Yep, they keep gettin shorter and shorter. Sorry I haven't exactly written. The reason is purely writer's block, I've been writing this for about 3 days now and I couldnt seem to finish it. Also my brother wouldnt get off the computer.

Disclaimer: I dont own Inuyasha... or any of the characters from the show.

Chapter 5:

It wasn't really that I wanted her to forget; more or less I just never wanted it to have happened. I still don't know what happened, but I must find out. I'll do anything to find out. When I asked Kikyo about it, she told me I seemed to have gone full demon, and though it seems to be possible, considering I turn full human every month; it isn't.

"Kikyo, I'm leaving for while once again!" I said.

"What? Why? Where?" Kikyo asked.

"Yes I'm leaving. I have to find out why I'm so unstable. I don't know, wherever my journey seems to lead me!" I answered, I felt smart for answering all her questions in order.

Kikyo replied, "That is the stupidest thing I've ever heard!" /Inuyasha comically falls/

"WHAT DO YA MEAN STUPID?" Inuyasha yelled.

"It's dumb... you might as well just shut the fuck up and sit down!" said Kikyo

That was the first time I had ever heard Kikyo swear...

"You've never sworn before!"

"Well, duh! I was eight when you met me... innocent... Inuyasha I'm gonna be a priestess... I have to know how to defend myself verbally and physically!"

"Physically? I can kick your a-"

Inuyasha was interrupted by an arrow aiming right for his stomach. It hit him right in the shoulder.

"What the hell?" Inuyasha asked as blood oozed from his wounded shoulder.

"I can defend myself with arrows just as well as you can wield a sword to defend ye self, Kaede uses magic..." Kikyo responded.

"Well, you didn't have to HIT ME! ARE YOU A MANIAC? I COULD BE DEAD!" I screamed.

"You're half demon you don't die that easily!" She exclaimed then shook her head and walked away.

I stared at her blankly, and then pulled the arrow out of my shoulder; I had to tell you IT HURT! I mean honestly, you don't just shoot arrows at people! I don't go slicing people with a sword, not that I have one, but that's not the point! She could've killed me... if I was eight, ironically she probably would've done that when we were eight as well... she was after me, so that she could avenge her parents. Even so, how would that avenge her parents? I'm his son! Nothing more, nothing less... I didn't even know the guy... he died. Alls I know is that he WAS a great strong demon... and that don't help much.

The question still remains... did my father kill her parents intentionally, or unintentionally? Either way, they're dead, but I still would like my questions answered.

All my questions.

So I'm going on a journey, to find out who I am... and soon I'll rejoin Kikyo. Once I return, Kikyo and I will have children maybe. I can talk her outta being a priestess, she'll love me so much she won't be able to resist. I wish I could take her with me, but she can't leave Kaede, and I don't want Kaede to come and then be killed. I'm gonna go visit Kikyo for the last time in a bit. Maybe she'll kiss me goodbye. I know I'm dreaming, but I really do love Kikyo, and for all its worth I don't think she'll love me unless I belong somewhere... but mostly I think she wants me to be human. In a way I wouldn't mind being human, but in another way, I'm scared. I've always been ahead of humans and if now I decide to change... I may get picked on or murdered because I will still be half-demon at heart.

Humans are so judgmental.

Mental Note: Marry Kikyo, kill rest of human race... become demon.

But first I'm gonna have to find out what I am... and who I shall become.

I packed my bags, I didn't need much. Food basically. I still needed a weapon but I decided I'd make it out of a tree or something. I know, wishful thinking sucks, but hey eventually I'll get somewhere /gulps/ I hope.

(Author's note: when things are in between slashes /like this/ it represents an action)

I approached Kikyo's house, or shrine rather.

"Hey hun, I mean sweetie... I mean Kikyo..." I blurted. I was so lost in my thoughts that I started to think Kikyo and I were actually married. Strange eh?

"Where'd that come from Inuyasha?" she asked.

"Hm, um... I was just joking! HAHAHAHA!" I said. Man, that was the fakest laugh ever.

"Um, Inu that was really fake! But anyways, moving on, come here I have something for you!" She exclaimed.

She pulled out a sword. I almost went running out. Is it some kind of ritual for her to kill me? Actually funny question, because it is... afterall she is a priestess... I'm a demon – ok half demon... but still sorta demon. And priestesses had to kill demons... man sometimes I wish Kikyo had become a archer, she seemed to love it so much. She could just kill things for food, like I do. Too bad she's a vegetarian /sigh/.

We sound like a couple that will never happen. But I believe we can work things out. I really like this girl... she's the only girl I've ever had, and my only friend. I can't trust anyone. If I tell most people that I'm even half demon, they come to kill me. Not that they can't tell that I am by just looking at me. I want to be normal for once.

Maybe if I was demon my brother would love me.

"Hello, Kikyo to Inuyasha? Man, you seem like your a bit spaced out..." Kikyo said.

"Oh, um... don't hurt me! Please! I mean the arrow was enough bu-"

"Inuyasha I'm not gonna hurt you, I made this sword for you, and Kaede put a spell on it. You can't kill humans, only demons... and you can kill half demons... so don't commit suicide... and yes that's the effect of the spell!" She exclaimed.

"Wow! Thanks Kikyo!" I blushed.

I took the sword with pleasure, and I was glad she had put a good spell on it. I was astounded that Kaede had learned so much about magic. I shall thank her when I get back.

"Kikyo I better get going... Um I'll miss yeah! More than you'll ever know!" I said, trailing off.

She ran up to me and gave me a big hug, and then when I thought that was all. She gave me kiss, ON THE LIPS! My first real kiss... that was a happy memory...

Ok guys seriously R&R so that I know someone's actually reading it. I've written 5 chaps and i don't see the point of writin the rest if no1's gonna R&R... so please do. Even if you completely hated it... just give me some tips... ANYTHING! just read and review... later...

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