I'm sorry, a roswell fanfic

I'm sorry

By: sera lunaria

disclaimer: I don't own Roswell or it's characters. Please do not sue. The song I made up, if you would like to use it in a fic please notify me first. Thank you.

The rain was rushing down on us, we were in the middle of the alley behind my home. I look away, I do what I must. A question I cant bear to answer, for her own safety.

I'm totally lost

words are frost

her eyes

are melting

I feel so horrible. She knows that I ant be telling her the truth. I looked back at her with my eyes sternly gazing. I try not to cry I'm trying so hard not to pull her into me. To hold her and say everything will be alright. My hands are shaking, I do what I must. For her safety.

I'm saying

what I

shouldn't say

still I say what I say

"Please max... please don tell me what I know you don't feel" she said taking a step towards me. The rain has made us both soaked to the bone. She shivers, although I'm not sure from the cold or the hate burning in her tone. I say what I say because I must. "I don't love you Liz, I need to go" I say trying hard to keep a steady voice. Although at the last word I crack.

The clouds

shade me

from the gods

solemn frowns

I'm sorry

she'll go on

" max" her voice finally broke. Her tears fell and mixed with the rain that continued to fall.

She told me

to tell her

what

I honestly

think of her

" what was I to you? What did you really think of me these last two years with me?" liz asked softly . My hands twitched with anger at myself and at her for making me so weak. "I felt nothing for you liz, I wanted to escape my world and my duties so I stayed with you, I never loved you" I said. My hands hurt from the fists I produced. Her eyes widen and then they dropped. She looked away silently and the tears fell horribly from her eyes. My heart was breaking in two, and I did not want to cry.

I told her

what I

honestly

didnt

I told her

she cryed

I'm sorry

I denied

" she looks up at me. A small twisted , grieving smile playing on her lips. "I see" she said. "no one loves me, not even the only one I've ever loved" she said.

I do!

I do!!

But I denied

you

I cant say I do

I'm sorry

she gets into

her car

speeds away

to a pitter

patter rain

" I love you liz parker, and always will, I'm sorry for telling you what I must." I turned and looked at my home of 19 years, placed my hand on the pillar of the porch. My eyes closed for a moment or two and I opened to find my home ablaze. My hand print charred into the wood. A light filled the air around me. I looked up. My sister smiling sadly , helping me up. "we're going home" Michael says softly. I close my eyes and begin to pray. When Isabelle places her hand on my head, I begin to sob. Michael is in the corner looking at a picture of pregnant maria. His tears fall silently as I we fly away home.