Woops I forgot to put disclaimer on last chapter, but I guess I'll put it in now:

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN THE ANIME INUYASHA OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS PORTRAYED IN IT! AND I DIDN'T OWN THEM IN THE LAST CHAPTER EITHER!

Okay now that I've done that I jus wanted to say, there is a bit of a twist in this chapter as I said... and also as I said nothing gross lol...

Chapter 3:

It's amazing how much a couple of words can touch you so much. "Don't look back..."

I'm now 13 but I haven't continued writing in this journal for awhile, not since that day, my birthday. I wrote all the previous things when I had just recently met Kikyo... but everything changed on that fateful day...and it had to be my birthday.

I had sat by the river for hours, and I was beginning to get a bit worried about Kikyo. She had said she would tell her parents she'd been going to a friend's house, but since she wasn't here I wasn't sure what had happened. She would have been here if she had been let out... and yet she wasn't here yet. I wanted to go look for her but I was scared that if I left, I would miss her when she came. That's around when I saw little Kaede walking towards me. Little Kaede was by herself, alone in the village. Well obviously the compassionate person that I am, I had to go and take care of her, because she was my friend's baby sister.

"Hey Kaede, what are you doing out here?" I asked.

"Inu... Kikyo says run... our parents got the village after you..." She replied.

"I can't leave you alone in the village... I'll drop you off at your house," then the thought came to me, why hadn't Kikyo came and told me? "Where's Kikyo?"

"Um, the village is con-con-condemenenin her for going against everything that they believe in... them no likey you Inuyasha..." she replied.

"They're condemning her for treason? Holy Shi-rt... yeah holy shirt..." I couldn't curse in front of littler children, like my brother had to me. The reason I cursed was because of my brother, "Let's go Kaede... I'm going to take you home..."

I threw Kaede on my back, taking a route so that no one could see me or her. When I got to the shrine I picked Kaede up and put her on her bed. As I was about to leave, Kaede spoke to me,

"Inuyasha, you're the bestest friend my sister could ever have... don't leave her... save her..."

I nodded my head and replied, "I promise little Kaede, your sister will be okay..."

I jumped outside of the window and began looking for Kikyo. I began thinking, how could her parents be so cruel? I mean who would kill their own daughter? I was an outcast and a disgrace, but my mom had never killed me... neither had my father.

I found Kikyo in the riot, taking place in the front of the Shrine. I heard voices yelling,

"She's involved with the half-breed, Inuyasha... kill her!"

I felt bad that her race was against her, for associating with me. I almost swore an oath to myself that day, I would steal the jewel, become demon, and leave this hell hole for good. Humans were cruel; demons at least had some ethic. They killed humans because of their hatred for them, and I honestly had developed a hatred for humans as well. I had been so enraged I felt myself change slowly, and before I knew anything, everything went black.

I awoke later, in the middle of the village. Around me there were many dead bodies. I had no idea who had killed all these people, but I was scared that whoever had, had attacked me and put me down as well. I stood up and only saw two people sitting, alive, Kikyo and Kaede. I could imagine that the noise had brought Kaede from her room outside of her house. It was a bit strange that they were the only ones not hurt.

"What happened?" I asked.

"Get away from me, stay back..." Kikyo replied, frightened.

"Why what's wrong... what is going on?"

"You killed all those people Inuyasha... I thought you were different. I wasn't sent to kill you I wanted to, at first, anyways. I don't have parents, Inuyasha; I live with my aunt and uncle. I lied to you and I got Kaede to lie to you as well, I didn't want you to know. But now that you have killed people you deserve to know. When my aunt and uncle had told me you were the son of the demon that killed my folks, I had set out to kill you. I learned a lot on the road of trying to kill you; I learned that on the new moon you weakened, somehow. So you have to imagine I took advantage of that and only went out on the night of a new moon. The night I met you, something changed, you were different... innocent. I found out that you were only half-demon which sparked interest, because if your father married a human woman than that would only mean he wasn't a killing machine. I figured there was a mistake until now... " She answered.

I was speechless at first, I had killed all those people, and yet I hadn't remembered. But my father had killed her parents, and my mom had taught me never to hurt a fly. I just didn't get it. Tears welled up in my eyes... for the first time in awhile, and I fell to my knees and cried. I was still only just a kid.

Kikyo looked at me with a sympathetic hatred that only a hero would give to a pathetic villain, and just I couldn't seem to bear it. Kikyo... my one friend, or was once my one friend, now hated me because of my hatred for humans. It was my hatred that turned me insane for those minutes that I had killed those humans; that anger. Maybe that was why my mother had trained me to be emotional, but not in an angry way. In the way that I would express my feelings so that they wouldn't bottle up and eventually cause me to release all my anger. Maybe that was why I was hated by all.

"Kikyo, I-I'm sorry... I just l-lost it... p-please forgive me Kikyo... I know that's a lot to ask, but I just... I just didn't know what was happening. My mind worked on its own." I stuttered.

I wanted to run away, but I didn't want to leave Kikyo. I was waiting for a Kikyo's simple line saying she would never want to see me again, and once she said it I would leave... and probably never return.

"INUYASHA!" Kikyo screamed, "That hatred in your eyes was hard to bear, I can't believe you would do that. There are some people still alive in this village, you are lucky. Just leave, come back when you can control yourself. Forget about me, and just leave, for a long time... maybe even forever..."

I stood up from my place on the ground and let my tears roll down my face, leaving red lines streaming down my face. I tried to look as though I didn't care, but I couldn't. I tried to speak but all that came out was, "K- K-Kikyo..."

So with that I ran away, I ran through the forest where my house was located, but I hadn't gone home. If I had I would have been hated by my mother, so I had to make as if nothing had happened. I climbed up a tree and lay in it, still crying. I tried to calm myself down by saying that I still had my mother, and that maybe my brother and I could become friends, whenever I met up with him again. But nothing helped I just put everything back... and I didn't look back, until now.

I wish I made it longer than this but I had slight writers block... and I'm completely exhausted... I'll see you guys next chapter... (well, whoever's reading this lol).