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So here I was, staring at Akagi, unsure of what to do. Argh! I didn't really intend on training THAT day, yet, it might not be a wise idea to defy that humongous specie of a human, especially since Hisashi often come home with bruises on his head saying it was the work of Akagi. He probably wouldn't hit girls, but who knows? If only Kaede didn't tell him such rubbish!
"Hurry up!" Akagi said impatiently. I had to make a decision and quick! Okay, so I decided to be a chicken and rushed towards the others, joining them in running the warm-up rounds. I caught up with Kaede in no time and gave him a glare cold enough to freeze the sun. I don't think it worked though, since he just continued running. Should have known. I picked up pace and talked to my brother. At least he can make conversation, unlike some people whom I will not mention.
"Yo, big brother!"
"I thought you were here to watch, not train?"
"Yeah. But somehow, one thing leads to another you know?"
Hisashi smiled and we ran a few rounds together. As you can probably see from the conversation, I don't really tell him much. Don't wish to worry him about his baby sister you know... Especially one who is rather... queer. After about 5 rounds, I decided to run with the king of ice (sort of like the king of clubs, hearts etc huh?). So, I dropped back a little and was side-to-side with him. Since he refuses to speak, as usual, I decided to scold him about his little exchange with Akagi.
" Baka! Why did you tell Akagi-kun that I wanted to join the team? In case you want to know, I didn't. I know you pride yourself as a psychic and all so don't worry. I wouldn't tell your customers about your little failure here at reading minds. The point is that I didn't request you to read mine, correctly or wrongly. You may have worshippers all round you, willing to abide your every decision, if they haven't fainted with happiness just yet of course, but I am sorry to say, I am NOT one of them. What gives you the right to poke your nose into my business? It is quite amazing that you actually spoke on your own accord at the moment, but I would rather have you quiet instead. You really choose stupid moments to open your mouth, moments that would be better if you didn't do so. You may be a basketball genius, but just in case your head got too big, I would like to remind you that you are nothing but a do'a'hou in day-to-day life! Ironically, you seem to love that word, seeing that it is half of what you ever said. So, I guess you are an egoistic idiot too, since you talk about yourself half the time!"
Those words were said furiously, accompanied with a glare compliments from yours truly. Let me tell you, he should call himself lucky that I said it rather softly. Besides those around us, who are now staring at me as if I had gone bonkers, the rest of the team heard nothing of these words. I don't really want to let Akagi in onto me not wanting to train after all. I will simply go to heaven due to overheating of the face. Which person would be so chicken as to not speak up of her preference? By the way, that was a rhetorical question so shut up. I know that person is I! You don't have to live in your own world of self-denial and think you are so smart just because you know the answer to one stupid rhetorical question!
After so much I had said, you know what that brilliant mind reader of Kaede did? He glanced at me and continued his running as per normal. HE JUST GLANCED AT ME! Hello? I scolded him and he just GLANCED at me. Not even LOOK at me. He GLANCED at me! I could hear stifles of laughter coming from the surroundings. Oh great. Now I get the attention I had always longed for. Then why don't I feel happy? In case I further humiliate myself if that was possible (I don't wish to try), I fumed quietly inside and sulked in silence as we completed the running. What could I do? Hit that egoistic unfeeling being pretending to be a human? No.1 he can out-fight me with his little pinkie. No.2 He has a whole gang of pompom holding hearts for eyes drool-loving bimbos on his side and I had seen how violent they can get if anyone even touches their darling "Ru! Ka! Wa!"
Finally, we finished running. Oh damn damn damn damn! Akagi just told us that Anzai-sensei wouldn't be here. Not that I really care. But he also said that they were going to see how well I could play! Oh great! Yet another chance to get attention. Yet another chance to humiliate myself! I will probably be perfect at it soon, seeing that I will have so much practice at self-embarassment and everyone knows practice makes perfect. Yay! Perfect at something finally. Didn't I always wish I had something I could make a name in? Here's the chance at it!
So here is it. I was to join a team consisting of Miyagi (the short one), Kogure (someone with spectacles) and another year one player. Oh yeah! Who was I forgetting? KAEDE. My life rocks eh? At least those stupid girls by the side will be cheering for our team. We were playing against Akagi (argh!), my brother, Sakuragi (that will be hilarious! At least there will be one amusing part in this humiliation) and two other year one players I am not certain of the name. So my memory isn't too good. Like I care. It is just like the rest of me... a smarty-pants like you should have figured it out.
Inspite of my total lack of optimism on this match, I decided to try to play well, hoping (rather redundantly in my opinion) that I wouldn't make TOO much of a fool of myself. As I was getting ready, Kaede walked behind me. I gave him a look that clearly says "get lost" which he blatantly ignored. Sigh! I should have known. He stopped beside me, nodded a little and mouthed "gambatte". Damn. I was at a lost AGAIN. Argh! I seriously think I should consider taking a course on making decisions. I could not decide on even the simplest thing of whether to smile or glare back at him! I mean, look at it this way. How can I glare at my only friend who though had betrayed me earlier on, just supported me? Yet, how can I forgive that idiot so-called buddy so easily when he put me through such stupid things. Come to think of it, I wouldn't have to make these decisions if it weren't for him. So, compromising on these two, I nodded back at him.
It was a close match. I found myself trusting my wonderful pal so much that I almost always pass to him, surprisingly so as I was so mad at him a few moments ago. Probably because I could feel his total confidence and control in the court. I didn't have much of a chance to shoot as the players were all towering over me. Not that I mind since it means a smaller chance of humiliating myself too badly. So most of the time I just intercepted balls and passed them to Kaede. He would definitely get the balls in. Unlike me. I did shoot a few times though, but only one went in. Just as I expected. That one which got in? I am quite sure either they purposely let it go in in pity of me or it was a plain fluke. It had soared high, above both Sakuragi and Akagi's hands, landing neatly into the net.
We won. No, of course not, I didn't score the winning point. Kaede did. Figures. At least we won. Yay. How enthusiastic huh? After which, we did a few ball drills and some physical training. Then, training was over. I changed into my school uniform as I did not bring extra clothing since I, for one, do not have psychic abilities and could not foresee a little mind reader wannabe who decided to stick his nose into someone else's business for once in his life and that someone happened to be me. I waited for my brother while watching Sakuragi do his basic skills. Soon, he arrived. To my surprise, he was wearing quite nice clothes and looked rather surprised to see me. "Why aren't you going back yet?" he asked.
"I will walk back with you."
"Huh? I thought I told you last week I was going to a party tonight?"
Oh great. I had forgotten. I told you my memory sucks. Just like everything else of me. Now I will be attacked with a bunch of pompoms. Argh! I can practically taste the plastic dryness of pompoms. I really didn't want to go back myself but I had no choice did I? Now I will be giving those girlies a wonderful opportunity. Don't you think life is so great? First you get born, innocent and all. Then, your parents get divorced. Yay! End of all those bickering. Next, your mum dies. Your brother hurts his knee and joined a gang. Lastly, invisible you suddenly have a lot of unwanted attention and die with pompoms sticking in your mouth. Fun, isn't it? How I wish I had another chance at this fascinating game called life and live through all these fun again. Yay.
"So, I'll get going! Careful okay?" Hisashi said cheerfully, his initial surprise forgotten.
I walked out, having no choice but to accept my fate. Sigh, maybe in my next life I can choose to be a dolphin or something. It seems to always have others around it, never alone. Or maybe, just maybe, I would be allowed not to have a next life after all! Thinking all these pleasantries, I braced myself for my doom. Nothing. All I saw was Kaede mounting his bicycle, his hair still wet from the shower. Then, I had an idea. Those little airheads wouldn't kill me with their precious little gem watching would they? I guess I will take a chance.
"Kaede! Wait up!"
He halted and looked at me, his expression still unchanged. Sheesh! Sometimes I wonder if he had that expression on one day and a wind blew just like in fairytales, that's why he's face was to remain like that forever. Whatever. I walked hurriedly to his bike, trying to forget my displeasure at him just a few hours before.
"Can you walk me home? I don't want to face my pompom eating doom just yet."
He dismounted his bike and walked towards the direction of my house, pushing his bike along. I took his reaction as a "yes" to my question. We walked slowly in silence. I don't mind, since I am used to his silent company and since it would mean me getting home in one piece with nothing extra sticking out of my mouth.
"How come you are so popular that you have girls falling all over your feet that you don't even notice? It is not even that you are so charming or anything! I mean, no offense of anything, but I can't think why anyone would actually worship a guy who not only sleeps every other second of the day but also drools during his sleep? I mean, you look fine and all but going out with you usually mean going out with a zombie! Maybe coz those girls have never tried it before but isn't it obvious? They see you sleeping all the time and you hardly open your mouth! What more clues do they want? Fine, so you play your game well. But I don't even think they like basketball that much! If they did, they would have had a girls' team right? Okay. Let's see. My grades are better than yours. I pay attention to my hygiene, sleeping or otherwise. I actually make use of my mouth. Then why do everyone not only see you but also practically worship the ground you step on when I am non-existent in their eyes? Not today of course, since I seem to be getting a lot of attention because of you. That's out of point. I seriously don't understand! Maybe it is because you play a sport well and look good. But so? Don't they look at character traits as well? Okay. So I don't really have much of an outstanding character. But they don't even know your character! Unless they are mind readers too."
After this ranting of mine, I sort of expected Kaede to have a reaction. Yet, he didn't. I wasn't too surprised, so I continued, resigned.
"I guess it is because I am too ordinary. My grades are ordinary, my looks are ordinary, I am average at all games, my character is ordinary, and everything about me is ordinary! I have no special talents. I don't do weird things like sleep when I ride a bike. I am just too average! So average that it is no longer average! There is nothing special about me. That's why everyone doesn't notice my existence. I just sort of fade into everything. Hell, I don't even have a craze for anything! Not even you."
At that, I could not help myself and sank onto the ground. Kaede stopped. I hate myself for drawing attention to myself when I was feeling so low, so pathetic. Argh! Now I don't know what to do. I look so stupid just sitting down there. Yet, I couldn't seem to draw out enough strength to walk on. Damn. It must have been the training. Yes, it must have. It was all Kaede's fault. He was the one who made me train. Stupid me. Stupid average me. No wonder I can't even take ONE training. I was too average.
Kaede walked towards me, leaving his bike behind. His expression still unchanging, he picked me up and carried me home, which fortunately, was only around a hundred metres away. HE CARRIED ME HOME. As if I were a little kid. I can't believe he did that. ARGH! Why did I sit down? Now how am I going to face him? Not that he will mention it since he doesn't speak. But I will think about it every time I see him! Argh! Now I wouldn't even dare to face my only friend. I should have just let myself get stuffed with pompoms. It would be better than this humiliation. And I thought my humiliation during training was bad enough. Now this stupid idiot friend of mine just had to PICK ME UP AND CARRY ME HOME!
Outside my house, he finally put me down. By then, I was too embarrassed to look at him. Looking at the interesting bumps on the floor, I muttered my thanks and made a rush for the door. Yet, that stupid guy who thinks he is so strong that he had to show off and carry me home yet again proved his superiority in strength. He pulled me back in front of him and held my head up so I was looking at him in the eye. I looked down again despite my head being forced by that Hercules wannabe. For some reason, my mind wandered for a second to the fact that he was BOTH a psychic AND Hercules wannabe and was fighting the urge to ask why can't he stick to just being super- rookie basket baller.
"Look at me in the eyes." Great. So he wants to hypnotize me. Can't he stick on one career? I did as he told me though, wondering what he was up to.
"Promise me that you will like what you do and I will promise you that you will no longer be average."
Huh? I think he's decided to become a lunatic now.
Thanks lots for the reviews again. Sorry if this chap is not as nice ok? Pls review though... Will give me inspiration.
Btw sorry for scolding rukawa! Haha... I know how many fans he has out there.
Since most of the reviewers this time are my friends, shan't say much... but I dun really like the last part... too soppy for me but I really don't know how to express it? Sorry ok? I will try not to make the next chap as soppy. *puke*
So here I was, staring at Akagi, unsure of what to do. Argh! I didn't really intend on training THAT day, yet, it might not be a wise idea to defy that humongous specie of a human, especially since Hisashi often come home with bruises on his head saying it was the work of Akagi. He probably wouldn't hit girls, but who knows? If only Kaede didn't tell him such rubbish!
"Hurry up!" Akagi said impatiently. I had to make a decision and quick! Okay, so I decided to be a chicken and rushed towards the others, joining them in running the warm-up rounds. I caught up with Kaede in no time and gave him a glare cold enough to freeze the sun. I don't think it worked though, since he just continued running. Should have known. I picked up pace and talked to my brother. At least he can make conversation, unlike some people whom I will not mention.
"Yo, big brother!"
"I thought you were here to watch, not train?"
"Yeah. But somehow, one thing leads to another you know?"
Hisashi smiled and we ran a few rounds together. As you can probably see from the conversation, I don't really tell him much. Don't wish to worry him about his baby sister you know... Especially one who is rather... queer. After about 5 rounds, I decided to run with the king of ice (sort of like the king of clubs, hearts etc huh?). So, I dropped back a little and was side-to-side with him. Since he refuses to speak, as usual, I decided to scold him about his little exchange with Akagi.
" Baka! Why did you tell Akagi-kun that I wanted to join the team? In case you want to know, I didn't. I know you pride yourself as a psychic and all so don't worry. I wouldn't tell your customers about your little failure here at reading minds. The point is that I didn't request you to read mine, correctly or wrongly. You may have worshippers all round you, willing to abide your every decision, if they haven't fainted with happiness just yet of course, but I am sorry to say, I am NOT one of them. What gives you the right to poke your nose into my business? It is quite amazing that you actually spoke on your own accord at the moment, but I would rather have you quiet instead. You really choose stupid moments to open your mouth, moments that would be better if you didn't do so. You may be a basketball genius, but just in case your head got too big, I would like to remind you that you are nothing but a do'a'hou in day-to-day life! Ironically, you seem to love that word, seeing that it is half of what you ever said. So, I guess you are an egoistic idiot too, since you talk about yourself half the time!"
Those words were said furiously, accompanied with a glare compliments from yours truly. Let me tell you, he should call himself lucky that I said it rather softly. Besides those around us, who are now staring at me as if I had gone bonkers, the rest of the team heard nothing of these words. I don't really want to let Akagi in onto me not wanting to train after all. I will simply go to heaven due to overheating of the face. Which person would be so chicken as to not speak up of her preference? By the way, that was a rhetorical question so shut up. I know that person is I! You don't have to live in your own world of self-denial and think you are so smart just because you know the answer to one stupid rhetorical question!
After so much I had said, you know what that brilliant mind reader of Kaede did? He glanced at me and continued his running as per normal. HE JUST GLANCED AT ME! Hello? I scolded him and he just GLANCED at me. Not even LOOK at me. He GLANCED at me! I could hear stifles of laughter coming from the surroundings. Oh great. Now I get the attention I had always longed for. Then why don't I feel happy? In case I further humiliate myself if that was possible (I don't wish to try), I fumed quietly inside and sulked in silence as we completed the running. What could I do? Hit that egoistic unfeeling being pretending to be a human? No.1 he can out-fight me with his little pinkie. No.2 He has a whole gang of pompom holding hearts for eyes drool-loving bimbos on his side and I had seen how violent they can get if anyone even touches their darling "Ru! Ka! Wa!"
Finally, we finished running. Oh damn damn damn damn! Akagi just told us that Anzai-sensei wouldn't be here. Not that I really care. But he also said that they were going to see how well I could play! Oh great! Yet another chance to get attention. Yet another chance to humiliate myself! I will probably be perfect at it soon, seeing that I will have so much practice at self-embarassment and everyone knows practice makes perfect. Yay! Perfect at something finally. Didn't I always wish I had something I could make a name in? Here's the chance at it!
So here is it. I was to join a team consisting of Miyagi (the short one), Kogure (someone with spectacles) and another year one player. Oh yeah! Who was I forgetting? KAEDE. My life rocks eh? At least those stupid girls by the side will be cheering for our team. We were playing against Akagi (argh!), my brother, Sakuragi (that will be hilarious! At least there will be one amusing part in this humiliation) and two other year one players I am not certain of the name. So my memory isn't too good. Like I care. It is just like the rest of me... a smarty-pants like you should have figured it out.
Inspite of my total lack of optimism on this match, I decided to try to play well, hoping (rather redundantly in my opinion) that I wouldn't make TOO much of a fool of myself. As I was getting ready, Kaede walked behind me. I gave him a look that clearly says "get lost" which he blatantly ignored. Sigh! I should have known. He stopped beside me, nodded a little and mouthed "gambatte". Damn. I was at a lost AGAIN. Argh! I seriously think I should consider taking a course on making decisions. I could not decide on even the simplest thing of whether to smile or glare back at him! I mean, look at it this way. How can I glare at my only friend who though had betrayed me earlier on, just supported me? Yet, how can I forgive that idiot so-called buddy so easily when he put me through such stupid things. Come to think of it, I wouldn't have to make these decisions if it weren't for him. So, compromising on these two, I nodded back at him.
It was a close match. I found myself trusting my wonderful pal so much that I almost always pass to him, surprisingly so as I was so mad at him a few moments ago. Probably because I could feel his total confidence and control in the court. I didn't have much of a chance to shoot as the players were all towering over me. Not that I mind since it means a smaller chance of humiliating myself too badly. So most of the time I just intercepted balls and passed them to Kaede. He would definitely get the balls in. Unlike me. I did shoot a few times though, but only one went in. Just as I expected. That one which got in? I am quite sure either they purposely let it go in in pity of me or it was a plain fluke. It had soared high, above both Sakuragi and Akagi's hands, landing neatly into the net.
We won. No, of course not, I didn't score the winning point. Kaede did. Figures. At least we won. Yay. How enthusiastic huh? After which, we did a few ball drills and some physical training. Then, training was over. I changed into my school uniform as I did not bring extra clothing since I, for one, do not have psychic abilities and could not foresee a little mind reader wannabe who decided to stick his nose into someone else's business for once in his life and that someone happened to be me. I waited for my brother while watching Sakuragi do his basic skills. Soon, he arrived. To my surprise, he was wearing quite nice clothes and looked rather surprised to see me. "Why aren't you going back yet?" he asked.
"I will walk back with you."
"Huh? I thought I told you last week I was going to a party tonight?"
Oh great. I had forgotten. I told you my memory sucks. Just like everything else of me. Now I will be attacked with a bunch of pompoms. Argh! I can practically taste the plastic dryness of pompoms. I really didn't want to go back myself but I had no choice did I? Now I will be giving those girlies a wonderful opportunity. Don't you think life is so great? First you get born, innocent and all. Then, your parents get divorced. Yay! End of all those bickering. Next, your mum dies. Your brother hurts his knee and joined a gang. Lastly, invisible you suddenly have a lot of unwanted attention and die with pompoms sticking in your mouth. Fun, isn't it? How I wish I had another chance at this fascinating game called life and live through all these fun again. Yay.
"So, I'll get going! Careful okay?" Hisashi said cheerfully, his initial surprise forgotten.
I walked out, having no choice but to accept my fate. Sigh, maybe in my next life I can choose to be a dolphin or something. It seems to always have others around it, never alone. Or maybe, just maybe, I would be allowed not to have a next life after all! Thinking all these pleasantries, I braced myself for my doom. Nothing. All I saw was Kaede mounting his bicycle, his hair still wet from the shower. Then, I had an idea. Those little airheads wouldn't kill me with their precious little gem watching would they? I guess I will take a chance.
"Kaede! Wait up!"
He halted and looked at me, his expression still unchanged. Sheesh! Sometimes I wonder if he had that expression on one day and a wind blew just like in fairytales, that's why he's face was to remain like that forever. Whatever. I walked hurriedly to his bike, trying to forget my displeasure at him just a few hours before.
"Can you walk me home? I don't want to face my pompom eating doom just yet."
He dismounted his bike and walked towards the direction of my house, pushing his bike along. I took his reaction as a "yes" to my question. We walked slowly in silence. I don't mind, since I am used to his silent company and since it would mean me getting home in one piece with nothing extra sticking out of my mouth.
"How come you are so popular that you have girls falling all over your feet that you don't even notice? It is not even that you are so charming or anything! I mean, no offense of anything, but I can't think why anyone would actually worship a guy who not only sleeps every other second of the day but also drools during his sleep? I mean, you look fine and all but going out with you usually mean going out with a zombie! Maybe coz those girls have never tried it before but isn't it obvious? They see you sleeping all the time and you hardly open your mouth! What more clues do they want? Fine, so you play your game well. But I don't even think they like basketball that much! If they did, they would have had a girls' team right? Okay. Let's see. My grades are better than yours. I pay attention to my hygiene, sleeping or otherwise. I actually make use of my mouth. Then why do everyone not only see you but also practically worship the ground you step on when I am non-existent in their eyes? Not today of course, since I seem to be getting a lot of attention because of you. That's out of point. I seriously don't understand! Maybe it is because you play a sport well and look good. But so? Don't they look at character traits as well? Okay. So I don't really have much of an outstanding character. But they don't even know your character! Unless they are mind readers too."
After this ranting of mine, I sort of expected Kaede to have a reaction. Yet, he didn't. I wasn't too surprised, so I continued, resigned.
"I guess it is because I am too ordinary. My grades are ordinary, my looks are ordinary, I am average at all games, my character is ordinary, and everything about me is ordinary! I have no special talents. I don't do weird things like sleep when I ride a bike. I am just too average! So average that it is no longer average! There is nothing special about me. That's why everyone doesn't notice my existence. I just sort of fade into everything. Hell, I don't even have a craze for anything! Not even you."
At that, I could not help myself and sank onto the ground. Kaede stopped. I hate myself for drawing attention to myself when I was feeling so low, so pathetic. Argh! Now I don't know what to do. I look so stupid just sitting down there. Yet, I couldn't seem to draw out enough strength to walk on. Damn. It must have been the training. Yes, it must have. It was all Kaede's fault. He was the one who made me train. Stupid me. Stupid average me. No wonder I can't even take ONE training. I was too average.
Kaede walked towards me, leaving his bike behind. His expression still unchanging, he picked me up and carried me home, which fortunately, was only around a hundred metres away. HE CARRIED ME HOME. As if I were a little kid. I can't believe he did that. ARGH! Why did I sit down? Now how am I going to face him? Not that he will mention it since he doesn't speak. But I will think about it every time I see him! Argh! Now I wouldn't even dare to face my only friend. I should have just let myself get stuffed with pompoms. It would be better than this humiliation. And I thought my humiliation during training was bad enough. Now this stupid idiot friend of mine just had to PICK ME UP AND CARRY ME HOME!
Outside my house, he finally put me down. By then, I was too embarrassed to look at him. Looking at the interesting bumps on the floor, I muttered my thanks and made a rush for the door. Yet, that stupid guy who thinks he is so strong that he had to show off and carry me home yet again proved his superiority in strength. He pulled me back in front of him and held my head up so I was looking at him in the eye. I looked down again despite my head being forced by that Hercules wannabe. For some reason, my mind wandered for a second to the fact that he was BOTH a psychic AND Hercules wannabe and was fighting the urge to ask why can't he stick to just being super- rookie basket baller.
"Look at me in the eyes." Great. So he wants to hypnotize me. Can't he stick on one career? I did as he told me though, wondering what he was up to.
"Promise me that you will like what you do and I will promise you that you will no longer be average."
Huh? I think he's decided to become a lunatic now.
Thanks lots for the reviews again. Sorry if this chap is not as nice ok? Pls review though... Will give me inspiration.
Btw sorry for scolding rukawa! Haha... I know how many fans he has out there.
Since most of the reviewers this time are my friends, shan't say much... but I dun really like the last part... too soppy for me but I really don't know how to express it? Sorry ok? I will try not to make the next chap as soppy. *puke*