Odi et Amo
Author: Shushu
Rating: R (slash in the next -and last- chapter, keep on waiting!)
Pairing: Harry/Draco
Disclaimers: All the characters belong to J.K. Rowling, blah blah blah…
Author's notes: Thanks to all the people who have reviewed (and thanks to everyone who has reviewed Nocturne).
Sorry if it too a bit to update, but I had to study for an exam…
Lampshadesrgreat: thanks a lot!
Anon: I hope you like this poem too, thanks for the translation
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Petite Dilly: Merciiiii beaucoup! J'ai cherché à être réaliste, mais j'ai un peu exagéré, peut-être…je déteste l'homophobie!
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I've tried to translate the poem but translating from Latin into English is not very easy, since they are both foreign languages for me…I love Catullus!
Thanks again to all the people who sent me those wonderful reviews!! You really really really make me happy!!
Chapter Two: Da mi basia mille
"Da mi basia mille, deinde centum,
dein mille altera, dein secunda centum,
deinde usque altera mille, deinde centum.
Dein, cum milia multa fecerimus,
Conturbabimus illa, ne sciamus
Aut ne quis malus invidere possit,
cum tantum sciat esse basiorum."
Catullus, 5
"Give me a thousand kisses, then a hundred,
Then another thousand, then a second hundred,
then yet thousand, then a hundred.
Then, when we have made up many thousands,
we will confuse the sums, in order not to know the reckoning,
and avoid any malicious person from envying us,
when they know that our kisses are so many."
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"P-P-P-Professor Snape!!!", I manage to say.
"Mr. Potter? Why are you here?" he asks seeming amused.
"I …ehm…we…eeerrr…"
"We were doing homework!", Draco shouts.
"Yes! We were studying together!", I add.
Snape raises an eyebrow and asks:
"Then why are Mr. Potter's books on the floor?"
Bloody Hell!
"Eeerrr…"
"He let them fall when you called me! He was so surprised to hear your voice that he let all his books fall…", says Draco.
Snape doesn't seem very convinced.
"However, Severus, what brings you here?", asks Draco.
Hey, hang on, Severus?!?!
"I need to talk to you, Draco", says Snape.
Draco??!?!?
"In private" adds Snape glowering at me.
Botheration!
Draco looks disappointed and pouts. Soooo kawaii.
"I'm sorry, Harry"
"See you later, then. Goodbye, Professor Snape."
"Goodbye Potter"
As I leave the room, I start thinking about our kiss.
It was so beautiful…
So breathtakingly amazing…
So sweeeeet…
Oh, Draco…
Sigh…
Damned Snape!
He has interrupted our first kiss!
I'll never forgive him; even if he's been so kind to me this morning.
Come to think of it, Snape who is kind to me?!
Kind?!
To me!?
There must be something strange…
He has defended me when Seamus was making fun of my homosexuality.
…
Hey!
What if Snape were gay too?
Then he didn't want to stand up for me; he was fighting for gay rights!
And I've just left him alone with Draco!
What if he rapes my Draco?
Holy Jesus, I'm an idiot!
I have to save him!!!
"Hey Harry, you are going to dinner, aren't you? I'll come with you", it's Hermione.
"Err, no, I'm sorry but I'm going to…to…"
"To?"
"Well, I…I…it's actually something quite private"
"Private? Are you up to something, Harry?", she asks frowning.
"No, no, it's just…"
"Malfoy?"
"Yes, I mean NO! No, it's not him, it's…"
And then God hears my prayers and my blond angel comes to save me.
"Harry, I'm so sorry, Snape wanted to talk to me and he has been a bit rude to you. Hi, Granger"
"Hi, Malfoy", she smiles at him and looks sideways at me and then asks:
"Can we go to dinner now?"
"Ok", I say.
"Can I come with you?", asks Draco shyly.
"Of course you can. You will sit next to me", I state.
Draco looks blissful.
"Thanks, Harry"
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Draco eats really little. Maybe too little.
But he talks a lot.
Now he's talking to Hermione about Ancient Runes, while I am trying to convince Ron that Draco is not a murderous Death Eater. But Ron is very stubborn.
When we finish our meal, I'd like to go back to Draco's room and continue our previous "occupation", but Hermione doesn't stop talking to him and seems to ignore me.
I think she's doing that on purpose.
Ron looks very jealous and this is quite amusing -if only he knew Draco's gay!
"I think I should go now" says Draco.
Nooooo!!!
Don't leave me!
"It's been a real pleasure talking to you, Hermione"
Hermione?
"See you, Weasley"
…
"Harry, you forgot your books in my room this afternoon. You can come with me and take them now, if you want to. I think you'll need them to revise what we've studied, won't you?"
He's a genius and I really cherish him.
I grin and nod.
"Yes, I think I'll have to study a bit more…see you later 'Mione, Ron"
And I follow my sweet angel.
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"Amor ch'a nullo amato amar perdona" states Draco and the painting of his room opens.
"What does it mean?"
"It's a line taken from The Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri. He's a XIV century Italian writer. It's Francesca, a woman Dante meets during his trip to Hell, who says: "amor ch'a nullo amato amar perdona" and it means that you can't prevent yourself from loving someone who loves you. That's why Francesca fell in love with her brother-in-law Paolo and betrayed her ugly husband."
"And what happened to them?"
"They were killed by Francesca's husband who caught them while they were making love."
"How unlucky!"
"And they were sent to Hell because they were lustful"
"Poor fellows…"
"Yep"
We enter Draco's room and close the door behind our backs. Draco stares at me with a playful smile on his perfect face.
"I'm sorry Snape interrupted us before"
"Me too…what did he want, by the way?"
"He had a message from Dumbledore"
"Dumbledore?"
"Yes", the smile on his lips fades and I understand I've made the wrong question.
How stupid!
"I've asked Dumbledore the permission to go home for Christmas. Malfoy Manor is mine now, since my parents are in Azkaban. But the problem is I'm still underage and so I can't stay there all alone"
"Oh, I'm sorry, Draco"
"What are you going to do during our Christmas holidays, Harry?"
"I'm spending them here, as usual. I have nowhere else to go…"
We look like two lonely unlucky orphans.
I have an idea.
"We could spend the holidays together. What do you reckon?"
He seems surprised by my proposal, but then he grins from ear to ear and says:
"It would be brilliant!"
I need to kiss him.
He's so sweet when he smiles…
"Draco, can I…can I…"
"?"
"Can I k-k-kiss you?"
He smiles sheepishly, gets near and kiss me oh so slightly on my lips.
"Of course you can", he whispers.
Merlin, I'm going to die…
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When I go back to Gryffindor Tower, it's pretty late, my lips are red and swollen, my hair is messier than usual and I think I have a couple of hickeys on my neck.
I definitely need a cold shower.
"Hi, Harry. I think we need to talk"
I should have guessed that Hermione wouldn't have let me go to bed without telling me off before. She's alone in the common room, apparently waiting for me.
"Isn't there something you want to tell me?", she asks.
"Err…nighty night, perhaps?"
"Ah bloody ah"
"Ok, Hermione, chill out…I'm sorry I haven't told you everything before, but I was so confused and I actually didn't know what was happening."
Her eyes are shining with expectation.
"Sit down and tell me everything!"
Sometimes I think she'd better watch a soap opera instead of tormenting me in order to satisfy her need of romance…
I sit down beside her and start eating one of her biscuits.
"Are you in love with Malfoy? Is he gay ? Have you kissed? Have you shagged? What about Snape? Is he gay too? Is it a threesome???"
"HERMIONE!!! Get a grip!! Are you mad?!"
"Ooops, I'm sorry…I think a got a bit involved…"
Is she insane?
She's the hell of a slasher!
"Yes, Malfoy's gay and we have kissed. He says he's in love with me but I don't know if I'm in love with him and no, no ,no, absolutely NO, we don't have a ménage à trois with Snape!"
She seems disappointed but smiles anyway.
Sometimes she scares me…
"Have you shagged?"
"Err, no, not yet"
"Not yet?"
I think I'm blushing scarlet.
"I-I-I really like him and he turns me on so much I would do it right now, but he says he wants to make love to me, so I think I should wait until I find out if I'm in love with him."
Hermione smiles and hugs me.
"You're such a good boy, Harry"
"Th-Thanks"
"You're doing the right thing and besides I think it's better not to go too fast. Malfoy seems very fragile now, be careful or you'll hurt him."
"Ok"
"But make love to him as soon as you're ready. He's sooooo hot!"
"Hermione!!!"
She bursts out laughing and I do the same.
"Anyway, are you two officially dating?"
"I think so. And moreover I'm going to spend the Christmas holidays with him"
"Wow, that's so romantic!"
"He's going to ask Snape if I can sleep in his room during the holidays"
"And you think he'll agree?"
"Draco says he certainly will since Snape is his godfather and, besides, he's gay too"
"Snape's gay?!?!"
"Shush! It's a secret! You don't have to tell a soul, right?"
"Ok, I promise"
"He really loves Draco as a son and he'd do anything for him"
And I was right about him…he's gayer than me!
"So you're going to spend some nights in his room…"
"Yes…"
"Sleeping in his bed…"
"Right…"
I wonder when she has become so pervert…
"Is he a virgin?", she asks innocently.
"Yes, he has told me I'm the first person he has ever kissed"
"How cute! I would have never thought that a guy like Malfoy had never been kissed. He's such a nice piece of ass…"
…
I wonder if she's planning to take pictures of Draco and me making out.
Maybe I should ask someone to help me…
"Harry, please, don't hurt him!"
"I won't"
"I can teach you some lubricant spells"
"HERMIONE!!"
"What?"
"Where have you learnt these things?!?"
"Books, of course. Since Ron is pretty clumsy, I am the one who has to look for this kind of things. Do you need one?"
"Eerr, I think I'll go to bed" and before she can argue, I say goodnight and hide inside my dorm.
Ron awakes as I put my pyjamas on and asks me sleepily:
"Harry, have you been in Malfoy's room all the evening?"
"Yes"
"Have you…I mean, have you…did you…have you shagged him?"
"Not yet"
I get under the covers and say goodnight to him.
"Not Yet?!?!?" I hear him mutter ten minutes later.
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TBC
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Next chapter will be the last one (and there will be a lot of slash).