For days after that long, rainy night, the Teen Titans went into full throttle baby mode and Raven was beside herself. At breakfast on Monday, Cyborg had made an extra waffle just for her.
"You're eatin' for two now, Raven. Can't have the little tyke starving to death!" he had insisted. Raven rolled her eyes but ate the waffle anyway. She didn't want to hurt his feelings. Raven didn't know it then, but if the waffle episode irritated her, that was nothing compared to the rest of the team and their 'accommodations' for her. Robin turned down the intensity of the obstacle course for her, even though she insisted that she didn't need him to. Starfire took up knitting. Beast Boy made sure that there were extra pillows on the couch for movie nights, and more often than not, Raven retreated to her room after each episode more frustrated than the last.
Early evening on Friday found Raven walking down the hall with two cups of her favorite tea. Cautiously, she stepped into Robin's laboratory and set a cup down in front of him. He had been at this latest endeavor for hours, and she knew for a fact that in that time, he had not emerged from that room. Robin looked up, surprised to see her.
"Thanks, Raven," he said, smiling. "Is everything okay?"
"I'm fine," Raven replied. Robin raised an uncertain eyebrow. Raven sank to the chair opposite him and sighed.
"I just don't want anyone making exceptions for me. I don't feel any different. You would think that I would be able to feel it; feel the baby, but I don't," Raven explained.
"Well," Robin replied somewhat awkwardly, "technically it's only about the size of a raison at this point, isn't it?" Robin inhaled the aroma of the peppermint tea and took a small sip as Raven rubbed her eyes and then her temples.
"Tell me you haven't been in here researching baby stuff all night," Raven muttered.
"But it's fascinating! Look! I even found a site where you could put in your due date and track how the baby grows each week," Robin replied, keying up several websites he had found. Raven didn't respond and Robin ducked his head for a moment before turning back around to face her.
"You want to know for sure, don't you?" Robin said softly. Raven nodded.
"I can run a scan if you want," Robin offered. Raven nodded and floated across the room to the large scanning deck across the room. Carefully, she removed her cloak and then laid down on the deck. Her heart pounded as the scanning equipment whirred to life.
"Are you okay, Raven?" Robin called from the control panel. Raven bit back her fears and nodded.
"I'm showing an elevated heart rate. Calm down, Raven, it'll be okay," Robin said, picking up the remote panel and coming to stand beside her. Raven took a deep breath and closed her eyes. Robin reached over with one hand and grasped Raven's, giving it a comforting squeeze as he pressed the scan button.
"Wow...Raven, look," Robin said. He tapped a few buttons on the panel inquisitively. Raven's eyes were squeezed shut until then.
"What? What's wrong?" Raven replied, suddenly opening her eyes. Robin gestured to the large screen where the results of the scan were displayed.
"You mean...?"
"You're not pregnant!" Robin said, astonished. If he hadn't performed the scan himself, he would not have believed it. Raven sat up and turned to look at Robin. His expression was one torn between relief and sympathy. Truth be told, he wasn't sure exactly which one he was supposed to feel. Was she happy she wasn't having a baby or was she disappointed that she wasn't?
"Raven...I..." Robin fumbled for the words.
"If I'm not pregnant what was Genesis talking about?" Raven asked.
"I've got it!" Robin cried. "It was Nicholas!"
"What are you talking about?" Raven replied.
"ShadowFox said that Jinx and Gizmo took Nicholas from his babysitter's home and sent Genesis to distract us so that they could get away. When we came back to the tower and found out that you had Nicholas, we thought maybe they had left him there intending to come back later but you got to him first. They left Nicholas in that alley near the hospital. It was Nicholas that Genesis sensed, not an unborn baby in you!" Robin reasoned.
Raven absorbed what Robin just told her. They had been wrong. She had been wrong. There was no baby. Not sure whether to be thrilled or miserable, Raven hugged her friend and thanked him for his help.
"Where are you going?" Robin asked.
"To bed. I need some time alone to think," Raven replied.
On the way to her bedroom, Raven spotted Beast Boy in the hall. He saw the look on her face and his color drained.
"What's wrong?" Beast Boy asked. Raven tried to walk around him but he blocked her path. "Raven?"
"I'm not pregnant, Beast Boy," she said without looking at him. At his puzzled look, she explained the results of Robin's scan. He stood speechless for a moment, not quite sure what to say. Raven didn't wait for him to make up his mind.
"I'm going to go take a bath and then I'm going to bed," Raven said harshly. She walked around Beast Boy and locked herself in the bathroom. Beast Boy stood for a minute processing what had just happened. Why was she being so cold toward him? It wasn't his fault that she hadn't really been pregnant. Beast Boy pressed himself up against the wall and sank to the floor, scratching his head with his tapered fingers. Before long, he heard the sounds of her getting up out of the tub. The sniffle that accompanied the dripping of the water could only mean one thing: she had been crying again. Beast Boy pressed a couple of keys and bypassed the lock on the bathroom door.
The sight he walked in on would invade his memories for the rest of his life. Raven was standing with her back to him, dripping wet and wearing nothing but a towel. He stopped just inside the doorway but it was too late to go back. He took a deep breath and spoke as she turned to reprimand him.
"Raven, talk to me!" Beast Boy demanded. "What is your deal?"
"Leave me alone!" she growled. "I even take a bath without supervision now!?"
"I'm worried about you!" Beast Boy replied.
"Why? I already told you it's over. I'm not pregnant." Raven spat back.
"But that's why I'm worried! You haven't been yourself all day!" Beast Boy cried.
"Since when have I ever been myself?" Raven retorted.
"See? This is what I mean!" Beast Boy cried out in exasperation.
"If it bothers you so much, why don't you just go away?" she sneered.
"I love you, Raven! I love you and if you can't handle that; if loving me isn't your 'thing' then you need to let me know so that I can stop ripping my heart out over you!" Beast Boy suddenly shouted. He knew that he was potentially waking up the rest of the team. He just didn't care.
"What are you talking about?" Raven hissed.
"Ever since that night at the club I've done nothing but be there for you and you just push me away! You kissed me the next day and it took everything I had not to faint. I thought you'd never let me touch you again. Then you thought you were pregnant but I loved you even more. I know we're just kids and I know we probably weren't ready for that but I was willing to make that sacrifice with you. I was willing to be there and help you raise that baby. I was ready to marry you if that's what it took. But you haven't been able to look me in eye since! I don't know if it's something I did or what, but someone better fill me in or I walk, right now! I don't want to, but if me leaving is what will make you happy then I'll do it. I can't stand to see you like this anymore!" Beast Boy ranted, tears welling and then rolling in hot rivulets down his cheeks. He walked out of the bathroom and let the door slip shut behind him. He banged a fist against the wall and then listened. Still standing in the middle of the bathroom floor, cold, dripping and alone, Raven wept bitterly—and Beast Boy walked away.
Raven peeked out the door to the roof half an hour later to find Beast Boy sitting near the edge of the roof, his knees drawn to his chest and his head on his knees. He was staring out at the bay and appeared to still be feeling the effects of their fight downstairs. Starfire had found her in the bathroom and convinced her that she needed to talk to Beast Boy. She told Starfire that she wasn't sure Beast Boy would listen, but at Starfire's insistence, she went anyway. Cautiously, she sat down beside him and gazed out at the milky, translucent light of the moon and how it shimmered on the slightly rippling surface of the bay.
"I thought you were going to bed," Beast Boy said coldly.
"I asked for everything you said in there," she replied without justifying his comment.
"I meant it," he replied. Raven hung her head. She thought of the questions that Starfire had suggested that she ask him. They seemed silly, but she was willing to fly on anything at this point.
"Beast Boy, do you think I'm pretty?"
The green skinned Titan seemed to ponder this question carefully and chose his answer.
"No."
Shocked, Raven belied a sob and continued. "Do you really want to be with me forever?"
"No."
"If I got up and left right now, would you cry?" She asked, almost dreading what she knew was coming.
"No."
Raven stood up and was about to go back into the Tower, wiping tears from her eyes when she felt a hand on her arm.
"What now?" Raven wept, unable to stop the flash flood of tears clouding her eyes.
"Raven, I don't think you're pretty. I think you're beautiful," Beast Boy said gently. Raven stopped and stared as he continued. "and I don't want to be with you forever. I need to be with you forever."
Raven's expression changed completely. He was turning her own questions on her in a way that she had never anticipated.
"And if you left me right now," Beast Boy said more softly, drawing her nearer to him. "I wouldn't cry. Raven, I'd die. I'd die without you!" Beast Boy was crying now as Raven threw herself into his arms and kissed him. The team would find them the next morning on the couch in the living room, Beast Boy slouching with his feet propped up on the coffee table and Raven snuggled into his arms. None of the remaining three Titans knew what had happened on the roof that night, but whatever it was, the reconciliation that they had hoped for had occurred and that was all that mattered.
