Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, I do own my character Lila.

Okay as I said I particularly like this chapter...

Chapter 11:

"What do you wish to talk about Inuyasha, I don't think this is the proper time... Kaede needs me..." Kikyo replied.

I looked over at Kaede and saw her playing with Lila, not a care in the world.

"They seem to be doing alright... Kaede's a tough kid..." I said.

"Well, I guess she's okay, but make it fast I have to... er... check on something..." Kikyo answered.

"Um, well then maybe I'll wait..." I began.

I knew she hated me, she was too caught up in something else, and maybe she loved another.

"No, no... it's okay. Sorry I've just been so busy... there are so many people that need care that I haven't even seen you," Kikyo said.

Tears welled up in her eyes and she brought me into and embrace. She cried on my shoulder and I held her tightly. I hadn't the slightest idea what was wrong, but whatever it was had her completely tied up in it. She was tied so tight that she had to let it out, and I was the one to be there.

"Everything's going to be okay Kikyo... everything's fine!" I reassured her I rubbed her back in circling motions while I hugged her.

"It's just that I want to help everyone, I really do, but I can't cure everyone. Everyone's after this jewel, and I can't take it... I can't fight forever, and what happens when I die? I can't hand the burden over to Kaede; I feel that it will wreck her life..." Kikyo cried.

"Kikyo?" I asked loosening my hold on her.

"Yes?" She asked looking up from her position on my shoulder.

"Give the jewel to me, I wish to become human. Once I use it, it will disappear... and then it won't be a problem. You'll be a normal human!" I exclaimed.

"Are you sure you wish to become human? Once the jewel is used you will no longer be able to become half-demon..." Kikyo began.

"Really, I'm sure. I've thought this through, and I want to be with you, but the only way to do that is to relieve you from the powers of the jewel; I will do it for you," I finished.

She nodded and then she told me that tomorrow we would meet and that I would use it to become a full-fledged human.

I went to sleep that night, under the stars. Lila had wanted to sleep there, she loved being outside. I looked at her and something in her eyes told me that something was wrong. I asked her about this and she didn't answer, I asked her again and she told me that there was nothing.

"Lila what's wrong?" I wondered.

"I – I... I saw something... in my dreams. You had betrayed everyone... you set the village on fire..." Lila said sadly, "you told me that being cold wasn't being a hero... but I don't believe you. I want to be cold, than nothing will hurt me..."

She had, had the same dream as me, but I couldn't tell her that; then she would freak out.

"Lila, when you're cold everything hurts you, but you block it out. You take all your emotions and throw them away. Feelings are a gift, so don't waste them like my brother has..." I replied.

"B-But... heroes don't cry... you don't cry..."

"That's untrue... I've cried many times in my life, but I keep it a secret. I don't even know why, maybe I just don't want others to be so – so upset. Lila don't be like me... don't make the mistakes that I did... don't be cold and fake. Be someone that others care about..." I told her truthfully.

I had lived a lie for half my life; always denying who I was. I always told others that I was tough, that nothing could faze me, and that nothing hurt. That came with time though... when I was Lila's age I acted like a kid... and then I grew... then I realized that no one could be so... so heartless. Even Sesshomaru couldn't be, he showed me that also, but now I'm changing my life around. Now, I can show emotions... now I can be human and thoughtful... I can feel what others feel; but who will protect them?

"Inuyasha... I want to be like you... you're my best friend ever. I told Kaede that, and now she hates you... I'm sorry. She disliked you in the beginning though, you took her sister away too much," Lila explained.

"Lila, get some rest... it's late, I know you'd like to continue talking, but I can't," I replied.

She nodded, but she looked sad. She curled up into a ball and slept underneath the midnight blue sky.

Tomorrow I was to be human. I was beginning to have second thoughts, but I loved Kikyo and maybe I could have Lila as my child, adopt her as my own.

Lila's dark, almost blue hair blew with the wind, her dark green kimono almost blended with the grass. Her eyes shaped her character, they were almost blue, but they had red lines in them. She was so unique...

I should rest, tomorrow's the big day, tomorrow's the day that everything will change, and hopefully for the better!

I woke up bright and early to find Lila still asleep.

"Psst Lila, wake up!" I whispered.

She awoke and right then and there she started hopping up and down.

"Cumon Inuyasha let's play or something, I'm bored!" She said, ecstatic.

"We just woke up, and I have to do something first!" I replied.

We were walking down the path to the village when an arrow by Kikyo almost struck Lila. I felt so betrayed and right then and there I decided that since Kikyo had decided that Lila wasn't worth her time; then I couldn't be with her. No matter how much I wanted to be. I threw Lila on my back and raced towards the village. I was going to steal the jewel, and become demon after all.

"Lila, I am going to become a demon today... will you hate me if I do?" I asked.

"No, not unless you change yourself completely... like your attitude and stuff," Lila replied.

I promised her I wouldn't.

I told Lila to wait at the door of the shrine while I picked up the jewel. When I got back, she was gone. She had betrayed me also. I wanted to cry, I really did... but I couldn't. This wasn't something to cry over anyway. When the villagers saw me with the jewel and without Kikyo they shot arrows and threw stones at me. I jumped high and looked down; one of the villagers had Lila in a tight hold. I jumped around and I saw Kaede, she was the one leading the arrow attack. They weren't quick enough to hit me, the arrows were tipped with fire and since they couldn't hit me they hit other things; the village was on fire. I reached the ground and got chased by the villagers. The one who had her in a tight grip was now carrying her. They chased me into the forest, to the tree Kikyo and I had once called our 'special tree.' When they got there the villager put Lila down and tightly grasped her. The hold wasn't tight enough.

"INUYASHA!" Lila screamed.

She struggled out of the villager's hold and ran towards me; right than an arrow that was aimed for me hit her right in the back.

I fell to my knees and looked at her. She was still alive, but I knew she would only live for moments longer.

"Lila... I'm sorry... it's all my fault..." I whispered.

She looked at me, her eyes were just staring into mine. I could see in her eyes how much she was hurt, not by the arrow, but by what I ha caused.

"I'm sorry I ran; I was scared. I thought you were becoming a robber like the one who attacked us," Lila whimpered.

"I would never do that..." I replied.

She was so innocent... I felt tears come to my eyes, and they fell onto her face. I kept thinking how to save her, but I knew if I pulled the arrow from her back it would kill her faster, the arrow was keeping the blood in. I knew any minute she would die.

"Inuyasha, you're right... people who are cold aren't heroes... it is people who can feel who are the real heroes, I'm sorry I doubted you," Lila said, wise beyond her years.

"Lila... I love you... you are like a daughter to me. Please don't die!" I cried.

"I've never seen you cry before; I guess there's a first for everything!" Lila replied. Her eyes closed and her breathing stopped. As she died I saw a single tear roll down her cheek, and then there was nothing. She died into my arms. Time seemed to have stood still for those few minutes; all the villagers had stopped what they were doing to see what had happened. I wiped the tears from my face.

"WHO SHOT THAT ARROW?" I screamed.

No one answered; Kikyo stepped out from beyond the crowd.

"You used her so you wouldn't die; pathetic. Using a little girl as a shield... you can't stand dying can you? You can kill others just as easily though," Kikyo yelled. She had a huge gash on her shoulder, and she was grasping it with the hand that wasn't holding the bow and arrow.

"Kikyo..." I cried.

"Die Inuyasha!" She screamed and took her hand from her shoulder and shot an arrow, it struck me right in the heart.

I landed against the very tree Kikyo and I had shared memories with. It was an enchanted arrow, or else it wouldn't have hurt so much. As I felt the pain consume my very body, I realized that everything I had done was for nothing. I hadn't done anything for anybody but myself. It was my fault Lila had died... and I knew it. My heart had been broken beyond repair. Kikyo, my one love had killed me and Lila the only child I had ever really cared about had died right in front of my eyes. I can never trust anyone again...

well what do you guys think? I might do another chapter containing some of Inuyasha's dreams and what happens when Naraku met up with the monk... until then... see yeah...