Somewhere in the back of Vincent's mind
"A man with nothing to lose, is the most dangerous man..."
"A man with nothing to lose, is the most dangerous man..."
"A man with nothing to lose... Has everything to gain..."
". what?... "
"Everything... You could have everything..."
"Everything what?"
"Life, Humanity, love..."
"Lucrecia?"
"Is that what you want..."
"no..."
"What do you want?"
"I want ot know why... Why... why would she give up her life to come after me."
"Did she think of it as giving up her life?"
".. no...."
"What would she think of it then?"
"saving me..."
"And why would she want to do that?"
"Back to square one... "
"What do you want?"
"A way out, of this place."
"In the long run... what do you want?"
"I want what the Shinra stole from me, What Hojo stole from me. I want them back. "
"They'll never come back."
"Thats why it hurts so much. "
"Thats why you'll let it destroy you? Thats why you'll endure an eternity of suffering, because it hurts to think about them? How do you think Cloud feels? Aeris was ripped from him before his eyes, and his hometown burned to the ground. "
"He had his revenge on Sephiroth.."
"Did'nt you have your revenge on Hojo? and the Shinra for that matter?"
"Its... Its different....."
"Barret was forced to kill his best friend. Tifa lost her home and her family. Reeve has stood by for years and watched the city he loved degrade into some tricked out ghetto. Yuffie, has nearly sacraficed her life to try to help a man who is resolved to living a life of sadness and depression. How do you think they feel?"
"They still have their hope... I have nothing... Every time I found a new hope, it was stripped from me and stolen away. Hope doesn't last."
"No.. the difference is that they haven't stopped looking for hope."
With that Vincent raised an eyebrow and his eyes narrowed in a thoughful look.
"Since you are in fact me... Where would you recommend looking for hope?"
"We are not you, we are the shadows that make up you. Hope is not something you should look for in us, find it now as you are. We've had our hopes, had them lost, and have found new ones, in the future. Its up to you to go find it."
A silence followed for a moment.
"Yuffie is here, maybe you should go see her."
"I am aware of that, why she would be here is beyond me."
"She is here doing what she has always done to you."
"annoy me? steal from me?"
"Trying to create a light for your dark life. Your pessimism is'nt fooling anyone, go talk with her."
Vincent frowned for a second. 'that did'nt sound right' he thought to himself. The last part sounded somewhat aggressive, not like subconscious he had been speaking to. "Chaos" he said aloud.
"In the flesh... more or less." he replied.
Vincent exhaled loudly and finally said, "Why can't you be like the other demons and silently await my next limit break?"
"Because like I have told you many times before this, I am no mere demon. If you would hear me out, we could create a solution quite beneficial to both of us. Besides I thought their silence would have pleased you. 3 less voices."
"I'll not be tricked by the likes of you."
"But Yuffie would..."
"DEMON IF YOU LAY A FINGER UPON HER-"
"There is no way you can be assured of her safety unless you come with us. I have no evil designs upon the girl, I'm simply using her to get your attention.... You will hear me out, she is willing to."
"Fine then Chaos, I will accompany her through your twisted mind."
At that comment Chaos began to laugh, and howl, and when he finally stopped he said in a light tone, "I assure you Vincent, whatever twists are present in my mind are nothing compared to your own. But why do you consider me an enemy? Numerous times you have sought my council, and I've never led you astray. Is it because he put me here? Because you had no choice? I assure you, the feeling in that case is mutual. I was alive for nearly 500 year, and in my prime was killed. My life was that of a constant struggle. And at the end of that struggle, it was stolen from me by a cowardly move. Whatever joys I had in life was nothing compared to the peace of death. After 500 years of battle, peace was all I prayed for." In a harsh whispered voice he said, "You can keep my powers, my longevity, everything. I simply want to die and return again to the planet."
"I will grant your request and visit your memories with Yuffie, so leave me now demon. Come back only when you are ready to depart. I still have things I must consult... with myself..."
"In this place you are both the Id and the superego. Your subconscious the ego. You know what it is you truly want, but you do your best to hide it even from yourself. Maybe before I leave your body, you'll consul in me once your problems." And with that Chaos disappeared.
"Where was I?" Vincent breathed to himself.
"You were avoiding the subject of what you want."
"..."
NA: The lies you tell yourself are always the most interesting. I thought I'd throw this section in.