AN: I wrote this with one character from the HP verse in mind, but it can apply to whomever your imagination wants. ;) Here's a challenge for you, guess who I was thinking of when I wrote this. I bet you won't be able to because she/he is a rather small character but I've always felt that I could really identify with! And don't forget to review! It's such a simple thing but it means SO much!
On the Outside
I stand on the outside, looking in, as it always seems to be. I see them there, sitting in front of me, laughing at each other's jokes, but I just observe. I want to say something, yell at them that I'm right here, but I don't, and I don't know why. I see them, they're right in front of my eyes, close enough to talk to, close enough to even tap on the shoulder, but I do none of these things. Instead I sit and watch, as my friends pass me by.
I have some small hope that they'll turn around and remember that I exist, remember that we're friends. I hope – I pray – that they'll say something. Anything without myself having to reach out and begin a conversation, as I always seem to have to do. I don't want to cling onto them anymore; I want them to do the hanging. We're friends, I think to myself, but they don't seem to realize that anymore.
But are we? A small voice in my head asks. Are they your friends? Do friends ignore you? Do they never make an attempt at conversation with you? Do they treat you like just an acquaintance, and not someone they actually want to talk to? Do they pass you in the corridors, and never wave, never even acknowledge you? Do they act like you're no longer important to them?
No, I decide. Friends don't do that.
When did this happen? I think to myself. When did I lose my friends?
I see my friends laugh and turn around in their chairs. Some small, hopeless part of me aches for them to notice me ... but they don't. Instead they turn to someone else and I'm forgotten again. My friends move another step further away, and I'm left alone, as I turn back to my History of Magic assignment, without anyone to laugh with and without anyone to care.
I'm alone and on the outside, now only just looking in.