
Raven passed the mustard to Starfire watching in awe as she drank it like water.
"No matter how many times I see that I still want to gag every time" She said.
"But Raven it tastes so wonderful!" Said the red head in between gulps.
"Well if you like it, good for ya Star!" Cheered Cyborg who after their little talk didn't find the girl's obsession with mustard so weird anymore.
"Dude did you just say your ok with her eating mustard, has your brain crashed or something?"
"No you twerp, everyone has a right to like whatever they like. At least mustard is better than that tofu thing crap!"
"It's not crap!"
"Yes it is!"
"No its not"
"Uh hu!"
"Uh Nu!"
"Yeah!"
"No!"
"Will you stop with the whining you'll scare off the birds" Said Raven quietly.
That's when Starfire's eye caught a glimpse of the nearest playground.
"What is that?" She asked pointing toward the playground.
"It's a playground, for little kids" Answered Robin.
"Why are children kept in such a small space with those big objects to play? Are children not allowed to leave the "playground"? And why do children need a playground, can they not play in the park?"
"Wow, slow down Star" Said Cyborg grinning.
"The big metal objects are like toys for them to play with and since they're fun children like to play there. They go there because they want to, it's fun."
"Why can they not play outside of the playground?"
"They can but they like playing there" Informed Beast Boy.
Starfire watched the playground in awe, without warning she stood up and flew toward it. She sat on the bench in front of it and watched as the children played.
A child climbed on what looked like a ladder then slid down the other end. He laughed as he reached the button and his mother picked him up. There were a couple of girls playing in the swings. Starfire laughed as she saw the joyous smiles they had on their faces. And how a mall girl yelled. "Look mommy, I'm flying!"
She laughed when she saw a small boy, not older than 4 playing with sand in a box shaped square. He was all dirty from the sand but he had a big happy smile on his face. She watched, as the children laughed, smiled were happy in that small space. By now she was sure playgrounds were the best thing in the world.
It touched her how adults could build such metal bases for children to play with. If only people took the time to do that in her planet children would actually act like children not small adults. She was so into her thoughts she didn't hear her friends walking to her.
"You ok?" Robin placed a hand on her shoulder she turned to see her friends behind her.
"Yes, I was just watching the children. They look so happy"
"Yeah, that's how children are"
"You are so lucky to have such things in your planet." She whispered, not taking her eyes off the playground.
Beast Boy sat beside her on the bench, Robin sent him a death glare since he wanted to sit beside her but Beast Boy just ignored it.
"Didn't you have something like playgrounds in Tamaran?"
"No....the nearest thing to one are empty bomb shells"
Their eyes went wide open as the thought of small children playing with empty bombshells crossed their minds.
"You mean they actually let you play with THAT!" Asked Cyborg shocked.
"Not really, but we do anyway. We do not have many places where to have fun so we do with what we have. You see we are taught to act somewhat like adults from a very early age"
'That explains her "innocence" she never got the time to be a kid so now she's making up for it' Thought Robin.
She watched as the mother of the little boy in the sand box picked him up and began brushing the sand off his clothes.
"It must be nice to have a mother." She whispered randomly. She didn't even realize she'd said it until she saw her friend's faces.
Cyborg was taken back by her comment; he would have sworn Starfire had known her mother. She was always so positive he would have sworn she had grown up with her parents.
"I suppose it is" Said Cyborg just as quietly.
"I don't remember mine very well" Whispered Robin.
"Yeah me either." Whispered Beast Boy.
"I never met mine" Said Raven.
Starfire dragged her eyes away from the playground to meet her friend's.
"You mean neither of you remember your mothers?"
All four titans shook their heads.
"I do not either though my brother Ryan'r told me I look very much like my mother"
"I've seen pictures of mine" Said Cyborg.
"I remember she used to sing to me" Said Robin a bit more cheerfully.
"I've seen pictures" Said Beast Boy
Raven searched her mind for the reason they'd gone from talking about playgrounds to mothers. But she watched as the other four titans whispered quietly about their mothers. None of them ever talked about their past, it was rare it would come up. But every time it did sadness clouded everyone's mind. And she didn't like it.
"I've never seen her picture. I don't know what she looked like" Said Raven coldly.
Starfire placed her hand over Raven's. Maybe it was the way she said it, or the way her eyes changed as she said it that made Star's old motherly self take over. It was hard to get rid of eight years of playing mother and big sister to a group of not much younger kids.
"Yes you do, you are exactly like her. All you have to do is close your eyes and think about her"
"Wa...what?" She choked.
Starfire blushed, realizing what she had just done. 'Great I did it again!' She thought angrily.
"Nothing, please forgive me. It is just I used to take care of some orphans in my planet and most did not remember their parents so I told them what their mothers could have looked like. To console them.....Please forgive me I did not mean to offend you"
But Raven was still in awe, the soft loving manner she'd said the strangely soothing words had completely thrown her and the other four titans off. She had sounded so soft, caring. Beast Boy shook his head to snap out of his trance.
But before any of them could ask her anything Star flew closer to the playground leaving her friends looking puzzled and confused. This was beginning to happen too much for their liking. They saw her approach a little girl, she had black hair and big brown eyes. The girl's eyes widened enough to fit a chicken when she saw the amber skinned girl.
"You....you...you are Starfire!!!!" Yelled the little girl and proceeded by jumping up and down.
"Hello, yes I am Starfire, what is your name?"
"Shina"
"What a pretty name! I heard you wanted to fly."
"Yes! I want to fly and touch the sky!"
Starfire smiled one of her biggest smiles. She offered Shina her hand which the girl gladly took and walked toward a group of mother clustered around a bench talking.
"Excuse me?" She asked a black haired woman. She recognized the woman as the girl's mother.
"My name is Starfire and I am part of the team titans, I heard your daughter wanted to fly and I wondered if you could grant me your permission to take her flying for a few minutes. It will just be around the park" Said Starfire.
The girl jumped up and down of happiness. The mother's eyes traveled down Starfire to her daughter. Then the woman's sharp expression broke into a warming smile.
"I'll be more than happy to grant my permission but only for five minutes."
Starfire nodded, gripping on the girl's hand tightly. Shina gave her mother a hug before running back to Starfire.
At the other side of the playground the titans watched as Starfire took flight with the small girl in her arms. The girl squeaked of happiness before waving hi to her mother.
"We will go little higher, are you ready?"
"Yes!!" Yelled the girl.
"Hold on tight!" She warned as she took a little more speed and flew around the park. Truthfully she was expecting the child to be a little more afraid of the heights but Shina was more than happy to go higher.
In a strange way Starfire was feeling happy, she loved the sound of children laughing and right now that was what she was hearing. For a whole minute she felt like it didn't matter if she died right now, she would be ok because she'd granted one-child's-dream. After two and a half turns around the park Starfire and Shina landed safely on the ground.
The girl ran to her mother's arms with the biggest smile possible. It had been ten minutes but no one really noticed. Starfire saw as the mother took the girl into her arms and kissed her cheek with all that love and tenderness. And she wondered of her mother had ever done that to her, she would do anything to remember a happy memory of her mother, or anything about her.
Then the Shina ran to Starfire and gave the alien girl the biggest hug she could manage to give.
"Thank you" She said.
"You are very welcome"
After the mother thanked Starfire Shina and he mom left the park. Hand in hand, Starfire walked toward her friends. Somehow she felt like she'd just gotten closer to her mother. She repressed the laughter as she saw a group of third graders clustered around the heroes asking as many possible questions as they could.
Her friends watched her approach, a full smile on her lips.
"What was that all about Star?"
"She wanted to fly." She simply stated, as if it was the best explanation in the world.
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Robin watched as the needle penetrated her skin. She didn't glitch anymore; she said it had stopped hurting. He insisted on being there every time she took a shot. He wanted to be there and hold her hand. Whisper a soothing word into her ear or just be there. Starfire would always reward him with the most beautiful of smiles. And later a good make out session.
Cyborg was truly starting to hate doing this; it wasn't that it bothered him helping Starfire. But it was shaving to witness as the vile emptied into her system and her arm bruise. He hated feeling so goddamn helpless. In football the biggest guy was always the strongest. The one who knocked out guys and helped the rest of the team.
Here in real life it didn't mean anything, he was big and strong. He was the injection guy because that was all he could do for his friend. Worse of all it was the last vaccine he would give her. She had just started phase 3 her system couldn't handle the injection medication anymore.
Once the vile emptied he removed the needle. Again the skin turned a purplish colour. It seemed every time one disappeared another one appeared.
"Thank you Cyborg." Said Starfire calmly.
"Don't mention it; When are you starting with the teas?"
"I will start tomorrow, unfortunately I need some herbs I do not have here for the teas."
"Can you do without them?" Asked Robin.
"Kai will be here shortly, he will bring me the necessary herbs, until then I can manage just fine"
"What are you guys gonna do now?" Asked Cyborg.
Robin looked at Starfire who shrugged a bit.
"I don't know why?"
"Nothing special, just wondering if you guys wanted to hang out"
"Sure" Replied Robin easily.
"Cool"
The three of them walked to the main room.
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A loud crash/splash interrupted the Titan's conversation. The five couch potatoes jumped up on their feet, running to the window to find a big spaceship right outside the tower floating on the water. The five titans ran outside, just then the door opened revealing a cloud of smoke.
The amberish skin girl took a step closer as the smoke cleared revealing a blonde tall guy. His blonde eyebrows were small and a bit upward, like Starfire's.
She smiled widely at the boy who flew turbo speed toward her, embracing her in a bear hug. She did the same for him they titans recognized the boy. He was the same guy who they'd been introduced to just a month and a half ago.
"Kai" Whispered Star happily.
The boy suddenly pushed Starfire at arm's length, and began looking her over carefully. He noticed the light blue marks on her arms and the white patches covering a specific spot. His eyes grew sad and weary.
"Oh Star." His voice filled with pain. She took his hands on hers and smiled.
"It is not as bad as it seems. I am glad to see you"
"I am sorry I took to long, but the jail permission took long to arrive from the Centaury Empire"
Her eyes grew wide, jail permission? Centaury Empire?
Just then another figure stepped out of the ship. A tall girl with long hair and dark eyes approached them.
"Blackfire" She whispered in shock.
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Hi Everyone!!! Thank so much for the reviews. Yes Starfire has 2 husbands, all dead. Well in the comic.
I HAVE A QUESTION!!!! Would you like a Starfire/ Robin sort of lemonish? Well not lemon I mean it would just say they did *it * but it wouldn't fall under R....well maybe a very very mild R. Well just tell me if you want one or if you would like to keep it private between them and me k ^.~! Hehe. Oh and tell me soon cause the lemon one would come the chapter after the next one.
So now to reviews:
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Kristina Kanine: Thank you!!! I'm glad someone liked those scenes. Thanks for your support. AND YOU GO IT!!!! Balloons and cake for ya! Yeiiiii! Thank you thank you.
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HELP!!!!!! CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO MAKE A WEBSITE APPEAR! I AM SO SORRY BUT NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TRY IT JUST WON'T SHOW IT! I promise to post it as soon as someone tells me. (Crying and sobbing her eyes out) sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.
COMMENT: Ok people....Whoever is actually reading this far. I CAN TELL YOU KNOW! You reviews tell a lot. Well don't kill me but I was watching some Teen Titans episodes that I taped and I came to the curious finding of findings that RAVEN SAVES STARFIRE IN ALMOST EVERY EPISODE. She either blocks an attack that is directed to her or does something that has to do with that! And what's up with all that chemistry going on between them in the episode where the Puppet King switched their bodies. (Well he really didn't but you all know what I mean) they were touching a whole lot!! Oh I can tell flames are coming. Well sooooorrrry for noticing but its true!
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